IT'S OFFICIAL.

i am going to overseas for internship.
it still doesn't feel like reality to me.
i kind of wish that the day i leave sg would be on a weekend so that ahtay can send me off. :(
or can you take leave if it's on a weekday? :/
i sdnly feel scared.
i hope and hope and hope that i wun regret.
i pray and pray that i will be strong and independent enough and eventually come back to become a more thoughtful and mature jiale.
i dunoe how to describe how i feel right now.
more scared than looking forward to be honest.
i selfishly want everyone to send me off on the day i leave.
that's all.
i just need to see every one and each of your faces just before i leave. plus a really tight hug. :(
hopefully it's a life with ahyi.
our lives hiahia.
it will be kind of adventurous kind of fun with the both of us staying together, farting in the room hiahia i dunoe but this is the most disgusting thing i can think of?
and when one of us is sick we can take care of each other and everything.
but the both of us will be on our own.
making new friends in a brand new environment which is totally strange to us.
we can make it right? :)
we can do this right? :)
however, there is still this huge part of me that feels so incredibly afraid.
sorry i am a coward. my beloveds would know. i scream at every little thing HAHA.
what if i get bullied? i have no idea how to deal with it.
probably just call ngee ann and complain HAHAHA.
if it feels tough what do i do? :/
i guess i can only rant to ahyi or to whoever is webcamming with me.
probably will start emailing my beloveds regularly. :/
sebas keeps asking me if i am sure that i can leave sg leave ahtay leave my family leave my friends for six months.
sebas ah sebas. just as you said, i am not sure. i am not certain. i really dunoe if i am doing the right thing. :(
but for now, i need support, need support from everyone to be able to do this.
sebas ah sebas, you understand me the most. you know reasons which i can't or don't dare to say/admit.
i am afraid too. super afraid.
as much as i act that i am confident, i am super insecure inside.
i really hope i can do this. i really hope so.
because somehow i believe that if i am able to go through this six months of my life, i would be able to go through anything bravely.
jiale jiayou. you know there is nothing else you can do but jiayou.
be brave be confident be strong. :)