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Saturday, April 30, 2011
my belated birthday
I love myrna lam, jervis quak, shaun leong for that little bday surprise they gave me. ^^ hehe.
Din meet mrtay today. Hope he gets well soon. :( rest well bb. <3
Planning to do smthing tml. Heh.
Okay update about tonight (or technically last night) soon!!
Din meet mrtay today. Hope he gets well soon. :( rest well bb. <3
Planning to do smthing tml. Heh.
Okay update about tonight (or technically last night) soon!!
Thursday, April 28, 2011
what a moody day
i have no idea why i am in a moody mood but i just am. :/
i think i have been quite critical of people nowadays and have sort of been amplifying their weaknesses. :(
i am such a bad person eh? :/
okay let's talk about some happy things now! ^^
yesterday i have finally submitted my bursary application forms!
WOOHOO! MONEY FASTER COME!! $.$
met limguowei and he made chong say hi to me HAHA okay thanks.
after sch ended, i accompanied guowei to submit his application forms HOHO i am such a good friend.
chitchatting at library's level 1.5 seats is so nice keke old friend yo!
and at least 15 GROUPS of freshies went down the stairs wanting to leave the library from the first floor HAHA we kept laughing but we stared at each other as we laughed so as to pretend we were laughing about our own conver HAHAHA!
reached home after about 1.5hours stuck on the road in a bus whose aircon is spoilt. :( suay ttm.
today's lessons are quite fun and i think i will start looking forward to thursday~~ ^^
supposedly meeting mrtay tonight but i was afraid that he was tired and he was afraid that i was tired and we din meet. aww you so sweet ah. ^^ hehe. /hugs
anyway i think our WISP tutor really has this charisma. he is able to make a joke out of almost everything, and yet make us see sense by the jokes that he make.
hmm. racism and discrimination is probably a really very big issue now. this issue has been occuring for centuries.
it's hard to change the world's discrimination, but perhaps it is possible to change the small singapore's perceptions about this.
just a small example, how many times have we assumed that kidnappers are indians?
remember how your mum used to say, 'dun anyhow run, later ahpu nehneh catch you ah!'
yeah we are all racists. in some way or another. or even sexists. or discriminate some kind of people somewhat.
i wanna be a kinder person.
i think i have been quite critical of people nowadays and have sort of been amplifying their weaknesses. :(
i am such a bad person eh? :/
okay let's talk about some happy things now! ^^
yesterday i have finally submitted my bursary application forms!
WOOHOO! MONEY FASTER COME!! $.$
met limguowei and he made chong say hi to me HAHA okay thanks.
after sch ended, i accompanied guowei to submit his application forms HOHO i am such a good friend.
chitchatting at library's level 1.5 seats is so nice keke old friend yo!
and at least 15 GROUPS of freshies went down the stairs wanting to leave the library from the first floor HAHA we kept laughing but we stared at each other as we laughed so as to pretend we were laughing about our own conver HAHAHA!
reached home after about 1.5hours stuck on the road in a bus whose aircon is spoilt. :( suay ttm.
today's lessons are quite fun and i think i will start looking forward to thursday~~ ^^
supposedly meeting mrtay tonight but i was afraid that he was tired and he was afraid that i was tired and we din meet. aww you so sweet ah. ^^ hehe. /hugs
anyway i think our WISP tutor really has this charisma. he is able to make a joke out of almost everything, and yet make us see sense by the jokes that he make.
hmm. racism and discrimination is probably a really very big issue now. this issue has been occuring for centuries.
it's hard to change the world's discrimination, but perhaps it is possible to change the small singapore's perceptions about this.
just a small example, how many times have we assumed that kidnappers are indians?
remember how your mum used to say, 'dun anyhow run, later ahpu nehneh catch you ah!'
yeah we are all racists. in some way or another. or even sexists. or discriminate some kind of people somewhat.
i wanna be a kinder person.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
i was trying to be a good girl
and do my STMO tutorial during the long break between 2pm to 4pm i have which is like now but staring at the intensive readings that i have to do, i feel like dying ohmygodddd.
it's like just one tutorial. :( okay i shall start it soon.
met lots of friends today unexpectedly yayyy. is this a good sign? :):)
the fan above me is being really irritating now.
it's like blowing directly at my eyes and making it super dry and sleepy now.
fan, you suckkkk.
perhaps i will blog lesser and lesser?
though i love my blog, my mundane life disallows me to have anything to blog.
NOOOOOOOOOO!!
okay i shall see how things go.
bye people! ^^
it's like just one tutorial. :( okay i shall start it soon.
met lots of friends today unexpectedly yayyy. is this a good sign? :):)
the fan above me is being really irritating now.
it's like blowing directly at my eyes and making it super dry and sleepy now.
fan, you suckkkk.
perhaps i will blog lesser and lesser?
though i love my blog, my mundane life disallows me to have anything to blog.
NOOOOOOOOOO!!
okay i shall see how things go.
bye people! ^^
Monday, April 25, 2011
five more posts to the auspicious number
WHICH IS 888!! CAUSE IT WILL BE MY 888TH POST WAHAHAHAHAHA! ^^
actually i am not in a very happy/chirpy/talking mood right now but nvm forget it. i'm trying to cheer myself up. ^^
damn kiasu classmates make your life more sian. seriously.
sms the teacher just to chop the tutorial qns. do you need to be so kiasu!? -_-
and the teacher din even say to split but you just took matters in your own hands. argh.
i really need some time to nua at home.
i am dreaming of a day when i can nua on my bed, with the aircon on, me in my blanket hugging my bolster while watching the tv. HAHA.
yinji xian sheng you can replace my bolster if you want. keke.
think i need to start doing sit ups every night alr. and like start exercising more. jiayou me! ^^
actually i am not in a very happy/chirpy/talking mood right now but nvm forget it. i'm trying to cheer myself up. ^^
damn kiasu classmates make your life more sian. seriously.
sms the teacher just to chop the tutorial qns. do you need to be so kiasu!? -_-
and the teacher din even say to split but you just took matters in your own hands. argh.
i really need some time to nua at home.
i am dreaming of a day when i can nua on my bed, with the aircon on, me in my blanket hugging my bolster while watching the tv. HAHA.
yinji xian sheng you can replace my bolster if you want. keke.
think i need to start doing sit ups every night alr. and like start exercising more. jiayou me! ^^
Sunday, April 24, 2011
a quick post
before i head to do my tutorials. :( sobs sobs.
went to suntec for jiejie's hope church service for easter.
hmm well, i can only say i can't very well comprehend their love for god and when they say to raise hand to embrace god, i couldn't very well do it cause i dun exactly feel them.
don't think i will ever become a christian anyway. :/ my character don't exactly allow me to. heh.
dinner at mrtay's and retarded me went to the wrong floor before getting back to the lift which was going down and when i reached level 1, guess who came into the lift? old mr tay with his second son. T.T (tay yin ji is his third and last son)
awkwardness as i tried to explain how come i am in the lift that is going down when i was going up. T.T diu lian ttm.
dinner and watched some tv before yinji papa sent him back to camp and me back home though i wanted to go home by myself. hehe thanks loads uncle!
okay back to work and tml is sort of my official first day of school since i dun think thur really counts. okay bye peeps! ^^
went to suntec for jiejie's hope church service for easter.
hmm well, i can only say i can't very well comprehend their love for god and when they say to raise hand to embrace god, i couldn't very well do it cause i dun exactly feel them.
don't think i will ever become a christian anyway. :/ my character don't exactly allow me to. heh.
dinner at mrtay's and retarded me went to the wrong floor before getting back to the lift which was going down and when i reached level 1, guess who came into the lift? old mr tay with his second son. T.T (tay yin ji is his third and last son)
awkwardness as i tried to explain how come i am in the lift that is going down when i was going up. T.T diu lian ttm.
dinner and watched some tv before yinji papa sent him back to camp and me back home though i wanted to go home by myself. hehe thanks loads uncle!
okay back to work and tml is sort of my official first day of school since i dun think thur really counts. okay bye peeps! ^^
i dunoe why
but sdnly i just went back to read our conversation.
those that were well over a year ago.
i couldn't rmb what happened as i read.
it's like that person was me, but yet not me.
i see everytime we quarrel, how hard you try to pacify me.
and how petty and childish i was.
guys and girls;
the most crucial difference is that guys see trivial matters as nothing while girls see trivial matters as everything.
at that point in time, you refuse to give up on us and persuaded me not to as well.
but until the end, i guess you just felt that i was far too hurt to continue and everything ended.
it kind of hurts when i read them, thinking about how it could have been.
we din have enough fate i guess.
too many things just got in our way.
looking at the you i currently have now, i dun wanna make the same mistake.
you want me to let you win right?
do you know how many times you actually won?
in fact, everytime when the quarrel ended with me ignoring you, you win when i start holding your hand/arm without you coaxing me.
i din used to be like that.
in the past, it took a great deal of coaxing and pacifying before i relent.
i dun want you to say that i dun treasure us.
because i do. :)
i need to keep in mind about my faults, and not forget them once i get upset. :/
those that were well over a year ago.
i couldn't rmb what happened as i read.
it's like that person was me, but yet not me.
i see everytime we quarrel, how hard you try to pacify me.
and how petty and childish i was.
guys and girls;
the most crucial difference is that guys see trivial matters as nothing while girls see trivial matters as everything.
at that point in time, you refuse to give up on us and persuaded me not to as well.
but until the end, i guess you just felt that i was far too hurt to continue and everything ended.
it kind of hurts when i read them, thinking about how it could have been.
we din have enough fate i guess.
too many things just got in our way.
looking at the you i currently have now, i dun wanna make the same mistake.
you want me to let you win right?
do you know how many times you actually won?
in fact, everytime when the quarrel ended with me ignoring you, you win when i start holding your hand/arm without you coaxing me.
i din used to be like that.
in the past, it took a great deal of coaxing and pacifying before i relent.
i dun want you to say that i dun treasure us.
because i do. :)
i need to keep in mind about my faults, and not forget them once i get upset. :/
Saturday, April 23, 2011
5hours aren't enough
when it comes to singing karaoke for me and mrtay. HAHA
He complained that i sang for like 4 and a half hour while he sang for three and a half cause i know most of the songs he chose except for a few hehe. Not my fault maaa.
Anyway we sang here!
^^ the TEN DOLLAR CLUB at tpy.
There is an outlet in chinatown too!!
Actually it is 10 bucks per person but minimum 3 so we paid 30 in total but okay lah we sang for five hours with free flow drinks (they have AWESOME barley drinks) and two cups of tibits hehe.
Best of all is they allow outside food as long as you dun leave containers there. ^^
But the thing is it is usually crowded and if you wanna make a reservation you have to have a safra or hometeam ns card or membership card so if you dun have the first two, you can borrow the membership card from me~ ^^
I think the tpy outlet no bird nest. :( chinatown like better alr. Shall go to chinatown's the next time okay mr tay yin ji! Then we eat the bird nest and you wun be sad alr HAHAHA!!
Went to value$ and bought all the cheap food/tibits woohooo!
Bought snickers and sweets for poor ade who worked 12hours straight too. Hope the damn cheap snickers taste alright!!
Visited ade at bpp for some yogurt and dinner there as well.
Mrtay went to look for his mum who is working there and she said she wanna meet me OMGGGG.
Headed there aft some mental boost from ade and she is a smiley lady though we din talk much since she is working. ^^
She smiled the instant she saw us walking to her! So cute!
Back to his hse for some tv before going home.
Okay im on the bus on my way home and the aircon above me is leaking but im kinda lazy to move? :/:/ nvm it just drips occasionally hoho.
Here are some pics taken while we are singing!!
Ohhh and that idiot took vids of me and him singing. Evil me might just post the one of just him singing hiakhiakhiak.
Hmm mm perhaps i shall ask ep and evon go sing k with me there and finally fulfill our ksession outing!! ^^
Anyway im home within 45 mins woohoo zoomzoom!! ^^!!
He complained that i sang for like 4 and a half hour while he sang for three and a half cause i know most of the songs he chose except for a few hehe. Not my fault maaa.
Anyway we sang here!
^^ the TEN DOLLAR CLUB at tpy.
There is an outlet in chinatown too!!
Actually it is 10 bucks per person but minimum 3 so we paid 30 in total but okay lah we sang for five hours with free flow drinks (they have AWESOME barley drinks) and two cups of tibits hehe.
Best of all is they allow outside food as long as you dun leave containers there. ^^
But the thing is it is usually crowded and if you wanna make a reservation you have to have a safra or hometeam ns card or membership card so if you dun have the first two, you can borrow the membership card from me~ ^^
I think the tpy outlet no bird nest. :( chinatown like better alr. Shall go to chinatown's the next time okay mr tay yin ji! Then we eat the bird nest and you wun be sad alr HAHAHA!!
Went to value$ and bought all the cheap food/tibits woohooo!
Bought snickers and sweets for poor ade who worked 12hours straight too. Hope the damn cheap snickers taste alright!!
Visited ade at bpp for some yogurt and dinner there as well.
Mrtay went to look for his mum who is working there and she said she wanna meet me OMGGGG.
Headed there aft some mental boost from ade and she is a smiley lady though we din talk much since she is working. ^^
She smiled the instant she saw us walking to her! So cute!
Back to his hse for some tv before going home.
Okay im on the bus on my way home and the aircon above me is leaking but im kinda lazy to move? :/:/ nvm it just drips occasionally hoho.
Here are some pics taken while we are singing!!
Ohhh and that idiot took vids of me and him singing. Evil me might just post the one of just him singing hiakhiakhiak.
Hmm mm perhaps i shall ask ep and evon go sing k with me there and finally fulfill our ksession outing!! ^^
Anyway im home within 45 mins woohoo zoomzoom!! ^^!!
boing boing~
And i bounce here once again. ^^
Anywayyy, school only lasted abt an hour for me ytd. Brought my laptop and adapter for nothing. Sobssss.
Only had one IS lesson for the first week and my teacher is hilarious. And he scolds fuck like free flow. Seriouslyyyy.
Headed to clementi mall with cher and ahyi to walk before parting ways with cher and nua-ed at ahyi's.
Ohh and i was calling ahyi at the bus stop and this auntie kept turning to look at me cause she thought that i was calling her HAHAHA.
Went to pick cher up and bpp for some yogurt before going around to the pasar malam.
All the nostalgic feeling while looking through the toys we yearned to have when we were young. :')
Pick ade up before ahyi dropped me at the bus stop as they went for supper and i headed home to meet my dear boy.
This morning woke up pretty early and tried to be a good girl by looking for tutorials to do but to no avail.
TUTORS, WHY YOU NO UPLOAD TUTORIALS!? T^T
Mrtay accompanied me to cityhall to look for leon's bday cake cause it's his bdayyy!!
Bought really cute marshmellows for him as well. Keke.
Parted and headed to marina barrage where we celebrated with the rest of krumpins and flew kites and i got some burnts on my fingers pulling the string when the kite sped upwards. :(
Dinner with jit daryl weifeng leon keith corrine max and zhihong at lucky plaza ayam penyet yumyum. ^^
Weifeng and max left as we went for some drinks at ecp before jit sent us all home. Thankssss! ^^
Looking forward to k session with mrtay tml. Okay time for bed gdnight!!
Anywayyy, school only lasted abt an hour for me ytd. Brought my laptop and adapter for nothing. Sobssss.
Only had one IS lesson for the first week and my teacher is hilarious. And he scolds fuck like free flow. Seriouslyyyy.
Headed to clementi mall with cher and ahyi to walk before parting ways with cher and nua-ed at ahyi's.
Ohh and i was calling ahyi at the bus stop and this auntie kept turning to look at me cause she thought that i was calling her HAHAHA.
Went to pick cher up and bpp for some yogurt before going around to the pasar malam.
All the nostalgic feeling while looking through the toys we yearned to have when we were young. :')
Pick ade up before ahyi dropped me at the bus stop as they went for supper and i headed home to meet my dear boy.
This morning woke up pretty early and tried to be a good girl by looking for tutorials to do but to no avail.
TUTORS, WHY YOU NO UPLOAD TUTORIALS!? T^T
Mrtay accompanied me to cityhall to look for leon's bday cake cause it's his bdayyy!!
Bought really cute marshmellows for him as well. Keke.
Parted and headed to marina barrage where we celebrated with the rest of krumpins and flew kites and i got some burnts on my fingers pulling the string when the kite sped upwards. :(
Dinner with jit daryl weifeng leon keith corrine max and zhihong at lucky plaza ayam penyet yumyum. ^^
Weifeng and max left as we went for some drinks at ecp before jit sent us all home. Thankssss! ^^
Looking forward to k session with mrtay tml. Okay time for bed gdnight!!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
BAOC FINALLY OVER!!
okayyy so this is the picture that will not fail to make me smile HAHAHAHAHA.
baow was a rush and whoosh! everything ended. cheered much and guessed as much that we wun win but it's okay it's alright hoho.
had fun though there are unhappiness here and there. :)
skipped much lectures but tried to attend those that are more impt. hahahaha. i'm a good kid. ^^
cried and now i owe max a dinner. :( have to repay him sooooon!
thanks to evon for the clothes from bkk hehe (L) and to a mystery friend for the cake which i ate for lunch today. keke. ^^
a cute boy sang me ‘老鼠爱大米’ over the phone hoho cheered me up immediately. (L)(L)
Monday, April 18, 2011
insomnia/monday blues/sad/unhappy
what a bad day today. i really hate it. despite the ranting phone call i had with love, there is nothing else that is happy today. honestly nothing.
he fell sick today. and is the really sick type. get well soon my dear. please get well by tml and dun get a fever kay. (L) feel like flying over to your side and pat you to slp. or bring some meds over tml night but i think i will be busy tml. :/ perhaps they will give me some free time? but i would need like three hours to and fro. :(
why does everything seem so vulnerable now?
as in relationships and bonds between people. it is so easily broken and replaced.
and what it seems to be on the surface might not be the fact. it is just the illusion that you see right now.
i know how everyone feels about everyone. or at least i THINK i understand. but no one really dares to say how they feel.
it's like sometimes how i hope i am the one in charge for once. the one who is decides. i want to. i'm just giving in so that there won't be any conflicts in the relationship.
i dun mind that much about things that dun go my way. though there is a limit to everything and i hope i dun reach mine soon.
sometimes i just wanna ask them to go awayyy. stop pretending that you care. somehow. cause slowly, i seem to be unable to differentiate whether you care or you are just being kaypoh and wanna be those that 'knows stuffs' and i'm becoming paranoia and am starting to shrivel up and curl up in my own little corner of comfort.
because human is so unfathomable, there are only a few people that i truly trust that they wun judge me and love me for who i am and not secretly think that i am a bitch.
dun think that im an innocent little girl who is gullible and naive and trust everything you say. cause even when i suspect what you are saying isn't true, i CHOOSE to give you the benefit of doubt and dun take it for granted or worse still, take advantage of it.
i can see now how everyone wants things to go their own way. but i hope you understand that not all things in life go your way, and stop being so critical and give so much conditions for us to adhere too.
it's so hard to work in a way that pleases everyone. it's practically impossible. i'd prefer giving you two ways out which i can live with and you choose one of which you can live with. but people dun like to do it this way. most people dun like to give in, they wouldnt let go.
dun take it for granted that i am okay and fine with most things now. it's probably cause i'm too tired to mind or care. try testing my limits and you will see a jiale you never saw before.
all those 'pissed' and 'angry' jiale you saw is not even half of the real 'angry' me. i do scream and shout and yell and slam doors and throw things and slap people and scratch ppl and pull hairs and kick as hard as i can. so test the waters if you may and a tsunami might be on its way. :)
people have been coming to me and telling me that i look really pale and everything. i guess all the whirlwinds and tornadoes that went past my mind and all the mental stress i had today showed on my face. :( thanks for all the real concern you gave me. :)
though me and love actually knew each other for 2 years plus, we only got REALLY close for the past 4months and been tgthr for two months plus, BUT he is the one person whom i trust the most cause we are really close and i tell him almost everything.
almost cause smtimes i forget about some matters and thus din tell you okay. not cause i'm trying to hide from you horhhh!
i am really glad that i have you to ask how i am nowadays and to check on me and make sure i'm alright and wants me to take care of myself so he wun get worried. thanks my dear boy. (L)
Wanted to post a photo that will always make me smile but i forgot to and im using my phone right now so i shall edit this post tml night. Bye my dears.
he fell sick today. and is the really sick type. get well soon my dear. please get well by tml and dun get a fever kay. (L) feel like flying over to your side and pat you to slp. or bring some meds over tml night but i think i will be busy tml. :/ perhaps they will give me some free time? but i would need like three hours to and fro. :(
why does everything seem so vulnerable now?
as in relationships and bonds between people. it is so easily broken and replaced.
and what it seems to be on the surface might not be the fact. it is just the illusion that you see right now.
i know how everyone feels about everyone. or at least i THINK i understand. but no one really dares to say how they feel.
it's like sometimes how i hope i am the one in charge for once. the one who is decides. i want to. i'm just giving in so that there won't be any conflicts in the relationship.
i dun mind that much about things that dun go my way. though there is a limit to everything and i hope i dun reach mine soon.
sometimes i just wanna ask them to go awayyy. stop pretending that you care. somehow. cause slowly, i seem to be unable to differentiate whether you care or you are just being kaypoh and wanna be those that 'knows stuffs' and i'm becoming paranoia and am starting to shrivel up and curl up in my own little corner of comfort.
because human is so unfathomable, there are only a few people that i truly trust that they wun judge me and love me for who i am and not secretly think that i am a bitch.
dun think that im an innocent little girl who is gullible and naive and trust everything you say. cause even when i suspect what you are saying isn't true, i CHOOSE to give you the benefit of doubt and dun take it for granted or worse still, take advantage of it.
i can see now how everyone wants things to go their own way. but i hope you understand that not all things in life go your way, and stop being so critical and give so much conditions for us to adhere too.
it's so hard to work in a way that pleases everyone. it's practically impossible. i'd prefer giving you two ways out which i can live with and you choose one of which you can live with. but people dun like to do it this way. most people dun like to give in, they wouldnt let go.
dun take it for granted that i am okay and fine with most things now. it's probably cause i'm too tired to mind or care. try testing my limits and you will see a jiale you never saw before.
all those 'pissed' and 'angry' jiale you saw is not even half of the real 'angry' me. i do scream and shout and yell and slam doors and throw things and slap people and scratch ppl and pull hairs and kick as hard as i can. so test the waters if you may and a tsunami might be on its way. :)
people have been coming to me and telling me that i look really pale and everything. i guess all the whirlwinds and tornadoes that went past my mind and all the mental stress i had today showed on my face. :( thanks for all the real concern you gave me. :)
though me and love actually knew each other for 2 years plus, we only got REALLY close for the past 4months and been tgthr for two months plus, BUT he is the one person whom i trust the most cause we are really close and i tell him almost everything.
almost cause smtimes i forget about some matters and thus din tell you okay. not cause i'm trying to hide from you horhhh!
i am really glad that i have you to ask how i am nowadays and to check on me and make sure i'm alright and wants me to take care of myself so he wun get worried. thanks my dear boy. (L)
Wanted to post a photo that will always make me smile but i forgot to and im using my phone right now so i shall edit this post tml night. Bye my dears.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
no i dun wanna fall sick
i think my body is really heaty now? cause there is two ulcers in my mouth despite drinking alot of water everyday and i think one more ulcer is growing on my tongue. :( fml.
and i think all the junk/spicy food i have been consuming for almost EVERY SINGLE MEAL with the exception of one or two for the past week is taking a toll on my stomach. T.T it is extremely uncomfortable.
i can literally sit there and keep quiet and feel all the squirming and tossing which feels like a huge wave of tsunami coupled with earthquakes attacking my stomach. :( i guess this is called indigestion. T^T
sian ttm.
another sian matter would be IP grouping. or FYP grouping. :( complained much to (L) but i have no idea whether he understands anot since it seems rather complicated for him to comprehend. sigh. maybe i made it sound complicated. :(
okay i hope that everything will turn out fine in the end. :)
tml would be officially baoc. :/ hope i wun be too tired. just feel so detached and everything. argh dun talk about it anymore.
anyway, love you so much for being such a dear and sweetie these days. ^^
and i think all the junk/spicy food i have been consuming for almost EVERY SINGLE MEAL with the exception of one or two for the past week is taking a toll on my stomach. T.T it is extremely uncomfortable.
i can literally sit there and keep quiet and feel all the squirming and tossing which feels like a huge wave of tsunami coupled with earthquakes attacking my stomach. :( i guess this is called indigestion. T^T
sian ttm.
another sian matter would be IP grouping. or FYP grouping. :( complained much to (L) but i have no idea whether he understands anot since it seems rather complicated for him to comprehend. sigh. maybe i made it sound complicated. :(
okay i hope that everything will turn out fine in the end. :)
tml would be officially baoc. :/ hope i wun be too tired. just feel so detached and everything. argh dun talk about it anymore.
anyway, love you so much for being such a dear and sweetie these days. ^^
work work work.
i damn sian alr. i badly need some rest. i dun wanna run around. i just wanna stay at home one day and nua. like seriously.
fuck all this shit. fuck baoc. or baow. or whatever. i dun care. i dun even feel involved. i dun feel part of anything. i just feel like a robot, doing everything that im supposed to do. why did i even join back society!?
there was this little voice who told me not to join back last year. why din i listen to that little voice!? STUPID MEEEEE!!
argh it's my responsibility. i need to be responsible. jiale be good please.
fuck all this shit. fuck baoc. or baow. or whatever. i dun care. i dun even feel involved. i dun feel part of anything. i just feel like a robot, doing everything that im supposed to do. why did i even join back society!?
there was this little voice who told me not to join back last year. why din i listen to that little voice!? STUPID MEEEEE!!
argh it's my responsibility. i need to be responsible. jiale be good please.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
going to work now keke
EDITED
And im a happy girl weeeeee.
First up, my beloved sebas FINALLY is officially attached weeeeeeeee!! Though he thinks he is alr attached since dunoe how long ago hahahaha. Feel so so so happy for him! ^^
And ytd after work was dinner at thaiexpress with ade, cher, gwy, ahyi and claraaaaa. Hohoho.
Saw and watched xueli eat her icecream too heh heh. And she fed me the marshmellow with choc though i felt like i ate enough for the night hehe. Onomnom. Fat meeee. Next friday swimming at ahyi's kayy!! ^^
Lastly someone was being retardedly sweet ytd hahahahahaha.
He msged me 'i dun like you. I have never liked you.' or smthing like that and cause i was talking to my boss i din reply him and he tot i was angry and spammed me calls hohoho.
and sweet boy wants me to go for overseas internship cause he thinks the prospects are better but he doesnt wanna go overseas to study cause he is afraid that i will get snatched away by other guys keke.
But poor him was kind of high last night after getting forced to down lots of vodka. Better take care of yourself okayyy! All his friends were super high judging by how they talked to me over the phone hahahahaha.
And the nonsense you spouted. YAH! You wanna die!? Magnimous me shall treat it as nothing happened. Hmph!
Feel like i can control my anger better nowadays. Good thing though. Im a bad tempered person whose anger goes as fast as it comes.
And i would only show my anger to a handful of ppl. Sooo if you have experienced it before, it's that i am not afraid of losing you, cause either you dun matter, or im rather secure that you will be with me for the rest of my life. (L)
And im a happy girl weeeeee.
First up, my beloved sebas FINALLY is officially attached weeeeeeeee!! Though he thinks he is alr attached since dunoe how long ago hahahaha. Feel so so so happy for him! ^^
And ytd after work was dinner at thaiexpress with ade, cher, gwy, ahyi and claraaaaa. Hohoho.
Saw and watched xueli eat her icecream too heh heh. And she fed me the marshmellow with choc though i felt like i ate enough for the night hehe. Onomnom. Fat meeee. Next friday swimming at ahyi's kayy!! ^^
Lastly someone was being retardedly sweet ytd hahahahahaha.
He msged me 'i dun like you. I have never liked you.' or smthing like that and cause i was talking to my boss i din reply him and he tot i was angry and spammed me calls hohoho.
and sweet boy wants me to go for overseas internship cause he thinks the prospects are better but he doesnt wanna go overseas to study cause he is afraid that i will get snatched away by other guys keke.
But poor him was kind of high last night after getting forced to down lots of vodka. Better take care of yourself okayyy! All his friends were super high judging by how they talked to me over the phone hahahahaha.
And the nonsense you spouted. YAH! You wanna die!? Magnimous me shall treat it as nothing happened. Hmph!
Feel like i can control my anger better nowadays. Good thing though. Im a bad tempered person whose anger goes as fast as it comes.
And i would only show my anger to a handful of ppl. Sooo if you have experienced it before, it's that i am not afraid of losing you, cause either you dun matter, or im rather secure that you will be with me for the rest of my life. (L)
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
HOP HOP!
Well well, today's work was slack and sian but fun at the same time cause of our great bosses. Keke. ^^
Mcdelivery for lunch weepee i had my mcspicy. Hehe. Kfc delivery tml?? ^^
After work, ade, gwy, hyrah and i went over to plaza sing to buy movie tix for hop!! HOHO. And we were joined by ronnie shortly after.
Lazy to search for the movie poster picture but here is a picture of my fave character in the movie!
Isnt he cute!? Awwww.
My dear phil is so cute and adorable esp when its butt starts shaking uncontrollably at the crucial part HAHA OKAY no more spoiler watch it yourself.
Me and hyrah laughed till we couldnt breathe and i was alr tearing like mad HAHAHA.
Mad love him and also, MY NEW PHONE COVER!!
TADA HERE YOU GOO! ^^
And since it completely covers my phone, i dun have to worry too much abt dropping my phone and denting its corners! Hehe. ^^
Okayy im blogging on my phone on my bed and heh im slping soon gdbye everyone! (L)
Mcdelivery for lunch weepee i had my mcspicy. Hehe. Kfc delivery tml?? ^^
After work, ade, gwy, hyrah and i went over to plaza sing to buy movie tix for hop!! HOHO. And we were joined by ronnie shortly after.
Lazy to search for the movie poster picture but here is a picture of my fave character in the movie!
Isnt he cute!? Awwww.
My dear phil is so cute and adorable esp when its butt starts shaking uncontrollably at the crucial part HAHA OKAY no more spoiler watch it yourself.
Me and hyrah laughed till we couldnt breathe and i was alr tearing like mad HAHAHA.
Mad love him and also, MY NEW PHONE COVER!!
TADA HERE YOU GOO! ^^
And since it completely covers my phone, i dun have to worry too much abt dropping my phone and denting its corners! Hehe. ^^
Okayy im blogging on my phone on my bed and heh im slping soon gdbye everyone! (L)
Monday, April 11, 2011
whirlwind
hmmmm. today's work was alright i guess. was chionging at the first half of the work and really rushing cause we were suppose to pack stuffs and we had like 7000 bags to complete -_- it was crazy.
i think i was really speeding everything i was doing cause i was already jumping and half running everywhere and people were slowing me down HAHA. but erm i like the feeling of being busy somehow. ^^ got alot of cuts on my left hand cause of the packing though. :(
rushed everywhere until it is time for lunch and all the food at the FOOD COURT was SUPER expensive. :( what a food court huh. but thank god our lunch breaks are paid. WEEPEEEE!!
after working at the super dusty place which sort of worsened my right eye which was red since i woke up and i guess it's cause a few days back i was in a rush to remove my eyeliner and i rubbed too much makeup remover on my eye and alot actually seeped into my eye HAHAHA. hope it will recover by tml since i spammed lots of eyedrops today. ^^
had briefing on tml's work and me and hyrah were transferred to doing exhibitors' badges and we look so weird wearing tshirt and jeans while everyone else were wearing formal hahahahaha.
ohh and i had quite a few deja vus today.
the most creepy one was that this exhibitor came to ask me to do up a badge for her staff whose name was 'desiree'. but her surname was needed which she din know and she had to call to check. but in my mind i was dying to tell her that the surname was 'kum' and i dun even know how i came up with the surname but i just had this hunch. and in the end it REALLY was 'kum' omg you dunoe how much i freaked myself out. T.T
okay anyway enough of today. REWINDDDDD.
back to saturday. IT'S SATURDAY SATURDAY SATURDAY!!
gordon yonghui and mrtay came to fetch me on a cab and zoooooooooooommm!! off we go to sengying's bday chalet.
basically lots of nua-ing around and mostly i felt awkward since i dun really know most of the people. played all kinds of game and i really suck at playing murderer since i dun dare to have eye contact with most of the people and once they said the killer is so obv i start to laugh and everything. :( i suck. :(
mrtay slept in the living room's sofa since it was too cold in the aircon room while i just laid around having insomnia and not daring to slp cause of my contacts and we made the right choice!!
cause not only is the room too cold, it ended up being too crowded and quite a few people came down to the living room to chat instead of slping. hahahaha.
went back on sun morning and i was dead beat and bathed and slept almost immediately. T.T woke up and prepared a little while before going to macs to meet clara and hyrah to buy food for our 'picnic'.
retarded me followed them up to macs toilet and walked past the birthday party area without noticing anything and only when i left the toilet i sdnly turned and i see familiar faces wearing macs' party hats smiling at me HAHAHAHA.
omg a surprise macs party and my birthday cake only had nine candles HAHA i was celebrating my ninth birthday yayyyy!!
this is my first surprise party and my first macs party hahahah thanks girls i love you girls so much. (L) hehe.
and they even called mrtay along who stood there holding my cake awkwardly. hahahahaha.
played treasure hunt which my group lost and we had to do a forfeit. :( chicky dance. :(
HERE YOU GO! ade uploaded it on youtube hahahaha.
ate our happy meals HAHA the first time i ate happy meals tgthr with SOOO many people HAHAHA there were 11 of us and since the min requirement was 12 we had a meal extra and i called qiqi down who was at home and she ate the last meal. HAHAHA.
musical chairs next and they let me win. HAHAHA WHY LIKE THAT!! must be fair maaaa! :( even though i birthday! but still love you ppl. <3
after all the happiness we trotted to my home and nua-ed there till they have to leave. ^^ thanks girls i love you girls manymany. (L)(L)(L)
sorry for the picture-less post cause all the pics are with ade/cheryl and i haven gotten any from them yet so wait patiently okay. ^^ okay i only have one photo here.
TADAAAAA!! WHAT A PRETTY CAKE!!
i think this is the prettiest cake i have ever saw hehehe. mummy bought for me for my bday and i just took a few pics with it. haven really celebrated with my family yet since it's either they are out/i am out/they are sleeping so no chance. :( but i really wanna celebrate sooooon. this cake why so cuteeee!?!? ^^
okay time to watch my forensic show and slp hoho bye people!
i think i was really speeding everything i was doing cause i was already jumping and half running everywhere and people were slowing me down HAHA. but erm i like the feeling of being busy somehow. ^^ got alot of cuts on my left hand cause of the packing though. :(
rushed everywhere until it is time for lunch and all the food at the FOOD COURT was SUPER expensive. :( what a food court huh. but thank god our lunch breaks are paid. WEEPEEEE!!
after working at the super dusty place which sort of worsened my right eye which was red since i woke up and i guess it's cause a few days back i was in a rush to remove my eyeliner and i rubbed too much makeup remover on my eye and alot actually seeped into my eye HAHAHA. hope it will recover by tml since i spammed lots of eyedrops today. ^^
had briefing on tml's work and me and hyrah were transferred to doing exhibitors' badges and we look so weird wearing tshirt and jeans while everyone else were wearing formal hahahahaha.
ohh and i had quite a few deja vus today.
the most creepy one was that this exhibitor came to ask me to do up a badge for her staff whose name was 'desiree'. but her surname was needed which she din know and she had to call to check. but in my mind i was dying to tell her that the surname was 'kum' and i dun even know how i came up with the surname but i just had this hunch. and in the end it REALLY was 'kum' omg you dunoe how much i freaked myself out. T.T
okay anyway enough of today. REWINDDDDD.
back to saturday. IT'S SATURDAY SATURDAY SATURDAY!!
gordon yonghui and mrtay came to fetch me on a cab and zoooooooooooommm!! off we go to sengying's bday chalet.
basically lots of nua-ing around and mostly i felt awkward since i dun really know most of the people. played all kinds of game and i really suck at playing murderer since i dun dare to have eye contact with most of the people and once they said the killer is so obv i start to laugh and everything. :( i suck. :(
mrtay slept in the living room's sofa since it was too cold in the aircon room while i just laid around having insomnia and not daring to slp cause of my contacts and we made the right choice!!
cause not only is the room too cold, it ended up being too crowded and quite a few people came down to the living room to chat instead of slping. hahahaha.
went back on sun morning and i was dead beat and bathed and slept almost immediately. T.T woke up and prepared a little while before going to macs to meet clara and hyrah to buy food for our 'picnic'.
retarded me followed them up to macs toilet and walked past the birthday party area without noticing anything and only when i left the toilet i sdnly turned and i see familiar faces wearing macs' party hats smiling at me HAHAHAHA.
omg a surprise macs party and my birthday cake only had nine candles HAHA i was celebrating my ninth birthday yayyyy!!
this is my first surprise party and my first macs party hahahah thanks girls i love you girls so much. (L) hehe.
and they even called mrtay along who stood there holding my cake awkwardly. hahahahaha.
played treasure hunt which my group lost and we had to do a forfeit. :( chicky dance. :(
HERE YOU GO! ade uploaded it on youtube hahahaha.
ate our happy meals HAHA the first time i ate happy meals tgthr with SOOO many people HAHAHA there were 11 of us and since the min requirement was 12 we had a meal extra and i called qiqi down who was at home and she ate the last meal. HAHAHA.
musical chairs next and they let me win. HAHAHA WHY LIKE THAT!! must be fair maaaa! :( even though i birthday! but still love you ppl. <3
after all the happiness we trotted to my home and nua-ed there till they have to leave. ^^ thanks girls i love you girls manymany. (L)(L)(L)
sorry for the picture-less post cause all the pics are with ade/cheryl and i haven gotten any from them yet so wait patiently okay. ^^ okay i only have one photo here.
i think this is the prettiest cake i have ever saw hehehe. mummy bought for me for my bday and i just took a few pics with it. haven really celebrated with my family yet since it's either they are out/i am out/they are sleeping so no chance. :( but i really wanna celebrate sooooon. this cake why so cuteeee!?!? ^^
okay time to watch my forensic show and slp hoho bye people!
on my way to work
And while i was recalling the bday surprise i had which i half ruined cause i smelt clara, i sdnly remembered smthing that happened when i was young, and i guess i always have a knack for smelling ppl/things.
First incident:
Me and my two sis and my mum were waiting for a train at amk mrt stn to go to wdlands mrt stn cause we stayed there then.
Then i dunoe why or how, me and jiamin started smelling my dad. We could actually smell my dad at the train stn, and we were rather positive he was at the train stn since he was working at amk. Hahahaha.
But we couldnt see him anywhere so we just thought that perhaps there was someone who smelt like him and ignored it.
After that when we got off the train at woodlands and was leaving the train stn when we saw my dad not far off, turned out that he was at same stn waiting for the same train when we smelt him. HAHAHAHA!
COOL OR COOL? ^^
Second incident:
One day while we were walking home, i sdnly smelt hokkien mee from the plastic bag which the couple in front of us was holding.
But the box in the bag was clearly a pizza box. So my mum said my nose was malfunctioning which scared the hell out of me.
But at night, my dad bought a box of hokkien mee home for supper which has the same smell. Hohoho.
NOT-SO-COOL BUT STILL COOL YO!
And there is this vague memory that ppl (i forgot is it my family or friends) used to laugh at me and said that in my case it isn't hearing their voice before seeing them but smelling them before seeing them. There is a chinese phrase for this but it just slipped out of my mind before i can type it down. :(
But anyway, to conclude, i smell ppl. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I think thats why mrtay calls me a bitch cause i can always smell him keke.
First incident:
Me and my two sis and my mum were waiting for a train at amk mrt stn to go to wdlands mrt stn cause we stayed there then.
Then i dunoe why or how, me and jiamin started smelling my dad. We could actually smell my dad at the train stn, and we were rather positive he was at the train stn since he was working at amk. Hahahaha.
But we couldnt see him anywhere so we just thought that perhaps there was someone who smelt like him and ignored it.
After that when we got off the train at woodlands and was leaving the train stn when we saw my dad not far off, turned out that he was at same stn waiting for the same train when we smelt him. HAHAHAHA!
COOL OR COOL? ^^
Second incident:
One day while we were walking home, i sdnly smelt hokkien mee from the plastic bag which the couple in front of us was holding.
But the box in the bag was clearly a pizza box. So my mum said my nose was malfunctioning which scared the hell out of me.
But at night, my dad bought a box of hokkien mee home for supper which has the same smell. Hohoho.
NOT-SO-COOL BUT STILL COOL YO!
And there is this vague memory that ppl (i forgot is it my family or friends) used to laugh at me and said that in my case it isn't hearing their voice before seeing them but smelling them before seeing them. There is a chinese phrase for this but it just slipped out of my mind before i can type it down. :(
But anyway, to conclude, i smell ppl. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I think thats why mrtay calls me a bitch cause i can always smell him keke.
TWO MONTHS
yes, it has been two months. felt like ytd since i typed the first month post. hahaha time really flies.
should i post a post like this monthly? hahahahaha. but i think it will get shorter and shorter cause we will know more and more about each other that there is just nothing to say anymore which can express how we actually feel. :)
honestly, you are the best. i dunoe if you mean it when you said it yourself, but you are really the best. at least, to me, you are. ^^
though right from the start, we aren't exactly each other's dream type and we irritate each other to no end and you once hated me and i once found you super irritating HAHA and i dunoe how we got close and started laughing tgthr and eventually got tgthr but we just did. and it feels great. :)
thanks for being with me.
everytime you grab my hand, everytime you pull me close, everytime you hold my face, it makes me feels like i have the whole world and pretty butterflies just flutter around in my stomach and i dun even know why but i hope this kind of feeling never fades. ^^
basically, all i wanna say is, i love you. (L)
okay i will blog about this weekend's happenings tml cause i need to be in MBS at 10am tml HAHA. had a blast and it was all great keke. okay bye peeps gtg love you guys hehe.
should i post a post like this monthly? hahahahaha. but i think it will get shorter and shorter cause we will know more and more about each other that there is just nothing to say anymore which can express how we actually feel. :)
honestly, you are the best. i dunoe if you mean it when you said it yourself, but you are really the best. at least, to me, you are. ^^
though right from the start, we aren't exactly each other's dream type and we irritate each other to no end and you once hated me and i once found you super irritating HAHA and i dunoe how we got close and started laughing tgthr and eventually got tgthr but we just did. and it feels great. :)
thanks for being with me.
everytime you grab my hand, everytime you pull me close, everytime you hold my face, it makes me feels like i have the whole world and pretty butterflies just flutter around in my stomach and i dun even know why but i hope this kind of feeling never fades. ^^
basically, all i wanna say is, i love you. (L)
okay i will blog about this weekend's happenings tml cause i need to be in MBS at 10am tml HAHA. had a blast and it was all great keke. okay bye peeps gtg love you guys hehe.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
What would you do if you won the lottery?
definitely donate some to the charity, then i will treat all my friends to a meal and give some to my parents and save some for the future! ^^
JIALE UH! the flyer door there got this little thing where you can place your camera and put self-timer! okay, just realised you use your phone :x
O.O REALLYYYY?? so good!? but it is all over alr :( too late liao hahaha and i din bring my camera. too lousy liao my camera :( i dun like
Saturday, April 09, 2011
I AM OLD :(
HI I AM ALREADY 19 YEARS OLD :(
like what many people told me, it's the last year of my teenage years. NOOOOOOO! :( growing old still feels as scary as ever. sobs.
the above cute cake is what clara owyong drew for me for my bday. made me teared HAHA but it is so so so cuteeee. ^^
thanks to all the beloved and lovely people who wished me. i really love you guys lots. ^^ no matter whether you wished me at 12mn sharp or not. hehe. thanks for remembering me!!
went over to school in the afternn and they had a mini bday surprise for me! keke ^^
though i sort of ruined the surprise for me by going into the room where they were preparing the bday cake heh heh.
but hehe i was still surprised cause i din expect that cute little cake which you guys customised and drew for me! hoho. i dun have the pictures though. heh.
took lots of photos and polaroids and this is the birthday card booklet they made for meee! ^^
hehehe almost teared at the mao and keh part. totally din expect mao to write something in this HAHA. :')
love you guys much! hehe. and special thanks to keh! (L)!!
met mrtay at bp before heading to suntec crystal jade la mian xiao long bao to eat. keke. was craving for xlb for quite some time. ^^
was going to walk to the flyer when the fountain shot pretty water display like this! ^^
made him took a pic. and why you look so sad!? :(
FLYER TIX HEHE.
got abit lost and we walked to the exit instead of the entrance. HAHA.
and he was complaining about the flyer not being tourist friendly with no signs and all to direct the people hahahahaha.
YAY OUR JOURNEY BEGINS! ^^
and i look so short. :( okay i am not short, you are the tall one.
he was the one who requested for this picture to be taken. HAHAHA CHEH!
so difficult to take that cute thingy which looks like jigglypuff.
OMG IN THE FLYER ALR.
can see the rainbow in the middle!?!? he kept telling me it's not real. :(
AT THE TOP AT THE TOP!!!!
looks like roller coaster horh!!
yayy asked someone to take a pic for us. i look so small and skinny keke.
our mrtay's camwhores and i'm just the sidekick. :(
all the blur shots cause i'm not the one holding my phone! AND it's taken with my phone and not a proper camera. :( AND there were no lights in the flyer hahahaha.
i want a new cameraaaaaa!! :( mummy says she gonna buy one for me heh heh i hope it's sooooon!
that retarded kid was disappointed that a lot of pictures couldn't be taken cause i think we would need a personal and professional photographer for that HAHAHA.
the poses that he planned to take in the flyer all sounded like a wedding shoot to me. with what taking pictures of our backs, him carrying me up, etc, etc. HAHAHA!
walked around in the flyer and eventually we went out and settled down at the water fountain just outside and we actually sat in the middle of the fountain on the ground.
he sdnly asked me to close my eyes and i felt like something was coming up. made three wishes like he requested and i smelt clara's smell in between HAHA and he panicked and said that there is nobody there HAHA so cute and i just trusted him and continued making my wish.
sdnly when he asked me to open my eyes and before i could do it a REALLY LOUD birthday song rang in my ears HAHAHA. opened my eyes to see clara (of course, i smelt her alr!), ahyi, xueli, ade, and cheryl standing around us HAHAHA.
was really happy though i smelt clara beforehand which everyone thinks is so impossible. HAHAHA. no wonder mrtay calls me a bitch. HAHAHA. but aiya i love smelling people ma. and everyone has their own unique smell which i think is so cool HAHAHA.
was really suprised okayy. :( though i sort of guessed a little beforehand but still i was surprised when i found out about the surprise even though it wasn't at the timing which you guys expected me to be surprised. HAHA. love you guys loaddsssss! :')
they expected me to cry but i din HAHA i think surprises takes time to register in my slow head cause usually i would be stunned and wouldnt know how to react HAHAHAHA.
tearing cause of being touched would be another thing like example i read the card or like when clara drew the cake for me. but honestly i love both types hehe.
i'm really a blissed and happy girl! love everyone loadssss! (L)(L)!!!!!
Friday, April 08, 2011
feel like dying right now.
i kept thinking, if i died on my bday, is it more memorable? i dun wanna celebrate anything anymore. so what if it is my birthday. it just meant that i was born on this day years ago. nothing more nothing less. it's not MY day. it doesn't mean everything has to go my way.
if i am not here anymore interfering with your life, would you be happier?
methods of death: countless
how should i die to make sure i really died?
i kept thinking, if i died on my bday, is it more memorable? i dun wanna celebrate anything anymore. so what if it is my birthday. it just meant that i was born on this day years ago. nothing more nothing less. it's not MY day. it doesn't mean everything has to go my way.
if i am not here anymore interfering with your life, would you be happier?
methods of death: countless
how should i die to make sure i really died?
i'm officially 19
okay i shall schedule this post to be posted at 12mn on my bday but i hope i would be able to finish typing before 12mn though. :)
well, in this past 19 years of my life, i have fallen in love, fallen out of love, made friends, lost friends, and have been through all kinds of other things which may seem unimaginable to you.
i did retarded things, stupid things, embarrassing things, glory things, proud things, and all kinds of other things which you may or may not have known.
i am glad that i am me, i am lucky enough to have a roof over my head, have a comfy bed to slp in, have people whom i love and loves me surrounding me, and alive and healthy. ^^
though sometimes, i am retarded, impulsive, bad tempered, irritable, i hope you can understand that everyone has their own weaknesses and if i love you and you love me, i hope you will be willing to tolerate all the weaknesses i have. thanks for sticking with me, you know who you are. ^^
just wanna thank a few people who are in my life, and made it so happening and blissful for me to the extent that sometimes i really hope that time stops.
MRTAY (of course -_-):
i'm sorry to have some retarded insecurities sometimes which are not even your fault in the first place. and i would love if you were my first and vice versa, but it is not possible but i am glad that you hope that we will be each other's last and i hope that you know that i think the same way too. :) though we just started but it seems so much more longer than it actually is and i just have so many things to say to you and i dun even know where to start. our second month is like 3days later? and though we cant spend it tgthr i know your heart is here with me so i am happy enough. :) thanks for spending my bday with me and let's spend more and more bdays together okay! :) thanks for always doing all those unexpected stuffs and making me feel so sweet from the bottom of my heart. you are so good at doing this kind of stuffs and acting like you dun care on the surface. hehe. you are the best, forever, but in my eyes only please. HAHA. i love you! ^^ <3 many many!
MY GIRLS:
i love you girls so much and your retardedness always nv fail to cheer me up and i know i can always count on any of you. :) clara ahyi ade hyrah cheryl carol xueli huiwen gwy and mel. :) bitching about all kinds of things hehe. you girls are like the sec sch friends which i haven got. so blissed ah me. :')
just wanna pick out a few like clara ahyi and ade, the three whom i talked to the most amongst the clique. hehe. those that i confide the most in. ^^ i love you girls so much heh heh. even though smtimes we irritate each other but rmb that i love you okay! hehe.
SEBAS:
you idiot i hope you haven forgot my bday and if later i dun receive any bday texts from you for the whole day you shall die so much. >:) okay no i was just kidding i am such a good best friend unlike you you idiot hoho. contact me soon about sam walou no updates i very sian one leh. :( like i'm watching a drama and its next episode refuses to load. HAHAHA. thanks for being with me since like sec 3/4? hehe. my best friend ever since. i love you so much which i guess you know and thanks for always tolerating my retardedness and always think that i am the most gullible idiot you ever known. you always make me feel like i am the most innocent me like a kid and i am just plain me. :) you are the second best sorry my bf is already THE BEST HAHAHA. love you still and let's be best friends forever! ^^ stop bullying me or i will get my bf to bash you up HAHAHA blehh you still dun have gf lehh. :P okay kidding faster buck up lah idiot!
BSFL:
i was really afraid that i would drift from you guys but the sentosa trip made me realised that we are still as close as ever and we still understand each other as much as ever cause we haven changed much and that makes me feel so grateful. :) i love you guys so much and sorry that i dun feel like i belong sometimes which is kind of retarded and thanks for always including me and making me feel like im a part of your big family. :)
special love to guowei and ahbe and yingjie and stella who were always the closest in my heart. please please please rmb that i am always here for you no matter what. even though you might not contact me anymore, but do note that i would love to contact you anytime and that my phone is on 24/7 so i am always here okay. ^^ just 8 numbers away yo! hehe. <3 love you guys so much.
ohh, before i forget, last but not least, happy birthday to my dear cute jonghyun as well. hehehe. <3
well, in this past 19 years of my life, i have fallen in love, fallen out of love, made friends, lost friends, and have been through all kinds of other things which may seem unimaginable to you.
i did retarded things, stupid things, embarrassing things, glory things, proud things, and all kinds of other things which you may or may not have known.
i am glad that i am me, i am lucky enough to have a roof over my head, have a comfy bed to slp in, have people whom i love and loves me surrounding me, and alive and healthy. ^^
though sometimes, i am retarded, impulsive, bad tempered, irritable, i hope you can understand that everyone has their own weaknesses and if i love you and you love me, i hope you will be willing to tolerate all the weaknesses i have. thanks for sticking with me, you know who you are. ^^
just wanna thank a few people who are in my life, and made it so happening and blissful for me to the extent that sometimes i really hope that time stops.
MRTAY (of course -_-):
i'm sorry to have some retarded insecurities sometimes which are not even your fault in the first place. and i would love if you were my first and vice versa, but it is not possible but i am glad that you hope that we will be each other's last and i hope that you know that i think the same way too. :) though we just started but it seems so much more longer than it actually is and i just have so many things to say to you and i dun even know where to start. our second month is like 3days later? and though we cant spend it tgthr i know your heart is here with me so i am happy enough. :) thanks for spending my bday with me and let's spend more and more bdays together okay! :) thanks for always doing all those unexpected stuffs and making me feel so sweet from the bottom of my heart. you are so good at doing this kind of stuffs and acting like you dun care on the surface. hehe. you are the best, forever, but in my eyes only please. HAHA. i love you! ^^ <3 many many!
MY GIRLS:
i love you girls so much and your retardedness always nv fail to cheer me up and i know i can always count on any of you. :) clara ahyi ade hyrah cheryl carol xueli huiwen gwy and mel. :) bitching about all kinds of things hehe. you girls are like the sec sch friends which i haven got. so blissed ah me. :')
just wanna pick out a few like clara ahyi and ade, the three whom i talked to the most amongst the clique. hehe. those that i confide the most in. ^^ i love you girls so much heh heh. even though smtimes we irritate each other but rmb that i love you okay! hehe.
SEBAS:
you idiot i hope you haven forgot my bday and if later i dun receive any bday texts from you for the whole day you shall die so much. >:) okay no i was just kidding i am such a good best friend unlike you you idiot hoho. contact me soon about sam walou no updates i very sian one leh. :( like i'm watching a drama and its next episode refuses to load. HAHAHA. thanks for being with me since like sec 3/4? hehe. my best friend ever since. i love you so much which i guess you know and thanks for always tolerating my retardedness and always think that i am the most gullible idiot you ever known. you always make me feel like i am the most innocent me like a kid and i am just plain me. :) you are the second best sorry my bf is already THE BEST HAHAHA. love you still and let's be best friends forever! ^^ stop bullying me or i will get my bf to bash you up HAHAHA blehh you still dun have gf lehh. :P okay kidding faster buck up lah idiot!
BSFL:
i was really afraid that i would drift from you guys but the sentosa trip made me realised that we are still as close as ever and we still understand each other as much as ever cause we haven changed much and that makes me feel so grateful. :) i love you guys so much and sorry that i dun feel like i belong sometimes which is kind of retarded and thanks for always including me and making me feel like im a part of your big family. :)
special love to guowei and ahbe and yingjie and stella who were always the closest in my heart. please please please rmb that i am always here for you no matter what. even though you might not contact me anymore, but do note that i would love to contact you anytime and that my phone is on 24/7 so i am always here okay. ^^ just 8 numbers away yo! hehe. <3 love you guys so much.
ohh, before i forget, last but not least, happy birthday to my dear cute jonghyun as well. hehehe. <3
Thursday, April 07, 2011
past week/few days
HEY YO my study table. hehe. i like it looking like so personalized. ^^
our nametags!! taken on monday when he came to find me wearing his uniform hehe. ^^
ate happy meal before going cycling with my girls ytd. keke. this time round this pikachu is a wheelie type. the prev one that i got has a chop and has the stickers but not this one~
cycling was tiring but it felt nice with the cool breeze blowing on our faces and chit chatting along the way. clara din cycle much cause she ate too full and we had to left her there :( retarded girl.
funniest thing which happened was that ahyi leaned against my bike and the stand stick thingy broke. HAHA. time to go on a diet! HAHAHA okay kiddinggg!
can see the names anot? like quite obv ah. think i will be paiseh. and his looks nicer lahh. since it is thicker. :( i like his better but it is too big for my finger. :(
btw this is the card the society gave me today during the small bday celebration -_-
retarded right! might as well give me the real card tml. :(:( retarded them. but i love them for the cute cupcake hehe. thanks peeperl!
btw if you see my posts with those fat and a little distorted pics it's cause i'm blogging with the new blogger app i dl-ed. hehehe.
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