thankew my 332,

for accompanying me almost the entire weekend and till evening today though i was just simply studying and doing my work. (L)(L)

trying so hard to treasure everything right now cause i heard news that my cousin broke up with his gf of four years. and even had some other girl outside? wtf.

i tot you guys will be tgthr for years.
weiyan ah weiyan. are you still reading my blog? are you reading this now?
if you are, you can come find me anytime kay. :)

really worried but i cant do anything. people change, and feelings fade. this sounds so scary. T^T and tay often reassures me but these are the reasons which make me feel afraid. sighhhh.

work tgthr to stay tgthr kay. i can't think of living without anyone that i have right now.
everyone owns a space in me. regardless the size. so if you leave, there will always be this little empty space there. dun give me that void feeling. i dun like it. in fact, i'm afraid of it.

feel like crying for weiyan and ortao. okay mostly weiyan. ORTAO WHY DID YOU DO WHAT YOU DID TO WEIYAN!? feel like hitting you but yet i know in such instances, nobody is really at fault. sigh.

SAY HI TO THE TWO CUTES.

HI WE ARE THE TWO CUTES. LOLOLOL.

okay enough of being crazy. D:

since im not doing rmtr now i'm supposed to be studying for sqtr but..... D:

life kind of sucks tml.

9am: SQTR test

2pm: overseas internship interview call

5pm: RMTR report due

6pm: overseas visa application briefing thingthing

SIGH.

tuesday is not any better.

though technically i have no school, i still have to go for my solution selling which i am so scared of that i'm gonna.. pee in my pants? maybe? HAHAHAHA

just hope i will do well. T^T

anywayyyyy,

went to sing k with tay and his friends aft studying in the morning for sqtr. T^T

din expect SQTR test to be brought forward and we set this sing k thing quite some time back. sighhh.

one week more to freedom? hopefully. :/

one more month to leaving sg. (sigh forever on my mind.)

i think i said 'one month' to ahtay for at least like 30 times for these past two days.

i would just turn to him and say 'one month' and he would give me a bright smile in return. :)

sigh so many people to meet up before i leave.

and going to my number one stalker's uni WAHAHAHAHA.

si shaun leong dun wanna help plan. D: D: want me to ownself plan my farewell goodbye outing sobsobs.

dun use the word 'farewell' okay. i haven die. D:

okay enough ranting. bye blog. hi sqtr. D:

yepyep! lol so clever!~

HEHEHE ^^ lovelove youuuu!! <3

hello! what do you want to say?

lots of <3 frm ur number one stalker!!! :D

HEHE omg my number one stalker can i make a random guess???? somehow i think it's myrna lam HAHAHA if you are not sorry kay just let me know keke. <3

hello! what do you want to say?

life's rushing past

and i have barely enough time to register anything.

i need things to slow down

time to go slower.

i din even rmb that july has 31 days.

i had to ask tay for the date before i can rmb anything.

all i can get in my head are all the deadlines.. :/

LOOK AT MY CRESTFALLEN FACE:

this has been my default face ever since life became hectic.

i dun even have time to register tay's face.

and despite watching so many movies.

i can barely rmb the plot.

i have become so forgetful that i practically forgot everything else.

this is life eh?

i want this one last month i have in singapore before heading to shanghai to go slower.

for me to enjoy life a bit better.

for me to spend more time with my girls and tay.

was practically sobbing my night away last night at the thought this one month left in sg.

thought of leaving everyone here and i felt like we will never be the same again.

this is when we grow up and leave each other.

after this sem, it will be internship where we will all split. then it's graduation where we will never (not really) meet again.

yea at least meeting to study in school tgthr will nv happen ever again. :(

i miss those times when we met outside cheers.

it seemed so long ago.

like ten years ago.

sighhhhhhhh.

this is life.

time to get on with it.

HEHE

din realised that i haven blogged in a while keke.

anywayyy had STMO-TRMK presentation on tue and they kinda told us that we sucked a little. D:

but she praised me that she can tell that i can present but it's just that i have a limited amount of time so i had to rush keke kind of happy about that. ^^

then on wed we had the presentation thing which i retardedly presented.

i also had a WISP presentation on thur and i just presented in a way which was kind of me.

both my presentations i made people laughed which made me feel good. :)

i dun want them to just sit there bored and tired staring back at me. i want them to be smiling and be interested in whatever that i am presenting. :)

so happy that i made people laughed. so happy that i made people happy. ^^

i like making people happy such that it makes me feel bright too. ^^

HEHE and getting an A for WISP was really unexpected yayyy!! HIP HIP HURRAY!

thur kind of sucked for me as well cause it's the last lesson of WISP which i love so much mostly cause of lawrence lai NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! :(:( but sigh it alr ended.

got nominated to be the thrower of my aerospace group for our plane thing sucks too.

cause i got so nervous that somehow the way i threw got all wrong and when we finished the assessment, i could sdnly throw well again -_- wth......

this suckssss.

okay two more camwhore pics below hiahia i just wanna place them smwhere.

^THIS DUN LOOK LIKE ME LEH. looks chio. HAHAHAHAHAHA

okay so i am supposed to do work but i feel so lethargic sighhh.

should i do solution selling or study for SQTR? :/

my study room is really hot D: my butt is sweatingggg.

sigh back to work time.

okay JIAYOU JIALE!

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA THE REPLY YOU REPLIED TO MY HAHAHAHAHAHHA IS SO HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

-_- you are one crazy bitch. i scared. D:

hello! what do you want to say?

and when we get back, xueli would be 19, cheryl would be 20, tay would be 22, me and tay would alr be tgthr for 1 year, ahyi will be turning 20 in like two weeks' time. HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHA

WHY YOU LAUGH!? D: WHAT'S FUNNY!? >:(

hello! what do you want to say?

HI I AM BACK

I LOVE USING CAPS CAUSE IT MEANS THAT I AM HAPPY! :D:D

trying to keep the upbeat mood here now yooooo!

shall present on my retarded exercises tml during presentation skills workshop.

ANYBODY WHO LAUGHS AT ME OR TAKES A VID TO SPREAD, BE PREPARED TO RECEIVE A PUNCH FROM ME. >:(

totally serious about this. dun like it when people laughs at what i am passionate about.

and i am really passionate about giving everyone the exercising tips okay! sharing good things with you all horh. >:(

trying very hard to continue with the exercises with the limited amount of time on hand since when i have spare time (like this aftnn) i would spend it on catching up on my sleep instead. :(

sigh it's not that i dun wanna do exercises. it's just that i dun have enough timeeeee.

but i have been doing the one that i recommended below everyday. ^^ hehe.

shall skip on thur morning woohoo!

i really hate reports aft this sem? esp editing others' reports. it's really so damn tiring you dun even know. okay maybe you do understand. but i prefer to think that i am the only one suffering so i can pity myself and then pick myself up and continue to run forward. can understand?

better than i think 'ohh it's the same for everyone, there is nothing i can do' and i really dun do anything. RIGHT!? ^^

of course whatever i said is right HEHE.

have been a crazy kid these days cause i keep talking to myself randomly to practice for my solution selling anytime.

i can sit on my bed and start to talk to myself and smile and shake hands with the air.

or i can sdnly walk to the living room and started exclaiming 'OHH have you had your lunch?' following with a huge smile hanging on my face.

i think my mum thinks that school is driving me crazy. HAHAHA.

OKAY ANYWAY LIST OF THINGS TO DO:

TML:

- Edit PT

- Edit WISP ppt

- Check on aerospace blog

THUR:

- Edit RMTR

- Study for SQTR

FRI & SAT & SUN:

- Edit RMTR

- Study for SQTR

- Do Solution Selling

OTHER THINGS TO DO:

- PT ppt (draft out by wed)

- RMTR ppt

- Study for aerospace

- Study for ABACUS

sigh after everything is over. i will be left with one week to study and shop and then it would be my final exams in poly. D: so fast.

and then in less than a week after my last paper, perhaps 4 or 5 days later, i would be flying to shanghai with ahyi alr.

and when we get back, xueli would be 19, cheryl would be 20, tay would be 22, me and tay would alr be tgthr for 1 year, ahyi will be turning 20 in like two weeks' time.

LOOK AT HOW TIME FLIES. O_______O

okay i need to get back to read through PT and edit again. :(

shall sleep at 12mn and wake up early tml to read through PT again. JIAYOU JIALE AND EVERYONE!

RICH KID IS ME.

jiale jiejie is a rich kid now cause she just received her bursary! ^^
WAHAHAHAHAHA but dun come kidnap me i am not that rich HAHA.

okay just here to spread my happiness WAHAHAHAHA!! ^^
time for my dinner byebyeeee~

A BUFFET DAY.

it is a buffet day on saturday for me~ ^^

because i went for a clothes buffet and then a xlb buffet HEHE.

anyway i went to milly's clothes buffet with adeline.

woke up in the morning to go to burger king for our $1 croissan'wich HEHE.

bounce bounce bounce queued for the clothes buffet thing.

okay i was kind of disappointed with the clothes they have. not as pretty or chio as i thought. :/

got a few pieces which i think was quite nice? but yea i expected more denims and tops. sigh. :(

anyway here are the things i got~

all the hair accessories kekeke. the part which i feel happier about.

look at all the shorts i got. -_-

the top which i am more satisfied about.

the maxi dress which i REALLY like. because...

HEHEHE sexy back~

there are two more apparels but ehhhh i dun really like them so shant waste my time taking photos of it HAHA. too lazy to tidy everything properly to take a 'group photo' ah.

i actually had two carriers to fill cause i was helping my sis but cause i had two carriers my hands are more tied up and i just simply grabbed anything i saw, hence the six pair of shorts. -_-

instantly felt lost when i stepped into the shop cause of the great amount of people in it. perhaps cause we were one of the last few to go in. :(

anyway think i would perhaps go back to milly's just to buy their clothes and not go to the clothes buffet heh.

OHH anyway remember the transformer cup i got??

HEHE MY BUMBLE BEE CUP ^^

anyway aft the clothes buffet, me and ade spent like 3 hours before we finally reached panjang. you have no idea the hardships we had to go through due to the super down bus luck we had. D:

met tay there and off we went to the xlb buffet HEHE.

it was the first time these two noobs went to holland v so we went to walk around keke. there were nice clothes there!! *-* but so expensive ah. D:

camwhore kid loves to camwhore:

spammed tons of photos and got one that he is smiling with his teeth. nice what! >:(

okay shant spam all the pictures here but i know you wanna see my face HEHE so...

WHOSE EYES ARE BIGGER!?!?!? MINE HORHH!

YOU SEE HIS FACE NEARER TO THE CAMERA!!

okay then at 5pm we arrived at the restaurant and onomnom session starts!

LOOK AT THE BEEF. IT LITERALLY MELTS IN MY MOUTH AND IS SO SWEET AND SO SOFT *-* forever feeling bliss as i chew it. :')

there were six prawns. 3 for each person hehh. and i couldn't even peel one. sorry i am a loser HAHAHA.

MY FAVOURITE XLB!! we ate like 6 baskets of these. 30 XLBs okay. no joke.

HEHEHE sumptuous dinner hiahiahia. thanks love for bringing me there keke.

looking at these food, i miss it alr. :( sigh onomnomnomnom on my own tongue sigh.

EMO-ING SUCKS.

emotional x 2345678998765412346789234567843232532817312
but i promise, i will be fine. :)

for those who laughed at my gifs: sorry you just dun have the eye to recognise talents when you see them HAHAHAHA.


anyway, my dear mrtay surprised me in sch on friday~ kekeke. together with my dear girls hahaha.
shocked me HAHA forever cant recover from the shock i dunoe why.

went to amk hub and walked around and around and watched:


kekeke it's a nice show i think. very funny and yet shows the bitchy side of girls.
it definitely made me love my girls more and how i want my wedding to be like in the future. HAHAHAHAHA.
and of course i cried at the emotional parts.

i like this movie cause it's not only retarded and funny and shows the real bitchy side, it taught me that when life sucks for you, you are a big cause of it. a big factor.
pick yourself up and make amendments to whatever mistakes or errors you have made, and life would definitely get better. and when life fights you, FIGHT BACK! ^^

note to self: let tay read my weibo.

baby, remind me to ask you to do so kay.

i guess humans just cant be happy 100% of the time.
i'm sorry to have thought that i could and then disappoint myself eventually and the malicious cycle just repeats itself all over again and again and again.

maybe it's time to be realistic. or maybe life can start living a little more like my dreams. yea i hope.

HAHAHA WHY YOUR PICS SO RETARDED, MIMICKING YOURSELF AH?

Where got retarded!? I so smart! ^^ who are youuuuuu??

hello! what do you want to say?

OUR PROJ

hey kids,
after reading ade's blog i realised i haven advertise here yet.
PLEASE GO AND LIKE OUR FB PAGE FOR OUR PROJ: UNIcrafts!
thank you very much! ^^

and if you write nasty comments, like what ade said on her blog, SHE WILL KILL YOU.
and her face is scary enough you won't want her to kill you so like it kay! HAHAHAHAHA!

read below for some exercising tips KEKE.

HI KIDS

i'm gonna be a good jiejie today and introduce you this set of exercise i saw on weibo which i think is both effective and super easy. :)


THERE WILL BE PICS FOR ILLUSTRATION SAY WOOHOO!

1. put your arms behind the back of your head and preferably hug it.
2. turn your upper body from left to right WITHOUT MOVING YOUR LOWER BODY. *THAT IS NOT TO MOVE ANY PART OF YOUR BODY BELOW THE RED LINE AS SHOWN BELOW.

3. after repeating this for 30 times, IMMEDIATELY bend your body from side to side WITHOUT CHANGING THE POSITION OF YOUR ARMS AND WITHOUT MOVING YOUR LOWER BODY again, as shown below.


i assure you it's effective cause after i did it, my waistline decreased 4.5cm IMMEDIATELY HAHA you can try it if you dun believe me~~~
i dunoe if the centimetres will go back though but if you continue doing it i'm sure you will be fine. :)

OHH if you wanna exercise your whole body:
do 30 minutes of skipping every morning and night. :)
it's NOT as easy as it sounds.
good luck HAHA.

shall share more exercise tips the next time round~ keke.

XLB BUFFET

I DAMN EXCITED I GOING TO XLB BUFFET THIS SAT HAHAHAAHAHAHA.

HAHAHAHA YES I'M GONNA EAT THISSSSS!!

forever craving for xlb. nv ever felt like i can have enough of it. AND AHTAY BRINGING ME TO GO EAT XLB BUFFET LEH OMG HAPPY MUCH :')

now i damn hungry alr. mummy very late start to cook sigh until now haven finish.
my bator jiao-ing like a W H A L E :(

HEHEHE i will post pics of happy me eating the xlbs happily okay! ^^
and btw haven take photos of the transformer cup aiya damn lazy. HEHE.
putting it on my table and not using it. thinking if i should use it.

the other time did i get a kungfu panda cup? :/
me and ahtay somehow got this feeling that we did. but how come i dun see it anywhere at home? :/

sigh okay nvm. THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS POST IS JUST:


HEHEHE okay byeeeeeeee. may you salivate until your saliva seems like tsunami~~~~~~~


ohh yea. WHY AM I SO HUNGRY NOW:
cause i only had a sandwich the whole day and i had diarrhea. means my sandwich alr came out. :( sadded. okay kthxbye.

HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 2

YEA I WATCHED IT ALR DESPITE THE STRESSFUL PROJECT WORK CAUSE I ROCK. :)

and kenneth who is fiona's brother asked me why i am so free. HAHAHAHAHAHA.


anyway before the show me and ahtay went to have sour sally and some prata before meeting the rest at the cinema.
kekeke. bought the transformers cup WEEHEE which i have currently no picture of. AND IT'S MY FAVE BUMBLE BEEEEEEEE! <3<3
shall take one when i get back home kay. :) hiahiahia.


cried alot during the movie. D: cause of the deaths of those familiar faces. esp fred. NOOO FREDD NOOOOO!! :(:( cried the most over his death. SOBS.

basically nua-ed around cine and scape after the movie HAHA. shared a choco meltz with ahtay and heh luckily we shared the 1for1 thing with kenneth and stephanie. or else... sweet die us. D:

and we saw this bapok outside cine OMG. curious me kept saying i wanna see her/him. HAHAHAHA. then when i walked past her unknowingly my heart almost stopped. sorry i am a coward. D:
and gordon kept teasing her and the obscene poses she made... D: i was prepared to run once she comes towards us. but luckily she nv did.
we were originally standing at the front of our gang facing her and i was so scared i pulled ahtay to the back HAHA and they said i would be the last person she look for but stilllllllllllllllllll.
sorry to judge but the way you behave is kind of inappropriate to me. D: scary much.

thank god that i eventually got home safe and sound. :)

NO HWEEL FOR PROJECTS.

listening to shinee's mr removed makes me ignore everything in this world. :')
i love them so much. :')
feel like crying that i cant even attend their concert. FUCKKK.
okay forget it jiale forget it.
there must be a second chance some time in the future. :(

dun feel like doing work at all.
dun give a damn at how this world looks at me.
i am just me.

told sebas my biggest secret of years. somehow feel so relieved. :)
you are the bestest friend anyone can have kay! hiahiahia! :D

MY AUSTRALIA FRIEND

HOHO MET THESE TWO LOVELY PEOPLE ON WED~~

jojo my australia friend and von! HEHE.

jojo is back from aus for a few weeks' break weeeeeee~

crap awhile take some polaroids and went home with jojo. HEHE.

long time no see them :') i miss you guys so muchhhh! <3<3

sigh my society 0910. SHALL ORGANIZE AN OUTING WHEN I'M FREE-ERRR!

WEDDING DINNER!

anywayyyy, exactly one week back, i went to a wedding dinner with ahtay!

his uncle was getting married keke.

we sat at table 4!! HEHH damn near the stage O.O

ate and ate onomnom and ahtay the camwhoring kid wanted to go out to take some photooooos~

TADA!!

the auntie who took the next two photos was damn cute. she kept moving the camera to get it to focus on us HAHAHAHA.

and here is what you get when you ask the wedding photographer to take ONE photo for you HAHA.

so fucking scared right now.
i need to stay positive.

(edited)
okay i got scared for nothing. -_-
/foreverthinkingtoomuch.
sorry love for scaring you. D:

MY WEIBO ^^

I found this in weibo. okay yea i created a weibo acct which is basically a chinese twitter HAHA. guess i will tweet more there when i need privacy or when i'm in china. HAHAHA yea created so that i can communicate with my future chinese colleagues. :')



OKAY ANYWAYYY back to the topic:

一般提到【白羊座】很多人会想到火爆率直、外向爱玩之类的特质。的确大多数白羊内心都有着这样的基因，但外在不明显。我认识的白羊，通常都是给人家沉默文静甚有些冷漠的第一印象，因为白羊内心其实并不像星座说的那样勇敢自信，反而没有安全感，表现得无畏是怕别人知道他们脆弱和不安，尊严对他很重要。

the basic translation is that Aries are often seen as bad tempered, blunt, outgoing and fun-loving. Indeed, it is true that many Aries have such characteristics within themselves, but it is not obvious outside. Usually Aries seem to be quiet and silent or even cold when you first know them as they are not actually as brave and confident as their horoscope states. But instead, they are very insecure and appears to be bold so that others would not find out their vulnerability and unsure side, as ego and pride is very important to them.



so true for me. i am feeling so scared inside of me right now. :(
but nevertheless, i need to stay happy and brave for whatever that comes at me in the future. :)
becauseeeeeee there is another thing on weibo which i think is true for me! ^^


HERE IT IS:

只有真正懂得白羊座的人，才能看见眼底那一缕似有似无的哀伤，才能明白是什么让白羊座如此的义无反顾，是什么让白羊变得如此忽冷忽热捉摸不定，才能体会白羊的坚强只是竭力掩饰的脆弱。白羊，其实只不过是一头可爱、天真、刁蛮，想你多爱一点的白羊而已！



AND


白羊座的天真，天真是因为白羊始终坚持着自己的理想。天真是因为白羊总是相信这个世界是像童话书中一样的美好。天真是因为白羊总是以为人人都如他们般天真。 天真是因为白羊总是以一种积极向上的眼光来看待世界：明天的太阳会更灿烂。 总之，白羊是把天真和聪明结合的最好、最美妙的人。


TRANSLATION AS BELOW:
Only those who really knows Aries would be able to see the tinge of melancholy behind their eyes, and therefore understand what makes them so persistent, so unpredictable with an everchanging attitude, and therefore understand that their stubbornness is just their best method to hide their vulnerability. Aries are actually cute, naive, willful and they just want you to love them more!

AND

Aries are naive, naive as they are stubborn and persistent about their dreams, naive as they always believe that the world is as beautiful as that in a fairytale, naive as Aries always think that people are as naive as them, naive as Aries always use an onward-looking and positive perspective to look at the world: Tomorrow will be more beautiful. In conclusion, Aries are the best and most wonderful person combined together by their naivete and intelligence.


THESE PEOPLE UNDERSTAND ME :')

i know this retarded and giam siap kid.

ME: ehhh! this friday we go try the new chocolate melts okayyy!
TAY: okay loh.
ME: you know is what anot!?!?!? from macs one!!
TAY: ehh is it like the cinnamon melts?
ME: YAR YAR YAR!! WE GO EAT OKAY!
TAY: okay loh.
ME: why you so sian? IT'S ON ONE-FOR-ONE OFFER LEHHHHH!!
TAY: REALLY AH!?!? OKAY WE GO EAT!!


this is the retarded and giam siap kid that i know of. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

HAPPY BDAY TO MY BESTF

SEBASTIAN LOO YU WEI!
okay technically it's sebastian liu yu wei HAHAHA.

:D:D THANKS FOR DREAMING ABOUT ME ON YOUR BDAY MORNING but no thanks to the content. -_- you know i know.
BETCHA SPENT THE DAY WITH YOUR BELOVED GIRL SO IT MUST BE A HAPPY BIRTHDAY TODAY FOR YOU SO I WISH THAT THERE ARE MORE TO COME OKAY! :):)
no presents for you cause aww you know we dun need these kind of things between us! HEHE! :P

5th month (L)

hi my dear. :)

i know i said that this thing would get shorter and shorter but this time round it is different. :(

i can't stop thinking about the fact that two months from now, i wouldn't be on the same land as you anymore. :(

though it's a short 6 months as compared to the many years that we will be together (WE WILL HORH!), i still feel sad. :(

you have been really sweet these days and i really appreciate it hehe many hearts for you okay. <3 <3 tay yin ji totally rocks big time WOOHOO! ^^

last but not least....

WEDDING PHOTO!! ^^

ignore my fats tyvm.

HI I AM FINALLY UPDATING :')

are you touched? have you been waiting long? awww why you so cute. :')

okay ignore me HAHAHA.

ANYWAYYY. we need to turn the clock back to erm last saturday 02 july.

went to watch ahtay play bball early in the morning heh.

his friends are very nice kekeke.

watched transformers with these lovelies afterthat - limguowei, limyingjie, chong, josh and their friend junwei. HAHA.

ahtay came with us too lalala~

BUMBLE BEE SO CUTE HEHEHE. it's the cutest autobot hiahiahia!

after the movie they started bombarding me how the girl in the movie is so much prettier and hotter than me. -_- INCLUDING TAYYINJI. all you suckers. >:(

left them to go wisma for sour sally~~

but idiot me forgot to bring my vouchers. >:(

in the end, we just bought one to share hehhh.

finished up the yogurt and he met peihan before i left for home to do projs. T^T sad life. D:

everyday is mundane life but stayed up on tue night chatting with my sisters. random chat HAHA but kind of nice hahahaha.

and i went to watch treasure inn with ahtay on wed hiahia.

i really really really love this show.

laughed nonstop HAHAHA. and this is not like any other comedy. it's more like the retarded ones you watch when you are young and you just cant help but laugh at all the retardedness. HAHAHA.

miss those carefree-er times when we were young. :')

on thursday we went to SISPEC for a tour for WISP. totally feels like an excursion HAHAHA.

me and ahyi got separated from the rest D:

but nevertheless we had a great tour with good guides hahahaha. okay just por only.

anywayyyy, i tried almost everything that can be tried. seriouslyyy. HAHAHA.

first a few of us had the chance to try this night vision goggles and curious me pulled ahyi along with me HAHA it was cool shit HIAHIAHIA.

then we also tried the food rations that the soldiers ate ehh kind of weird HAHAHA.

and there was this weapon(?) that they have which is super bright and said to be 150,000 times brighter than a candle!? and all i have to do is to pull the string and the guides and ahyi kept pushing me to pull it D: so paiseh. but O.O it was easier than i thought. i thought i will need like alot of strength to pull it HAHAHA.

okay then we had the blank firing OMG it's cool shit HAHAHAHA. i likeeeee!

me who totally love guns and cars totally like a tomboy so wahahahaha so happy that i got a chance. ^^

fired twice HAHA cool shit ME LIKE.

me and ahyi on our wayyy~~ :D:D

me wearing the (insert word) vest HAHAHA i dunoe call what lahhh. it's some sort of armour HIAHIA.

went to kenneth's bday chalet on fri night.

kind of weird that i was wearing a dress. -_- but ahtay complained that i haven been wearing dress. that pervert likes it HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

anywayyy, he collaborated with adeline and the rest to give me a surprise by turning up in school sdnly to fetch me. hehe. i really had a great shock from the back hug and almost had a heart attack HAHAHAHA (L) you many many!!

brought the kid to munch since he nv been there before and intro-ed the ever so awesome panggang to him HAHAHA.

took like two hours to reach changi aloha/aloha changi HAHA it was crazy. watched his friends drank and play games cause yeaaa both of us dun drink. played monopoly deal weeeeee~ HAHA.

cake cutting was quick since everyone chionged to take the photos as the ice cream cake melts and the camera's batt blinks HAHAHA.

and of course, the camwhoring kid strikes again!

okay so this are the main highlights of my past week keke.

okay bye!

WALAU LIAR D: I CAME HERE TO TAKE A BREAK FROM WISP. THEN YOU NEVER UPDATE DURING RMTR LEH D: Y OH Y

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA AIYA like you said we doing WISP i very busy lehhh. and i din switch on my comp during RMTR ma. D: somemore i was excited and afraid for my overseas internship at that time T^T

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SO LONG SINCE A PROPER UPDATE

had rants here and there and everywhere on my blog about this and that and almost anything under the sun but haven been updating properly. D:

wanna talk about the movies i watched and what i did out of my studying life but D: no time.
TML DURING RMTR LECTURE OKAY HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. ^^

D: my stomach is going kong ka kiao. D:
i hope i wun have cancer or what please i wanna die peacefully in my sleep when i am old please. :(
thank you very much.

okay time to start on PT guest lecture reflection D:

Yes, if we get in together, we can definitely do this :) PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY!! -I'm afraid too, but this is short term pain, for the long term benefits!- PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

YESSSSSSSSS!! fervently hope that there are tons of long term benefits which worth so much more than this short term pain HAHA. forever thinking of selina and ahdiong HAHA

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JIAYOU JIALE! IT'S GOING TO BE TOUGH BUT YOU'LL COME OUT A STRONGER PERSON! JIAYOU AH LE! :)

HEHEHE i dunoe who you but hehe thanks thanks <3 i certainly hope so! ^^

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IT'S OFFICIAL.

i am going to overseas for internship.
it still doesn't feel like reality to me.
i kind of wish that the day i leave sg would be on a weekend so that ahtay can send me off. :(
or can you take leave if it's on a weekday? :/
i sdnly feel scared.
i hope and hope and hope that i wun regret.
i pray and pray that i will be strong and independent enough and eventually come back to become a more thoughtful and mature jiale.
i dunoe how to describe how i feel right now.
more scared than looking forward to be honest.
i selfishly want everyone to send me off on the day i leave.
that's all.
i just need to see every one and each of your faces just before i leave. plus a really tight hug. :(
hopefully it's a life with ahyi.
our lives hiahia.
it will be kind of adventurous kind of fun with the both of us staying together, farting in the room hiahia i dunoe but this is the most disgusting thing i can think of?
and when one of us is sick we can take care of each other and everything.
but the both of us will be on our own.
making new friends in a brand new environment which is totally strange to us.
we can make it right? :)
we can do this right? :)
however, there is still this huge part of me that feels so incredibly afraid.
sorry i am a coward. my beloveds would know. i scream at every little thing HAHA.
what if i get bullied? i have no idea how to deal with it.
probably just call ngee ann and complain HAHAHA.
if it feels tough what do i do? :/
i guess i can only rant to ahyi or to whoever is webcamming with me.
probably will start emailing my beloveds regularly. :/
sebas keeps asking me if i am sure that i can leave sg leave ahtay leave my family leave my friends for six months.
sebas ah sebas. just as you said, i am not sure. i am not certain. i really dunoe if i am doing the right thing. :(
but for now, i need support, need support from everyone to be able to do this.
sebas ah sebas, you understand me the most. you know reasons which i can't or don't dare to say/admit.
i am afraid too. super afraid.
as much as i act that i am confident, i am super insecure inside.
i really hope i can do this. i really hope so.
because somehow i believe that if i am able to go through this six months of my life, i would be able to go through anything bravely.
jiale jiayou. you know there is nothing else you can do but jiayou.
be brave be confident be strong. :)

just a thought, if you reach 40KG, you will be kinda severely underweight, with regards to your height.

O.O who are you? HAHA. yea i know aiya just a goal. i may or may not reach it. ideal weight is like 45kg thoughhh hehe.

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Which friend would you do anything for?

^^ hehe there are so many. :') i love my friends so much more than myself.

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I DON'T LOOK LIKE ME D:

i look so tired nowadays that everyone is asking me if i'm alright. D:

later i am gonna have my bcomm data gathering wish me luck okay. :):)

hope i dun screw up and i speak clearly and i suddenly become damn witty and able to answer every single qns she ans and can continue the conversation with whatever she is saying. okay good luck jiale <3

totally moodless.
don't ask me why. :/ i have no idea too.

totally no motivation to do any work.
trying my best to concentrate but i keep staring at the screen while daydreaming. :/
if ahtay knows, he will scold me in his military style again. D:

my stomach hurts so badly i dun even know why.
is it cause that i haven't had any appetite lately so i ate super little as compared to my usual glutton self?

i feel like sitting down and cry. AGAIN.
yes again.
tears need to be dropped to cleanse my eyes, my heart, my soul.
i need to see clearer what is going on, what is happening.

there is just this very bad feeling of mine which i'm not sure cause of what. :/
bad omen that something is going to happen. please don't let this be true. :(

jiale ah jiale.
i feel so stressed and yet i dunoe what to do.
i wanna take charge but yet i feel so unsure.
i wanna feel confident. really.
i wanna be decisive but i'm so afraid that my decision will be wrong and people won't like it.
i have made so many mistakes in the past.
it's like there are a lot of conflicts inside of me.
they are fighting and fighting.
tell me what to do, can you?
i need people to tell me what to do..
why am i so useless?
why can't i make choices by myself? why do i get swayed by people?
why am i so afraid? why am i so insecure?
i feel like i'm going to lose everyone overnight.
it's so scary so scary.
i don't wanna go back.
i don't wanna go back to then.
i don't wanna feel lonely and alone and everything.
i don't wanna be left alone again.
the past is haunting me again.
get it away, ask it to go away.
jiale, i made the right decision right?
tell me that i am on the right track.
tell me that i am on the path of happiness.
tell me that my future will be great.
let me be sure.
jiale, no one can help me but you.
you need to be strong.
you need to be sure.
you need to pull me up when i'm down.
you need to kiss me and tell me that i will be fine.
you need to hug me tight and say you will never let go.
tell me that we can hold on.
jiale, i am you.
if you are sure, i will be too.
you are not lonely, you have yourself.
you have ahtay, you have friends, you have your family.
can you get your heart set to what you want to do?
i know it's tiring, but it's not gonna end just yet.
the end is still some distance away.
you need to strive abit more to get there.
make your life the most fulfilling one.
no one understand you better than i do. we are one, remember? :)
give yourself a pat on the head. there, you got it. :)
wipe away those tears and smile. :) told you you can do this. :)
your smile is beautiful. it's the most beautiful thing on you.
i love you.

love, yourself.



p.s: don't judge me for encouraging myself. it feels so much better for me that way. you should probably try it too.

Upload separate pics for USS leh, don't gif I want post de hor

-_- dun wantttt. so ma fannnnn. you ownself get from me lah tskkk

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