what do i do now?

when even my own family doesnt understand me.
you know me for 19 years. and what does it end up to become?

i am not a little girl anymore.
I AM A GROWN UP NOW. STOP TREATING ME LIKE I AM A KID.
YOU ARE ALWAYS CONTRADICTING YOURSELF.
i am old enough to have the responsibility to take charge of my own things. but i am not old enough to handle them. WTF?

i am no longer the little jiale you see running about the house playing hide-and-seek or all kinds of games.
i am no longer the innocent little girl.
I AM ALREADY 19.
I WISH TO BECOME A LITTLE GIRL TOO but i just am no longer one. and i am facing the facts now. WHY AREN'T YOU?

i am not dumb. i do understand.
you are not the one listening. you are the one not understanding.
i simply hate it when no one listens to me talk.
YOU DUN LISTEN TO ME TALK AND YOU EXPECT ME TO RESPECT YOU? no way.
respect goes both ways.
i love you cause you are my family and i know that you care and love me unconditionally.
but that does not equate to me agreeing to what you say or how you do things.
i wun respect you cause you are my elder or you are my parents.
you need to EARN my respect.
i wun disrespect you but i would give you some face, until you show me that you dun deserve it.

treat me the way you want to be treated.
and to think you are my family. yes i love you, but you dun understand.
none of you actually understands.