i'm glad to know that there are still people who listen to me talk. even if it is rubbish.

i'm glad that i have xiao gu who tries her best to understand.

jiejie, we are now switching roles.
now i'm slowly becoming a jiejie instead of you.
i would have to understand and take care of you now.
please stay safe and happy.
i love you.

what do i do now?

when even my own family doesnt understand me.
you know me for 19 years. and what does it end up to become?

i am not a little girl anymore.
I AM A GROWN UP NOW. STOP TREATING ME LIKE I AM A KID.
YOU ARE ALWAYS CONTRADICTING YOURSELF.
i am old enough to have the responsibility to take charge of my own things. but i am not old enough to handle them. WTF?

i am no longer the little jiale you see running about the house playing hide-and-seek or all kinds of games.
i am no longer the innocent little girl.
I AM ALREADY 19.
I WISH TO BECOME A LITTLE GIRL TOO but i just am no longer one. and i am facing the facts now. WHY AREN'T YOU?

i am not dumb. i do understand.
you are not the one listening. you are the one not understanding.
i simply hate it when no one listens to me talk.
YOU DUN LISTEN TO ME TALK AND YOU EXPECT ME TO RESPECT YOU? no way.
respect goes both ways.
i love you cause you are my family and i know that you care and love me unconditionally.
but that does not equate to me agreeing to what you say or how you do things.
i wun respect you cause you are my elder or you are my parents.
you need to EARN my respect.
i wun disrespect you but i would give you some face, until you show me that you dun deserve it.

treat me the way you want to be treated.
and to think you are my family. yes i love you, but you dun understand.
none of you actually understands.

"I don't exactly hate you. But if you were on fire, and I have a glass of water, I'd drink it."

My add-ons:
"and even if I have a tub of water, I'll bathe myself in it while continue watching you."

hi old friend.

an old friend talked to me today upon seeing my blog.
you know who you are and that made me really touched.
perhaps it was a coincidence that i am feeling down today but i really really appreciate it.
thanks. :D

i'm a bitch who loves to bitch

and even more so after i got into poly HAHAHA.

everyone deserves to be bitched, since everyone has got a shortcoming and you can only bitch about one's flaw. HAHAHA.

bitching makes me feel closer to the people i am bitching to cause of course they bitch back. ^^ and this is where mutual understanding is reached. if you are the one being bitched, you certainly will feel upset/angry and bitch about the person who bitched about you.

well, i say, dun care whoever is bitching about you. cause those that really loves you dun bitch about you HAHA. so sad to say, if i bitch about you, i dun love you at all. or you are just a hi-bye friend to me, or even a nobody. sorry i dun care. not like you TRULY care about me anywayyy.

i dun like to be affected by people, especially people who are not participating in my life. to me, it's like a vulnerability.
i have no idea why i am affected too. too afraid of being judged i guess.
i need to care a little lesser, not be bothered by what you say. i know what i said, and even though it might not be true in facts, i know i meant it at that point in time when i said it.
if whatever i felt/thought is wrong, then perhaps many others have the same wrong impression about you as well, right?

nevertheless, i just want to be happy with the people around me. <3 love you guys. you know who you are.

Talking about overseas internship

ME: every now and then you mail me you wear de clothes so i can smell. then when the shirt no more your smell i mail you back HAHAHAHAHA
MRTAY: lol. so ma fan! i pass you my underwear, i wear one week then i don wash, think the smell can last you 6months lol.


i thought i am bad enough but why he like that -_-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYRNA LAM (L)

HAHAHA i always said that she is the woman i love the most since primary school.
DO YOU RMB? HAHAHA.

my number one stalker, i realised we haven got a proper picture together yet!! D:
the four of us should take a picture together someday. LIKE A PROPER ONE. not shaun's candid ones HAHAHA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU WOMAN <3
(your favourite green okay! sorry no nicer green. blogger's font colours limited D:)
STAY HAPPY WITH YOUR IAN I'M WAITING THE DAY WHEN I RECEIVE YOUR WEDDING INVITATION HAHAHAHA.
if he bullies you, let me know. i help you beat him up okayy! :D together with shaun and jervis. JERVIS GOT GYM ONE HORH dun playplay HAHAHA. :D

sorry for being one day late (or technically 8hours and 43 minutes) my girl but you know i love you :')
thanks for listening to me talk nonsense and not minding my kaypoh-ness hehe you know it's cause i care for you maaaa. :D i lub youuu! <3

say hi to the surveyors

hi i was a surveyor for the past two nights. :)

okay technically only last last night since last night i left before they started doing the surveys.

anywayyy, as mentioned earlier, we went to changi airport for a field trip and went into the transit area as visitors kekeke. learnt about a lot of things and i found out that the airport staff has to be really sensitive and meticulous.

walked half of T2 and the whole of T3 and i never knew that there is a butterfly garden inside the transit area omg last time when i went bangkok wasted lahhh. D: should have gone there and take a look. :( but hehe nvm it's okay cause i still went there!!

a butterfly actually landed on my hand before fluttering off hehehe.

PRETTY BUTTERFLYYYY!

went over to esplanade at night for our PT surveyyy.

there wasn't anyone there for us to survey so me and tingting...

TOOK PHOTOOOOS :D

went over to chinatown after all the surveys with ade and met our dearest xueli clara and ahyi for some korean dinner onomnomnom. ate whatever they ordered cause they couldn't finish and in the end me and ade couldn't finish too. hahaha.

okayyy then to ytd.

went over to do survey again last night but ended up watching them have their dinner and walked around for a bit before going off to meet mrtay at somerset 313 and we had

THIS!

okay our last time for luxurious food cause we now have a save money scheme weeeee. okay i need to start saving my money now D:

DEDICATED TO THE TWO

the two what? can you guess? HAHAHA
my beloved two that just graduated the last thur! HEHE.

EDISON ANG KEH MAO AND HENG KEH LIM. <3

if you can't see the picture properly go to my fb okayy. hehe. i have them as my profile pic now! <3

i cannot imagine two years ago, if i nv meet them.
i still remember, i met mao first. and the first time was him offering me shaker fries HAHAHA. soon we got close and he asked me to be his ASCO and tada i became one and he found keh and tada i met keh. <3

first SCO outing. we just sat at bugis macs and talked rubbish. HAHAHA. all the jokes. DO YOU GUYS RMB!? :') all the what retarded 'games' which needs a 'key code' to understand. what black magic, meh meh jump over the wall HAHAHA. those times <3

throughout society, you guys treated me like a little kid taking care of me and making sure that i am always alright. <3
i remember MSA camp when i felt super lost cause both of you are in the same alliance and i was in the other. and i actually called you papa and mummy when we served the food that my alliance cooked HAHAHA. how retarded i was.

then during BAMP, the nightwalk. i was assigned to block 50 where i have no idea that it was super scary and you guys got worried and started discussing with the rest to transfer me to canteen 4 to be with keh. hehe you guys teng me so much ah. <3

during BAOC when most of the time there is only me and keh. but we enjoyed our times tgthr right! <3
i was super touched with the things you wrote on my birthday book this year. about how you were glad that you had me who helped you alot. i was sooo touched. cause i always felt like i wasn't doing enough. :( i love you kehh! and for the birthday book!! i actually teared when i read the part by ahmao cause i really din think that i would see his note but i did and i'm really glad that from your little girl i grew up and now that both of you graduated i am really proud of you too! ^^
and mao ah mao. dun feel guilty. at the very least you helped us meeting at bugis starbucks where we discussed baoc for abit hehe. and you treated us buffet where we had a great time again in leading keh to think that she is not the last to arrive. HAHAHA. so many beautiful memories with you two. (L)(L) and times with the both of you are always fun. LIKE SUPER FUN. always laughing till our jaws hurt. dunoe why times tgthr are always so funny. and the nerf guns HAHAHA we are really crazy and retarded but it's okay i love us being like this. <3

the both of you will always have a special place in my heart. when i think back of group 2, the ingenious incans, there are always the both of you. we are like this small family which is irreplaceable. i will be going for overseas internship BUT I WILL TRY MY BEST TO SAVE MONEY SO WHEN I COME BACK I CAN TREAT THE BOTH OF YOU A MEAL OKAYY! and when i come back i die also want see ahmao with a botak head HAHAHA. or you can mail me your pictures :D:D and keh jiayou for SIM okayyy.

i love youu both.
my 'papa' and 'mummy' forever. ^^

CURRENTLY WAITING SHINEE'S JAPAN REPLAY MV TO BE OUT OMG I WANNA WATCH IT. *-*

okay i haven been catching up much in my shinee world D:
but okay too caught up with everything else i guess. :(

some free time now but i just wanna slack and not do my work. please pardon me just this once.

everyday is busy school life so what's up with you?
can't wait for this sem to be over but on the other hand i dun want it to be over. :(
sigh i will be over at china for six months after this sem. i will be missing my people. T.T


okay anyway still meeting mrtay despite my busy schedule HAHA i'm so kind right HOHOHO so yup went to watch two movies on wed and thur night ^^

on wed it was


OMG I SIMPLY LOVE HIM:



WHY HE SO CUTE AND HOT AND FUNNY AND EVERYTHING AT THE SAME TIME :')
if only my husband is like him too. remains as hot even until the far future. HEHE.

AND THE MERMAID (cant be bothered to find her name i'm sorry) IS SO DAMN GORGEOUS AND HOT:






EVEN MRTAY WAS MESMERIZED. you need me to bite you to wake you up. :)

okay anywayyy i love pirates of the caribbean so it's awesome no matter what you say cause i love jack sparrow since the very first time i watched this back in secondary 2. kekeke. so go away if you are judging.


movie on thur aka ytd was


KUNGFU PANDA WHY YOU SO CUTEEEE!?!? BOING BOINGGG!

i love him lah okay. cried at the sad part of the show. :'( want to know what sad part?? OWNSELF WATCH OKAY HAHAHAHA.

i can only give one mini spoiler: INNER PEACE.
okay not much of a spoiler that's why i called it a mini spoiler! :D
but it's very important in this movie okayyy. HOHOHO.


had a changi airport field trip this morning and it left me feeling shagged and i slept most of my way home. D: cant take a nap cause i will be out this evening again for my survey taking why oh why :(

happy note: meeting xueli and the rest of my girls for dinner tonight. ^^ i love them (L)



i say/do whatever i feel at that moment of time. i don't know what's your take.
if you got hurt, i am sorry.
if not, then okayyyyy -_-
if you are guilty that you are the one, i have got nothing to say as well.
if you are annoyed/irritated, then you can just quickly finish bitching about me and go away.
it's so right that you should not take into account of others' opinions. cause you are you and what matters are the people around you. if i'm not close to you, then why be bothered about what i say?
sad to say, some of the people who are 'close' to me aren't really close at all.
and that's what makes it worse. cause you can't even really pinpoint what you dislike about them.
you can only hint generally while talking in a big group. that sucks.
if we are all transparent and everything could be seen much clearer, wouldn't that make life easier?
and, if people don't like you, shouldn't you try and improve on yourself?
but i understand, human's like that. if you are disliked by others, the fault is always on others, noone blames themselves.
you can jolly well stay in your childish footsteps while i move on and get ahead of you. :)
no one is perfect. i say if that person doesn't like you and it doesn't work out after trying to improve on yourself, that's just what fate decrees and your lives should just part from then on.
i don't want to go fight anymore. it's pointless. as long as i know that those that i love loves me, it's enough. i don't have to fight with you. be honest.
ppl find ppl annoying sometimes even if that person did not do anything wrong. EVEN mrtay makes me feel annoyed at times but i still love him to bits. but if you are sure/think you are the one ppl is bitching about, then you probably are since you are guilty of committing the same thing.
it's childish, thinking, 'walou she say me so i say back her loh. walou i also nv make her, why she make me?' but many people still do that. p-o-i-n-t-l-e-s-s.
if i don't like you, i ignore you or just don't talk to you or maybe bitch a little and forget about you. that's what i do. but not liking you is just not liking you? it's just a mismatch of personalities. my personality is just not compatible with yours? what do you want me to do? FORCE THEM TO MATCH?
i'm a practical person. if we can't click, we can't. i wun FORCE us to click. i will just let nature takes its flow. if you wanna go the hard way, it will definitely backfire.
i hardly hate anyone. and when i say hardly, i mean it. currently i can only think of one whom i can't stand but i dun even hate her. and if you are reading this, it's probably not you cause i dun think she even knows my blog.
but remember, everyone bitches. REGARDLESS OF GENDER, AGE, RACE, RELIGION, NATIONALITY OR WHATSOEVER. so, you are a bitch too.
honestly, i dun nd alot of people in my life. you know that, i know that, we know that. many of you are kind of one of those that i dun need. sad? yes. but cruel truth.
i just need a few close ones and that's all i really need.
but no matter what, no matter you hate me or not or who you are or whether i kind of dislike you or not, i wish you happiness. if you dislike me, then better get far away from me so i wun disrupt your happy life.





ANYWAYYY OUT OF THE EMO PART, IS SHINEE'S JAPAN REPLAY OUT!?!? OMG OMG SEE THIS:

i want i want i want.

does it matter what i want when we think differently?

perhaps you dun think as much as i do. but i'm really afraid.
afraid of the unknown and unexpected future.
nobody knows what is going to happen.
maybe i'm the one thinking and worrying too much.
perhaps i should stop.
i need to get a new perspective.
can someone give me one?

i need to shut down my mind. even if just for a minute.
i want to stop thinking stop wanting stop needing.
i want to go to a beach. sit on the rocks with the waves lapping around.
close my eyes and feel the sea breeze caresses my face and plays with my hair.
smile as i breathe in the salty air.
it feels so free, and i wanna do that.



sigh getting emo these days. MUST BE CAUSE HH COMING >:(

you and me.

found out about something that made me ponder.

i guess it was always meant to be like that.
i guessed as much. :)
i don't deny that i felt surprised, or shocked/cheated even, when i first saw that.
but then i thought through again, and i guess this is what they say it's meant to be. :)

i feel happy. like really. for you. and you, despite that there was really alot of unhappiness between us in the past.
i always felt that you are meant to be, honestly.
i told people that as well, that this is how it should have been.

i won't have to worry anymore. :)
i still worry about you sometimes.
you were really someone really close to me, though i guess we could never go back, or could we?
i guess what matters more now is that we are now all happy in our own little world, right? :)
the little things and people that make us feel tremendously fortunate and blissed. ^^

okay anyway this is the new organizer i bought for myself HEHE.

i feel kind of disappointed. okay more than kind of. i am quite disappointed. quite quite disappointed.
maybe you too feel the same way.

'should we give it a rest?' this thought flew past my mind. 'NO,' I told it firmly. 'I will not give up so easily.'

this is a test i guess. a test for us.
would you try? i certainly hope you do.

i'm so touched by your msg that i cried. kind of silly but i feel so happy that i cried.
you did not let me down, even though it's just a msg.

i know i can trust you despite me feeling doubtful and scared sometimes. i force myself to trust you cause there is nothing else i can do. thanks so much for sticking with me though i'm such a screwed up person. <3

i love you. :)

what is going on?
i should probably get moving on.
okay bye.

hi i am bored during TRMK tutorial. D:

bcomm interview in less than one hour.
still not that nervous. okay i dun wanna be nervous but confident. :)
jiayou me.

by the way, 99.9% for overseas internship.
gonna try and apply and see how.

some words in advance to all the people i might leave behind in sg if my application is successful:
i love you guys and take good care of yourselves. ^^ when i come back we will partaye till there is no tml okay! ^^

sometimes i dun get myself,

but i guess everyone is the same.

when i am hurt/angry/frustrated/stressed and feel like crying, somehow i would find someone to talk to and pour out all my thoughts and feelings into that person.

but when i am lost and i feel doubtful with no tinge of confidence, i just want to be left alone.
cause this is when i feel the most vulnerable.

weird eh?
i feel vulnerable even though i'm not hurt or anything, i just feel lost.
and i feel so much more breakable when i am doubtful than when i am hurt.

is it cause when i am doubtful, somehow, it's easier for me to let people into my world?
as much as i want to be simple, i am complicated like all human beings on earth.
in my jiale world, i have a smaller inner world which usually only have me, though i DO let some closer people take a small peek occasionally.

sorry for pushing you away.
though it may not seem like it, but i was feeling really doubtful.
whatever i heard and listened, actually stays with me and though you might know it, i am actually upset.

i am someone with a good memory. but in a negative way.
i tend to remember all the unhappy memories better than the happy memories.
somehow, i guess.
perhaps it's cause i'm happy most of the times so those memories are harder to remember since there are so many of them. like flowers in a garden. too many to count.
and those sad and unhappy memories just left a scar there and caused this bald patch where no flowers can ever grow again. this bald patch just seem so much more obv as compared to the great big patches of flowers which grow around it.

am i making myself clearer?
am i getting to know myself better?
reasons 101 why i love my blog: it helps me clear out my thoughts and i untangle, if not all, most of the knots in my mind. ^^

100th day.

sorry for not remembering in the beginning and sorry for being so irritable last night. D: you suffered. T^T
it's not exactly a big day but it somehow meant something to both of us because of ^^ hehe you know i know.

i am a lucky girl cause i received all these on this day. and when i say lucky, i mean REALLY LUCKY. hehe. (L)

the wallet i really wanted. (L)

THE HANDMADE CARD I ALWAYS WANTED (L) look at the ten kids on the card HAHA.

HE FOLDED 100 STARS O.O totally cannot imagine him doing it. hehe. (L)

i only made him a small card. D: sorry i am too busy to even head out to buy something nice. D:

only half done~

finally completed! :D

it took me one hour plus two hours to finish this small card which he can fit into the card compartment in his wallet okay!!
look at the small holes in the faces. was straining my eyes and neck throughout D:
hope you like it though i dun have a proper present for you my dear. :)

since he said he was cold...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ANDDDD..

TERRORIST TAY.

he started sweating like mad and even took off his own jacket he was originally wearing. there were like a blanket on him plus five more jackets HAHAHAHAHA.



out on SATURDAY and he got me these *-*

colour abit weird in the picture though. BUT IT IS GORGEOUS IN REAL LIFE. AND BOUGHT IT CAUSE IT'S GSS! *-* though he paid for it. guilty alr. D:

and we got the membership card as well.

i feel so guilty for spending so much of your money. D:
i will try and save money to treat you good meals okay!! ^^


society appreciation dinner at night and took hordes of photos. imbas <3 OWNSELF GO MY FB SEE THE PHOTOS OKAY :D

one year has passed yet again. two years in society. there were laughters, joy and of course tears as well. though i always complain about going back for events, they usually make it worthwhile. <3 you people rock. let's stay as close okay. OUTINGS OUTINGS!! (L)(L)

OHH TOOK A PHOTO WITH MERV'S HUGE PHONE!! SORRY FOR BEING A SUAKU LAH BUT I DIN KNOW ITS EXISTENCE. HERE GOES:

PARDON MY RETARDED FACE I WAS GOING CRAZY HAHAHAHA.



HEHE anyway wanna dedicate the last photo to the people who added SO MUCH RAINBOWS in my poly life.

my poly clique, imBAS 0910 and imBAS 1011. i love you guys <3

last night before i slept

qiqi and jiamin kept asking me if i'm really going over to china for SIX WHOLE MONTHS. D:

qiqi even said how could i abandon mrtay in sg. D: she had the same thoughts as me. but to him, i'm not abandoning him ma. not like i'm not coming back forever. hahahaha.

aiya i dunoe i dunoe. D: they kept asking me qns and i just replied them. OHMYOHMY.


okay i think i should list out the advantages of staying local and going china.

STAYING LOCAL:

• i will be able to extend my internship and perhaps start working in the company as my first job.
• i will earn ALOT more money.
• there will not be extra high costs such as airfares etc.
• i can save money on food cause can go home for dinner and don't have to pay for accommodations.
• wun get homesick.
• have too many people around me and i will never feel lonely~~
• don't have to rack my brains to think of how to get a sim card there and what to do with my current phone number.

GOING CHINA:

• better experiences.
• GO OVERSEAS COOL WHAT!!!
• nobody to control you and you are free to do whatever you want WOOHOO!
• can explore the place and go on an adventure~~~
• good portfoliooooo!
• cheap food cheap everything!
• it's like a DAMN LONG holiday!

SIGH SO HOW!? okay though i think i am 95% for overseas internship liao. preparing myself mentally..

90% for overseas internship

had our overseas internship briefing today.
and i feel like i'm really interested in going. even though it's china. but it still looks kind of fun.

i have always been afraid that if i go, i wouldn't be able to get a proper job. cause i wouldn't want to do housekeeping like alot of my coursemates are doing now.


now, 90% for overseas internship, and i am alr starting to miss the people around me. D:

teared when i talked to mrtay, thinking how i would miss him and my family and my friends and everyone here.
thought about how we would most probably contact once a week for six months, or technically 22 weeks, which means 22 times for the whole internship program. a chance to test our r/s since he wun have much time for me during that time with the start of his course in sept.

he said he will come visit me before the start of his course though, meaning the start of my internship, and the end of his course in jan. but he would have to help with his family business D:
hope that he can come visit me during his bday though, so that i wun miss it. but it's not like he cares abt birthdays anyway, and it clashes with cny so forget it. CHEH!

internship will end on our first year anni 11th feb. and i wonder if it is the day that my work ends or the day that i am coming back to singapore.
sigh he also hopes that i'm overseas so wun distract him cause of his busy course which has only a passing rate of 33%. poor boy. who ask you so mean want chase me away!? KARMA HAHAHAHAHAHA /laughs wickedly


asked qiqi if she will miss me if i go overseas for six months and she said most probably.
OMG can i survive out there without my mum to help me do stuffs and my sisters to beat and bully!? D:

never did survive without them for so long. at most one week. never stayed away for even a month. now i'm supposed to leave them for six months!? D:
and how do i get a sim card there? how do i contact my family back at home!?!?

what about my friends? will they miss me while working and we can't meet up for meals cause there are like huge seas and lands in between us!? D:

i'm such a worrywart that i am truly and really afraid that something will happen when i am away. i know CHOYYYYY!! but i want to be here when anything happens.
IF ANYTHING SERIOUS HAPPENS WILL I BE ABLE TO COME BACK TO SINGAPORE!? D:


so many thoughts going through my head right now. :/
on the other hand, SOOOO MANY PEOPLE are encouraging me to go. mrtay, my parents, friends. what more can i say?

a little voice in me tells me to go and check out those places that i have never been to before. yet another voice keeps asking me those what ifs which is really irritating. AND THERE IS THIS ADVENTUROUS PART IN ME WHICH SAYS TO BE CURIOUS AND EXPLORE!! D:

i should probably consult ong may leng.

tr01 (L)

stupid adeline made me miss those times with her blog post. :'(

the original tr01. the crazy us. the younger us. OMG we really rocked big time then. we rock yo! ^^

you guys know i love you so so so much. <3

STRESSED

nothing much about school ytd except that there was this frog in the LT in the morning HAHA.

it looked so small and it jumped up the stairs and finally when it reached the last one i guess it felt tired and it din know if there were anymore steps cause it kept staring at the last step and not jumping. :( poor froggie.

can you see the little froggie there? ^^

so in the end i tried to catch the frog out of the LT to save it and haqim came to help me and weeee we got it out. ^^ hehe.

went to bpp after school and walked around and studied a lil of STMO before meeting mrtay to pass him his passport photo. WE HAD SPICY MCNUGGETS AND SEAWEED FRIES KEKE.

whenever i eat shaker fries i will insist on shaking the fries retardedly cause to me thats the best way to shake the fries but this time round he insisted on taking photos so here goes:

and of course i wouldn't let him go without him taking photos as well HAHAHA.

happy happy us with our full tummies walked around plaza and i saw things that i wanna buy. T^T

there is this chio chio wallet siaa. with a little bit of blingbling reminding me of jonghyun. but i like it leh. with the denim feel. DAMN CHIO. *-* AND THE WOODEN IPHONE COVER TOOOOO! *-*

wanted to buy a new organiser too. :/ with both monthly and weekly planner in it. sighhh. my current daily planner organizer isn't really working out for me. SHOULD I BUY A NEW ONE!? SHOULD I SHOULD I!? :/

btw sorry for not remembering what day saturday is HAHA. i feel happy that you rmb okay. (L)

okay time to go eat my lunch and go back to STMO. :( need to start on WISP soon too. 

LUCKILY today is a PH and this thur is elearning week for aerospace. only two hours of class on thursday WOOTS WOOTS!

p/s: the moment i switched on my tv to watch while eating, it reminded me of my PT proj by playing SAF's ad. -_- what is this!?

what is this fuckery!?

getting more and more pissed by the day. i need to rein in my temper.

FAST FIVE

IS AN AWESOME MOVIEEEE!!

okay not that much hunks but there are gorgeous babes yo! :')
i lub hot hunks as well as gorgeous babes. dun judge tyvm. :D

go watch it if you have the time!!!!





no gorgeous babes in these posters BOOHOO!
i shall go google another one with the babes.


TADA!! CAN SEE!?

ANOTHER ONEE!!


okay there are three gorgeous babes in total. okay one super gorgeous. one kind of hot. the other one not so much cause she covered up her assets but last scene *-* kind of. KEKE.

i love the motorcycle babe. OKAY anywayy watch it if you wanna see babes :D:D

Mundane school life

basically we are just doing work everyday. neverending work.

after submitting an assignment, the next assignment is due. and after that, there is another assignment for you to rush.
not to mention all the tutorials we have to finish in between. and my, the tutorials are seriously heavy. research research research. read read read. every tutorial seems like a mini assignment to us. :(

after handing up my PT proposal ytd, i have a test on this coming wed and another assignment due nxt sunday. and after that, i have my bcomm interview on the tue after. i have like two or three assignments due on the friday after. and one more due on the tue after. thank god this coming tue is a public holiday where i have some time to rest finish some of my work. but i fear for the makeup lessons. T^T

i feel stressful just by looking at these that i just wrote down. and these are just the ones that are in for these two weeks. not to mention the weeks after. :( ohmylife.




some extra frills that happened over the past week which have nothing to do with school. :D okay not entirely nothing to do with school but yeaaa i will just go on.

well, on wed we went to the opening ceremony of singapore arts fest. WOOHOO! pastamania before that for dinner kekeke.
okay we got the tix to it cause our PT proj is on singapore arts fest but yea. i think the whole design is kind of cool.

there was a performance on the opening ceremony and we were supposed to walk on this wooden planks which raised up till the top where the audience seats were. it was a little scary cause you can feel vibrations on the planks as ppl walk. T.T i dun have any pics HAHA wait for adeline to post on her blog okay!!

the arts performance started after everyone settled down. the subtitles kind of suck and they could have improved on it but i think the performance is really cool.
you can see the passion in the performers as you watch every action they make and how they actually remember all the lyrics and all the little actions which they synchronised so perfectly. :')
i salute them for their spirit.



on thur, it is my fave school day weeeeeee~

aerospace was kind of retarded. told us that there is a graded game quiz but it turned out to be a group quiz which the whole class was separated into two big groups to compete with one another.

but our group just pawned the other group, answering every of our qns, as well as the questions which the other group answered wrongly, correctly. we just rock okay. \m/
though me and ahyi studied hard for nothing. -_-

WISP ROCKS LIKE HELL WOOTS!!!
i think i have a crush on my tutor lawrence lai.

HAHAHA he is as funny as ever esp the kungfu story he shared with us. shared it with mrtay and he laughed though i dunoe if it's cause of me or the story but he said it seems fake. but hahaha i think the problem is with the guy who is sooo obsessed with kungfu HAHAHA.
if you are curious to know whats the story like, you can come and find me. but it's best described face to face. :D



went to play bball on friday night~~
okay not with guowei they all since they are not playing and i din know beforehand and feels kind of paiseh to gordon who came down and in the end left after eating dinner with us. heh heh. OHH it was drizzling too btw. :(

had my yumyum meatball pasta at cute chicken (可爱鸡) at kim san leng. I LOVE THEIR MEATBALLS <3!!
ade you should go try it someday since you stay near hahahaha.

in the end mrtay still wanted to play some BASKETBALL so he went home to take his and we went down to the CC to play until the silat ppl took over the court and we walked around to a fitness corner and did some exercise with a cute girl toddler running about and settled at some void deck to play monopoly deal. ^^



sorry for a pictureless post yet once again. :( i need a new camera. :( it's not that my current one is spoiled. just that its pictures are always blur which irritates me. :( any recommendations? :)




anywayyy, i'm curious on whats gonna happen on next saturday. O.O

insecurity

i hate it when it starts chewing my insides.
how i wish i can point my middle finger at it and scream GTFO FO FO FO FO FO FO FO.

okay becoming vulgar. but at least only in words. shall not scold fuck out of my mouth that often.
hate it when this feeling gets me. i wanna build a barrier.

Happy 3rd Month <3

Like you said we are celebrating our 3rd year now woooo! Hahahahahaha!

Time has never passed so quickly with you around. It always felt like we just met when we have to part.

I love your hugs, your texts, your smiles, your teases, this look you always give when you are looking at me, how i can smile and laugh so much with you, the aftereffects of our arguments though we dun argue much these days, how we can just be tgthr without having to fill those silence gaps with words, okay basically everything okay. Hehe. ^^

I love how i can do absolutely everything (okay almost) with you and i can tell you everything and you will just listen without judging and how i talk to you about life and world matters and you can give me your opinions in ways that i nv thought before.

Please faster earn your money and rmb what you are supposed to do 27/28 years later. Keke. You know i love you. ^^(L)

Okay it's alr my bedtime i need to slp now. Baby the best alr yo! Okay bye and nights.

conceited/confident

i think i have erred many times today.
i hate to make mistakes, esp when the consequences affect not only me but people around me. :(
i hate to cause trouble to others.

i find it so hard to draw a line between conceited and confident.
i have no idea whether it's conceit or confidence but i just hate it.
i should stop thinking that i know the right answers and how things are supposed to be done, cause more than often, i am wrong.

am i being kind of negative now? okay yes.
jiale ah jiale.
i wanna tell you that it's okay to make mistakes.
but yet i understand the sucky guilty feeling you get which starts to eat you inside out.
i just feel like i am too conceited.
i need to bring my head from space back down to earth.

thank you for your kind attention

i just want to bring to your attention for a few matters, about the world, about its people who are, sadly, less fortunate than us or having their human rights deprived from them.



first up,
read a post and a video from adeline's blog here.

no one should treat another human this way. i couldn't understand the mentality of the bullies either. yes, you are just kids, but shouldn't kids be innocent and pure and full of kindness? shouldn't them be naive and treat everyone as their friends regardless of anything?

the parents of these kids ought to be educated as well. if this is what your kids become to be, i believe that a big part of the responsibilities lie in the parents.
you educate your kids into how you want them to become. and they learn by following you. if you are a big meanie to your friends and even strangers, this is what your kids will grow up to be. if you are kind and helpful to even an old lady whom you dunoe, your kids will grow up to be a compassionate person. it is how you teach your kids and how you reflect on your kids about how they should behave and act.

these kids ought to be taught a lesson as well. to learn about the wrongdoings of their actions.

next, it's about LGBT rights.

for those who dunoe what it stands for, it means Lesbians, Gays, Bisexuals, and Transexuals. okay hopefully if i din make a mistake. if i did, just search urbandictionary.com okay.

there is this country which might just pass this bill to become a law whereby being gay is a crime. not only a crime, but of death sentence nature. meaning if you are a gay, you committed a crime which will cost your life.

i mean, how ridiculous is this? just cause of your sexuality you are condemned to death. this is too ridiculous for words.

i hope everyone spreads this by signing this petition here.

please do not be afraid to help. no one will judge you. your particulars will be confidential as mentioned on the website. and the particulars they require isn't THAT personal so you don't have to worry okay. :)

lastly, i just want you to watch the video below.

it's about this disabled korean boy who is born without any arms and deficiency in his legs where he has only four toes. look how this little boy survived with strong will using just his two legs and eight toes to survive everyday life.

he has such an optimistic outlook on life which makes me smile with teary eyes. :)

hope you will feel more motivated to get on with your everyday after this video.

Life of a Year 3

it's studying everyday and resisting the urge to open the window and jump out cause you feel like the pile of work on your shoulder just keeps increasing. :(

okay not so serious HAHA i exaggerated a lil~
but i'm definitely not kidding about the pile of work. :D

CURRENTLY I HAVE 8 MODULES, INCLUDING 2 IS MODULES. AND EACH MODULE, THERE IS AT LEAST 2 ASSIGNMENTS/PROJS TO DO WHICH ADD UP TO A TOTAL OF AT LEAST 16 ASSIGNMENTS/PROJS JUST THIS ONE SEM.

life is so good right now. :D

when our RMTR tutor announced that we are going to have to finish this report assignment project for our elearning week which integrates FOUR MODULES - RMTR, TRMK, STMO, and SQTR, i swear my heart started beating damn fast, my blood pressure decreasing until it reaches the new low, my head started spinning faster than a spinning top and i had to hold my head to keep myself from fainting. tears were even forming in my eyes.
and in this paragraph that i just typed, i am not exaggerating. i can LITERALLY feel the stress. :(
you may think 'aiya four modules into one, so easy, since there is only ONE assignment to do.' but HELLO!?!?!? do you even realise the intensity of this assignment?
i'd so much rather do four small assignments then one big one which integrates four modules such that if i screw this up, i pretty much screwed everything else up.



something happy today would be that mrtay came to find me after coming back from batam weeeeeee~

but after listening to his trip over there (BANANA BOAT, JET SKI, PARACHUTE, ALCOHOL PARTY, ETC) I WANNA GO TOO!!! :( but for now, not quite possible. sigh.

kept wailing, yelling, screaming, whining that i wanted to go and why someone who is SOOOOOOO afraid of water is willing to go down to the waters with his friends and not me.. :(
hahahaha okay i'm not that depressed over this, just exaggerating, and i know you will go with me one day okay. rmb what you said cause i will not forget. :D


time for bed soon. goodnight da jia. :)

HAHAHAA. I was thinking since you brick wall got colour, makke it transparent la k, acrylic, even if you drop it, your toe also wont hurt that much HAHAHAHA

HAHAHA then okay lah. not brick wall okay. just a wall full of anything that you use to build. and you ask me at 1111 worrr. hehe.

hello! what do you want to say?

ronnie says if you build a brick wall you cant see each other -_-

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. as in you can walk around the brick wall one ma. aiya erm transparent brick wall that you can walk through okay? HAHAHAHAHA with a door in between HAHAHA.

hello! what do you want to say?

“@ZodiacFacts: With an #Aries,There is no beating around the bush, because to them a spade will always be a spade.”


HMM. i dunoe how true this is for an aries but i know this is true for me, at the very least.

that is why when you talk to me, don't beat around the bush. cause i will never understand.
and this is the reason why people think i am retarded for not being able to get sarcasm and hints etc.

dun draw a spade and expect me to guess that it is wheelbarrow that you are hinting. i will never know/understand. :) thanks. HAHA.

ELECTIONS

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HELLO I AM WATCHING ELECTIONS NOW AS I TYPE HERE HEHEHE.

super active on twitter now cause it's making me so damn high HEHE. i think i can just giggle and laugh with no reasons kekeke.

okay back to the topic.

accompanied clara to Khoo Teck Phuat hospital yesterday (friday) and it's really prettayeee. ade says it looks like a condo but i always felt like it is like a nursing home hahahaha.

while waiting for clara to do her check up, me and ade bought mrbean's icecream and did sculptures of each other HAHAHAHA.

ade's sculpture of me.

and my sculpture of her.

HAHAHA both damn ugly pleaseeee.

walkwalk around northpoint weeee. realised that i have A LOT of things to buyyyy. :( and dinner at pastamania wooooo! ^^ i lub it! forever eating the same thing with our ahleng HAHA.

kind mrtay came to find me after his PARTAYEEE at leonard's hse hahahahaha.

listening to his dinner over at his house makes me jealous. T^T so sumptuous...... :(

anyway since it is mother's day this sunday, i went out with mrtay to buy mother's day gift~~

felt good today about how i look i dunoe why but yipee i feel goooood! ^^

walked around and felt hungry soon since the whole day i only ate one mrbean pancake and the choc balls i bought for mrtayyy~~

and YAYY we dined at,

onomnom it's great kekeke. at least we weren't too disappointed ^^

look at the happy us~~

hehehehe.

din take any pictures of the food cause we were busy eating onomnom. ^^

walked around somemore and shopped WOOHOO!!

finally sat down somewhere cause my legs were breaking wearing heels.

firs''''t i climbed five storeys of stairs up cause i forgot to bring stuffs and had to go back home.

then i climbed the overhead bridge to get to the mrt stn.

then i stood/walked the whole time except for sitting down to eat.

mrtay who knows me well asked me to take pictures of all my loots. HEHE ^^

was trying so hard to make him smile with teeth and YAYYY i succeeded! ^^

and in his hands is a bottle of men's bottle which we both think is nice. ^^ and i bought it for him as 3rd month's present hehe. feel so proud of myself.

retarded kid felt guilty cause he din buy me anything but he always treat me meals incl the sushi tei dinner so it's alright!! ^^

bottles of orange shower gel (technically satsuma) going at 5bucks each (original price: $12.90) since i spent more than $15 there. keke. we each got one weeee!

i feel like some advertiser HEHE.

my seaweed toner and moisturiser~~

yes adeline and clara i bought the seaweed one instead of the aloe vera one heh heh.

hehehe the free bag of goodies i got from body shop ^^

kekeke the perfume i bought from bodyshop for my mum~~

i like the smell!! might secretly use smtimes HAHA.

HAHAHA model of the day got forced to do retarded poses with my body shop membercard!! ^^ membership is free now hehe.

keke my hand looks so smoothhhh. i like. ^^

the girl who served us at bodyshop was really cute and cause i was wearing my heels she looks really short but okay even if i dun wear it she is still shorter so she looks like a kid to me and really cute HAHA but mrtay dun think so. :(
but we kid around with her while we were looking around and asking for her opinions but hehe it's really cute somehow. SHE WORKS IN TAKA BODYSHOP BTW *-*

went to his house and watched abit of elections before his dad sent me home. hehe thanks uncle~~

and we were talking about going overseas since he is going batam and i said that i haven been to citysq before  he asked his dad to bring me there someday and his dad said we can just go this coming wkend. O.O so sudden HAHA.

and his dad even said to bring my sisters along but i doubt they wanna tag along HAHA okay let's see how things go weeeeeeeee~ ^^

totally sian now cause my twitter is over its tweet capacity and i have to wait for a few hours before i can tweet. :(:( sian sian.

TO THE BOY WHO IS GOING TO BATAM EARLY IN THE MORNING SO I GUESS YOU WUN SEE THIS BUT STILL:

please be careful over there you know how worried i am and sorry for thinking too much but you better message me before you leave singapore and tell me immediately when you come back cause i dun wanna worry about you getting robbed there. :( it sounds really dangerous there somehow. BE CAREFUL OKAY. EVEN THOUGH ITS A GROUP OF GUYS. I WILL RMB NOT TO BE SO PARANOID FOR THESE TWO DAYS. LOVE YOU. (L)