i dunoe why

but sdnly i just went back to read our conversation.
those that were well over a year ago.

i couldn't rmb what happened as i read.
it's like that person was me, but yet not me.

i see everytime we quarrel, how hard you try to pacify me.
and how petty and childish i was.

guys and girls;
the most crucial difference is that guys see trivial matters as nothing while girls see trivial matters as everything.

at that point in time, you refuse to give up on us and persuaded me not to as well.
but until the end, i guess you just felt that i was far too hurt to continue and everything ended.

it kind of hurts when i read them, thinking about how it could have been.
we din have enough fate i guess.
too many things just got in our way.



looking at the you i currently have now, i dun wanna make the same mistake.

you want me to let you win right?
do you know how many times you actually won?
in fact, everytime when the quarrel ended with me ignoring you, you win when i start holding your hand/arm without you coaxing me.

i din used to be like that.
in the past, it took a great deal of coaxing and pacifying before i relent.
i dun want you to say that i dun treasure us.
because i do. :)

i need to keep in mind about my faults, and not forget them once i get upset. :/