just a quick post before i sleep.

really cant study anymore. think i will just study tml morning. hope i can wake up and not laze on the bed like a pig. :/

okay just anyway was talking to mrtay. somehow. is it that i always give people the impression that i am weak? like i am a little girl who needs to be taken care of? i think it is just somewhat an image i portray. but i dun really think that i am weak.

sometimes i am just unsure of myself. dun really have much confidence. and that is all.

maybe i am a little careless in doing things such as crossing the road, or i may be a little unobservant so i accidentally din notice some people.

im not a little girl who needs protection actually. maybe i admit i'm quite used to being protected. by friends and people around me. but actually i really dun nd any. i am fine on my own. :)

i am strong enough. and when i say strong i dun mean physically strong of course. HAHAHA. i am physically weak. what i meant was emotionally and mentally strong. i remained sane and happy despite having a hard and tough past.

when i say tough, you dunoe what i have been through. i had suicidal thoughts, had noone in my life but myself, tried to cut myself and hurt myself in order to attract attention from the person i wanted, and all to no avail. but i survived.

friends say i have gone through the worst part of my life and there should be nothing tougher. so bring it on. i survived those tough times in which i thought i would die. i know that i am strong. what else do you wanna do to me? even though i often say that i wun be able to take it, i know i can. i just DUN WANT to.

i am also independent enough. when i was young, i know where i wanna go. and being the stubborn and strong-headed me, i refused to listen to anyone. and one of my biggest regrets in life is to listen to my aunties when i was in p6 who stressed me to choose anderson as my sec sch.

now i know, i would have my own choices, because if i made a mistake, i wun regret it. i was the one who chose my path.

i was taught to be independent at home. cause im the oldest and i am supposed to do well being the role model of my two sisters. and i made decisions on my own.

if i ever seemed weak to you, it must be cause i am afraid of losing anyone. what i am most afraid of is not even the dark or the ghost. what i am most afraid of is being alone, being lonely. i guess most people have the same fear as me.

this is why sometimes i try to please people more than i should. and i slowly grew to realise that it's wrong. and i'm trying to correct myself. and the best would be making myself as well as others happy at the same time. :)

perhaps i like to whine a little too often. it's just a little tactic since young cause when you whine, you tend to get what you wanted. and i can't seem to get rid of this habit which is irritating to me. and i have to keep reminding myself not to whine but before i can do so, i already finished whining. HAHA.

but still i am a superwoman. ^^

okay conclusion of this post:

LEE JIA LE is not a weak girl. she is going to grow and become a successful and independent career woman in the future. :) you shall see. that is my aim. ^^

What celebrity would you most like to meet in person?

OBV SHINEE'S BLINGBLING KIM JONG HYUN. NEED I SAY MORE!?!?!?

hello! what do you want to say?

sick during the wrong period of time.

i think i am really falling sick. argh.

have been feeling cold since this morning. but i just covered myself with blanket and kept tissues within my reach. then my throat started feeling itchy. and i drank water nonstop including my wheatgrassuntil there is no more water at home and i had to resort to tap water which tastes weird and makes me feel like vomiting.

now i am covering myself in my blanket and sneezing nonstop and my throat is so dry i can almost taste blood every time i swallow my saliva and im feeling kinda hot cause of my blanket and am starting to sweat but i feel so cold everytime the wind blows and i am having goosebumps cause of the sweat on my body. -_- ARGH so irritated right now.

why do i have to fall sick on the day before my first paper!? at least if i fall sick before my last paper i dun have to study anymore right. ARGH life sucks.

told my mum that i feel sick and she asked me if i said my dad told me that he felt sick. IT'S ME NOT MY DAD T.T sad life.

/EDITED
THERE IS OFFICIALLY NO MORE WATER IN MY HOUSE.

OMG WHAT DO I DOOOOOOOOO!?!?!?


should i just drink the yogurt/choc milk in the fridge in risk of my cramps coming back!?!? :(:(
don't say that i am a lazy bum for not boiling water myself. IT'S NOT THAT I DUN WANNA BOIL BUT I CAN'T BOIL!!

for one, my house has no kettle. cause my mum thinks that the plastic/rubber kettle handles are poisonous when in contact with hot stuffs cause they melt and give out poisonous gas.

next, there is no hot water flask in my house cause my mum thinks that the plastic near the spout is also poisonous so there is no hot water for me to pour into a cup and leave it to cool.

then, my mum always uses this big pot to boil water. AND NOW THAT BIG POT IS FILLED WITH SOUP THAT SHE JUST COOKED BEFORE SHE LEFT THE HOUSE. SO WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW!?!?!?!?

drinking the yogurt/choc milk just makes my throat thirstier. :/ ohmysadlife. :( and i feel a fever coming. T.T

okay i am drinking tap water now. :( i feel so pathetic i was circling my kitchen looking for possible water source. :(:( tap water tastes weird. :( dun like it. it's like newater.. :/ okay desperate times calls for desperate measures. :(

we are always crazy during exam periods.

check out ade's post as you read this post HAHA.


on twitter,

@tohtohh HAHA I JUST FINISHED BLOGGING! OHH GEMINI LIKES MAKING OUT?? WANNA TRY WITH ME HEHE ARIES IS A GOOD KISSER. 

@jaelurp HAHHAHAHA FUCK YOU OMG HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHA 

@tohtohh HAHAHAHA YOU LIKE MA I SATISFY YOU HAHAHAHA HOPE MRTAN DUN FIND ME AND MRTAY DUN FIND YOU. 

@jaelurp we hide k? HHAHAHHAA

@tohtohh HIDE WHERE?? HAHAHAHAHA 

@jaelurp IN YOUR STUDY ROOM HAHAHAHHAHAHHAA

@tohtohh NOBODY WILL EVER FIND US IF WE HIDE IN THERE HAHAHAHAAHAHA

@jaelurp HAHHAHAHAHA CAN YOU CLEAR ONE SPACE FOR US?

@tohtohh CANNNN! AND I NOTICED IM EXTREMELY ADORABLE SIA HEHEHEHE

@jaelurp I THINK TYPO

@tohtohh NAHHH AND IM AN EXCELLENT KISSER HEHE AND IM LOVABLE HEHE

@jaelurp CANCER - The Beauty, MOST AMAZING KISSER, guess like I can do without you? HAHAHAHHAA

@tohtohh IS MRTAN CANCER!? :(:( i shall go check mrtay's HAHAHA

@jaelurp YES HAAHAHAHHAHA MAYBE MRTAY LOVES TO MAKE OUT TOO HAHAHAHAA

@tohtohh SHIT YOUUU! EHH MRTAY IS GREAT KISSER WE CAN MAKE OUT OURSELVES GOODBYE ADELINE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

@jaelurp HAHHAHAA FINE LOH GOGO. I GOT EMPTY SPACE IN MY STUDY ROOM. YOU CLEAR ONE SPOT FOR YOURSELF K HAHAHHAHAHA

clearly seen, the blue ones are adeline toh and the pink ones are me, and we are crazy bitches on the loose HAHAHAHAHA.
btw some background info:
adeline toh is GEMINI, mrtan is CANCER, mrtay is AQUARIUS and i am ARIES kekeke.
and adeline toh you are the only one who is not a good kisser HAHAHAHAHA.

okay i shall go off to pee and get a custard puff to eat though my throat is itchy but there is nothing else to eat at home and then back to studying. DA JIA ZAI JIAN AGAIN HEHE.

if you think you know me, think again.

OKAY ALOHAAA EVERYBODYYY!! :D:D

i am just done with HBM lecture 3 and kinda feeling complacent now so i am here HAHAHA.
still thinking whether i should download lecture 3's supplementary readings. it's like A LOT. and i dunoe why the 'save' button isn't appearing so how do i save/download it? :/:/
how how how? :/

finished my wheatgrass a wee bit too early. :/:/ i think i need five new bottles everyday. :( but noone would buy so much for me haiz haiz.
and btw i think i'm going to finish the plain water at home. the last bit remaining is in my wheatgrass bottle and there is only half a bottle of water left. :(:(

i have been drinking like crazy today cause of my running nose and itchy throat. :(
and i think i peed for like at least 10 times today alr. HAIZ SAD LIFE.
but everytime after i finish peeing and swing the strings of my fbt back into it when i wear it back after i pee i feel like a man hehe. SOOO this is how a guy feels after they pee huh!? HAHA!

okay everyone please pray for my health and exams okay! and i will pray for you HEHE zai jian da jia.
I MIGHT BE BACK LATER IF I AM BORED HEHE.

the happiest guy and girl on earth.

mrtay and me had an overnight studying session yesterday and today. ^^

was fun having him around but hehe we kinda played as we studied ah. sad to say we din have a table and had to study in my room cause my dad was smoking outside. :(
HOW I MISS MY STUDY ROOM! T.T

and being a nice gf i cooked dinner for him and of course my whole family hahahaha. my spaghetti was nice okayy. though i came up with the sauce myself hehe i like my own spaghetti tooooo!
was sweating like mad while i was cooking. hmmm this is a good way to lose weight ah. HAHAHA.

shall invite mrtay over to study next time AFTER my study room is cleaned up so that we wun get distracted so much by my sis watching vids on her comp, my other sis playing her phone, the tv in my room, and each other. hahahaha.

some lame pictures to share HAHAHA.

pretend to be sleeping~

taking eyemask as a face mask cause he was having a cold HAHA retardedness.

should have taken a photo of myself but im too chui looking nowadays. i await the day when i become chio. *-* i think i would have to wait for a million years. T.T okay im happy being like this. WOOHAHH!
okay back to my notes now. goodbye! :):)




sometimes i feel like i force you to do alot of things but hehe you don't think that way so i'm kinda grateful for that. :) thanks for being the sweetest keke.

my best friend.

sebastian loo merlion liu yu wei.
BY NOW AREN'T YOU SUPPOSED TO BE BOOKED OUT ALR!? :/
i'm dying to hear your storiessss. argh.
and i miss you. :(
mrtay dun be jealous i miss you everyday. heh heh.

SEBASTIAN LOOOOO.
i doubt you will see this though. -_- though you told me before you bookmarked my blog. -_- but you probably dun click on it or you removed it alr you this idiot. why haven't you contact me huh!?!?
i'm dying to hear what happened on the day you booked in on the first dayyyy. AND I'M DYING TO SEE YOU BOTAK.

you suck you better contact me asap. >:( cause i don't wanna contact you first hahahahahaha.

friends VS foes.

cause you expect them not to hurt you and when they do it, regardless intentionally and accidentally, it is always hard to accept. it’s like the wall you always relied on just falls apart when friends let you down. but why, why shouldn’t us be kinder and more forgiving towards people who are supposedly closer to us? i think this is what everyone should learn. :) let’s walk down the road of being sophisticated and mature. hehe.

okay i am now officially attached on fb -_-

and hello mrtay who used his other fb acct to ask me to be your gf. where that acct is sort of fake. though you sort of use it. for fb games. so that your actual acct will have more 'friends' in those fb games. you sucker. :(

dun judge. or i will be judging you WITH BOTH EYES WIDE OPEN LIKE THIS -> (O_O)
i just wanted to rant. i need to run to study now. GOODBYE!

If you had to legally change your name, what would you change it to?

i think i would just add a jaelurp in front hehe. other than that i like my name too much to change. keke. ohh unless i change to my husband's surname in the future ah. HAHAHAHA

hello! what do you want to say?

AHYI'S BIRTHDAY!!

of course us girls would want to wish her happy birthday in person soooooo...
WE POPPED UP AT HER HSE AS A SURPRISEEE!! :D:D:D

bused and stopped at bp to meet ade before continuing on with the journey to railway mall. we were the earliest. O.O went over to cold storage to buy party poppers and candles before heading to the strudels shop to check out the strudels and then to subway.

as we walked to subway, xueli, clara and gwy reached and we ate there as cheryl and mel reached woohoo weehee. went back to the strudel shop to buy the strudels and cabbed to ahyi's.
hid at the staircase area and i called ahyi with a 'AHYI YOU AT HOME? CAN EMAIL ME HBM REVISION LECTURE?' hehehe and WOOHOO she IS at home. if not we will be losers calling her to ask her to come back home to meet us. T.T

pressed the doorbell and her mum came to the door and we whispered to her saying that we looking for ahyi and we just crept to her room and started singing birthday song for her as she sat back-facing us switching on her comp wanting to send me HBM revision lecture HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

yayyy though she sort of guessed that we are giving a surprise i think she still got a huge shock with the party poppers and all hehehehe. random chitchats as we ate the strudels. keke.

sorry to jy4 T.T we din know that she was meeting you so early ah. we thought it will be at night. :(

after that we went to play the swings at ahyi's HAHAHA we were a crazy bunch of kids. quickly went to the bus stop after that cause it was going to rain and asked the security guard to help us take a photo at the gate heh heh.

AND OMG WE CAN ACTUALLY SEE THE RAIN COMING FROM A DISTANCE!!
like we can see like the next bus stop area raining but it wasn't raining at where we were standing yet.

CAN YOU SEE FROM THESE TWO PICTURES??? the greyish part from a distance is actually rain. and it wasn't raining from where we were standing at. hahahahahaha. nature is so darn cool okay.

took out my umbrella to share with ade and gwy but cause the umbrella seems too small i ran down the stairs myself wanting them to just take the umbrella but they chased after me and gwy tripped. :( SORRY GWY! T.T

ahyi took cab and left first while the rest of us bused over to lot 1 where they bought yogurt and we walked around lot 1 before settling down at macs and played monopoly deal~~~~~~~~ won a few times YAYYYY!! ^^ must be the practice i got from mrtay HAHAHA.

ade left and the rest of us went to ajisen to have our dinner~ had my fave hokkaido scallops ramen as usual hehe and had a super full dinner. was full alr but din wanna waste food. :( CONFIRM GROW FATTER. :(
need to be disciplined and run after exams alr. JIAYOU ME!

chitchatted after dinner HAHAHA we are so retarded why are we so lame and lame-r gwy and xueli linked up all the straws to become a super long one and we all tried to drink from it. IT DOES WORK HAHAHAHAHA.






ohmyohmy i wanna go iceskateeeeeeee. hello my girls do you girls wanna go iceskate tgthr somedayyy!?!? :D:D
mrtay is going with his friends next wed and they actually invited me to join them but tlaw is like on fri.. :(:(:(:( how can i goooo!?!?

and mrtay has been rejecting me since forever. and now you are going with your friends. :(:(:(:(:( go with me one day lehhhhh. :/ don't forget that four choices i gave you - extreme bungee at clarke quay, swimming, ice skating, and roller blading. 
Mister, you must choose one FROM these four choices okay.







okay just now my mum kept commenting about our heights.. -_-
MUM: why so coincidental that in our family, the oldest is the tallest and the youngest is the shortest? why isn't there any odd one out?
ME: then first you will have to wait for qiqi to outgrow jiamin.
MUM: i am so disappointed, why no kids in our family tall at all?
ME: -_- i am taller than you and dad is only 174cm. how tall do you expect us to grow?
my mum is such a sucker okay. not the first time she comments about this heights thing alr. conclusion is we have no tall genes okayyyy. :(






by the way this is really out of the topic but sdnly im really interested about what's going on in libya now. and cause i am not a newspaper person i dun really know what's going on and only found out after asking my girls tonight and got to know a little from tumblr as well. :/
i think i need to buy the straits times and read it tml. :/ i do read the chinese xin ming wan bao but somehow they don't really give news about these. or unless i missed it. but all i see are like singapore court cases leh. :/
okay nvm. someone kind please remind me to buy straits times tml tyvm. <3<3

What language would you like to learn how to speak?

korean of course. HAHAHAHA. but then i think i would want to learn my dialect (hokkien) a little moreeee. heh heh.

hello! what do you want to say?

last night.

why did i dream of you?
why did we do all those things we did?
i wasn't thinking of you in that way at all, so why did i dream of you?
they say when you dream of someone, it's cause that someone is thinking of you?
why did my dream start that way and end that way?
why were your eyes red as you smile at me when you left in my dream?
though i kinda feel regretful about what could have been, you affect me no more.
i'm sorry but if possibly that you feel the same way in reality as you felt in my dreams, it's your loss.
you were the one who gave up first and now you are just too late.
but if you don't, then good luck and all the best to you.
goodbye to you and all the past and future we had and could have tgthr.

a little horror.

/EDITED
by the way, if you have read ade's blog post and clicked on the first link to her bf''s blog, you would read about plaza sing gv cinema hall 7 having weird stories right. :)

well,
YESTERDAY ME AND MRTAY WATCHED 127 HOURS AT THE HALL 7 AS MENTIONED OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.

was totally freaking out with ade last night okay. cause prev when she watched 127 hours she also watched it in the same hall.
BUT WORST IS, look at the picture of the cinema hall seats. :) you can see the hole in the middle right.
you may think that there is no chair there, but i can tell you confidently that there was definitely a chair there which looks rather stable. BECAUSE I WAS SITTING RIGHT BEHIND IT. :'''''''(
/crying a million tears

okay technically i wasn't sitting right behind it, MRTAY WAS. part of the reason why last night i was so paranoid. kns. :/
and ade still happily told me that she was sitting FARRRR away from there. :(
luckily the articles ade linked to as you can see at the bottom of this post, said that weird things only happened during the first and last show of the day. HENG AH HENG.

okay conclusion:
thank god nothing happened. :) though i worried for nothing, but it's better than to really have something bad happening so WOOHOO YAY HEYY!


OHHHH BY THE WAY, the heels i wore last night which i haven't worn in at least a year spoilt. :( dunoe how many saw my heels coming out cause i din notice it until i was reaching home. HAHA.
oh well, goodbye heels. :( or maybe i will ask mum to bring it to a cobbler. heh heh.

out tonight.

even though i haven finish studying but hahahaha impromptu outings by pri sch clique and mrtay~



hello me! :):)

went over to city hall to meet jervis myrna and shaun at new york new york. watched them eat and well, of course i greedily took some of their food to eat HAHAHA. fun times with them as usual hehe laugh lots with our lameness. forever so lame. ^^

then went over to plazasing to meet mrtay~
but just when i reached dhoby ghaut, my right eye suddenly felt really itchy and i rubbed it and it felt like some fur got into my eye. and when i met him he said that my eye was really red and brought me to this pillar with reflection and okay my eye looks like it has the sore eyes infection. :(:(

went up to the cinema where he went to buy tickets and i went to the toilet to take out my contacts and washed my eye and popped back my contacts again cause i din bring my specs. :(

wanted to go to guardian to buy some eye solution but since we walked past an optic shop we went in to buy and the nice lady offered to check my eye for me. :):)
and after that she told me that both my eyes are infected. :( just that my right eye showed the symptoms and my left eye din. :(:( and that i can't wear contacts for 10days. :(:(:( okay i shall be a good girl these 10 days. :)

went to watch this!

omgggg was practically squirming in my seat during all the more gory parts i was dying.
and through all his flashbacks esp the one with his parents, i cried. T.T T.T so sad. and i could like feel him. someone who is like counting down the days that he can survive. :(
i will never want to know the limit of my life. it will definitely limit everything that i do.

mrtay had to grab my hands to stop me from disappearing into my seat cause i was squirming so much and he had to remind me to shut up cause i kept squealing to myself. it looked so freaking painful okayyy.

finally the show ended and we went to gongcha keke and played monopoly deal woohoo i was luckier this time round cause i won twice out of four or five rounds. keke. previously i only won once out of 128371298763 rounds if i nv rmb wrongly. :(

took train and sent him to tai seng while i sat all the way to bishan before changing lines keke.

unglam gif of him since he was bullying me so much HAHAHAHA.




he sdnly had to hang up the phone and said he will call me back later but until now he still hasnt. feel so paranoid now. -_- you idiot why din you call? now i am imagining all kinds of negative scenarios. let's hope you are like what ade said, sleeping in your lala land.
if something happens to you, i won't forgive you okay. you are supposed to take good care of yourself. okay i shan't continue thinking.
please reply me asap. :/ i need to stop being so paranoid argh irritating paranoia.

IKRRRR!! i think next time when i put eyeliner i have to put different thickness so that both eyes look the same size. :( THAT IS WHAT I DO. DAMN IRRITATING OMG, MY LEFT EYE SHORTER. I have to draw the line longer so they look the same FML

HAHAHAHAHA REALLY?? HAHAHA WE CAN PRACTICE TGTHR. NOW WHEN I TRY TO DRAW, THEY ARE STILL OF DIFF SIZES. :(:(

hello! what do you want to say?

Happy Birthday To...

CHIA SHUANG YU aka CHIA AH YI aka SERPENTINE aka FISH. (L)

this is like our first decent photo together where there is only both of us. and it is like taken last year jan. know each other so long so late then take photo tgthr. :/

hehehehe. i forgot the LONGGG LONNNGGGG name i gave you last time. :(
you must be happy that i forgot. T.T
okay you are forever young okay. at least you have baby face so don't complain that you are already 19. :(
just lie to others that you are still 18. HAHAHA.
simply love you and all our times together although you love to laugh at me. :(
i'm sucha kelian de friend. T.T
thanks for listening me rant when i needed it. ^^
we have our ups and downs and i will always try my best to be there for you during your downs okay. :):) but don't you dare to forget me during your ups. >:)
love our taitai shopping trips and taking 171 home tgthr hehe.
you are and will be one of my closest friend okayy! :):)
forever remembering that time you asked me not to fly away HEHE.
I LOVE AHYI!! ^^
forever the molester(you) to the victim (me). ^^

from your loveliest and most angelic friend (HEHEHEHE),
(unwillingly but since it's your birthday............)
HUICI 慧慈 ♡

Motivational (?) story.

was looking around for motivational story when i came across this which made me teared.
i think it is quite nice. :)
remember to tell and remind the people around you how much you love them and how great you think they are. :)

I like your wish abt honghong very much (Y)let;s all hope that it happens someday, no, not when we have menopause -.-

HAHAHA YAR NOT MENOPAUSE PLEASEEEE. HAHAHA I WILL CRY. i hope my menopause nv comes though. means i wun grow old. HAHAHAHAHA

hello! what do you want to say?

WHY WHY WHY CANT OUR EYES BE THE SAMEEE SIZEEEEE D:

IKRRRR!! i think next time when i put eyeliner i have to put different thickness so that both eyes look the same size. :(

hello! what do you want to say?

in the process of

trying to get myself to study. :(
okay i will study after this blog post. heh heh. :):)

saved some drafts earlier on for the future hohoho. you will see them when you see them here. ^^
just pre-typed in case i forgot or i wanna add anything else afterwards. :):)

anyway i just feel like dancing. ARGH. okay prancing around in my own crazy dance steps is a more apt description.
hahahaha. when i was bathing this morning, i sang and danced around in my bathroom kekeke. feels so happy. woohoo.

and this morning when i was singing the song Lucky's first line 'do you hear me, talking to you?' and my dad thought i was talking to him cause i saw his head turn sharply towards my direction but i continued singing and he went back to his comp. HAHAHAHA.

btw i am a good sis today cause i lent my sis my clothes to wear. WOOHOO!
okay everyone is crazy during exam periods so dun judge me. :):) goodbye everyone. PLEASE GO BACK TO STUDYING!!

i sdnly just rmbered mummy forgot my wheatgrass again. :(:(:(:(
plain water then.. haiz.

What's the last good book you read?

the last good book? hmm i think it would be Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban. HAHAHA okay i know i am slow. :( i finished the book like only last month. have been only watching the HP movies and since jiamin borrowed the books from her friend so i just took it to read. I NEED MORE BOOKS. :( going to the library soon!!

hello! what do you want to say?

If you could have any car you wanted, what kind of car would you get?

i want a lamborghini!! which is a little useless though. staying in singapore. :( but a family car would be nice too! hehe. or a sports car which is kinda selfish due to the limited amount of people which can be seated in it. hmm brand wise...... just the most expensive brand will do. HAHAHA

hello! what do you want to say?

feels like i ruined everything.

thanks for being understanding.
sorry for the insecurities.
fuck all the shit that happened.
feeling refreshed after a face wash.
not gonna say wad happened.
how retarded.
it's retarded.
we are retarded. -_-

when i'm not okay, don't ask what happened.
cause if i'm seriously not fine and you ask, i would probably feel worse when i am saying it.
cause i tend to think back as i say and i will think it in a much more negative way which just worsens my perspectives of everything.
i will say it if i wanna say when i am feeling better/happier.
i prefer it if you just tell me 'i love you' or 'i am still here for you' or 'dun cry' or 'hugs'.
to me, these are the sweetest alr. :)
i love those who always do these. :')
sorry for saying i hate everyone earlier on.


okay i really truly think i'm having mood swings now.
honghong you suck stop affecting my moods.
you are simply giving me a headache and you make me cry easier than usual which is very often alr.
come quick and leave quick. you irritate my life.

i really want a wish right now:
for every girl's honghong to never ever come anymore and they can all still give birth to pretty babies.
okay impossible much. -_-

sorry for screwing everything up.

fuck okayy. i just worsened everything oh what the fuck.

i cannot understand everyone and everyone cannot understand me okay.

i feel like i am this weird alien who came from outer space and i don't understand human from earth at all.

fuck i just wanna stay in bed and cry all day.

why do i think so weirdly from other people?

why do i have points of views so different from everyone?

why can't i be a super smart person who gets what others are talking abt the first time?

fuck i hate me.

fuck me.

i suck so fucking much.

leave me alone don't talk to me right now i don't wanna talk to anyone sorry.

you don't know how much it hurts. to hear that from you.

fuck i act cute ah?
everyone thinks so ah?
then dun fucking be my friend okay.
dun ever say i act cute.
leave me alone.
i'd rather be alone pathetically without anyone with me than be with so many people who thinks that i am fake and that i act cute act blur or act slow or whatever.

of all people, you. HAHAHAHAHAHA irony much ah.

fuck this shit okay. fuck it hurts so much.
i'm a fake person?
i act so that people will think that i am cute and like me?
i don't need this shit.
i wonder who understands me and really knows me for me.

you really don't know me well.
so fucking disappointed right now.
sorry but i fucking hate everyone.

when even YOU think that i am fake, then where is the real me you wanna see?
or is there no real me at all?

oh so fucking pissed and hurt right now and you don't even know.
i'm just a bitch who acts okay.
are you glad now?

fucking hate it when people says that i act.

when i am bored,

i tend to bloghop. NONSTOP. :/

and i visit my friends' blogs over and over again like a few times in a day. HAHAHA.
i think i am everyone's ultimate ninja stalker. hehehe.

and smtimes i visit my friends' friends' blogs when i dun even know them. HAHAHAHAHA.
then when i see the people i see in my friends' friends' blogs in real life i get a shock. like i 'know' this person but actually no i don't.
so retarded... -_-

and i dun feel like studying now. OMGG kill me. :(
but i see friends from other courses having their papers like NOW and mine are all NEXT WEEK so i think i should be grateful alr. thank you whoever that made this happened. :')

having a pimple outbreak at this time. :(
YES MR TAY I KNOW I ALWAYS HAVE LOTS OF PIMPLES but these few days the condition seemed to have worsened.. :(
i already drank lots of water and clipped up my fringe everyday as i study and wear contacts so i dun have to wear specs which makes my nose oilier like

THIS!!

honghong must be coming for a visit soon. :( cause i'm also starting to have cramps.

honghong please come quickly and leave before my papers okay. i don't like it when you stay over during my exam period. :(

and take a look at my pathetic small left eye. WHY ARE YOU SO SMALL!?!? please grow bigger. :( you are like half of the size of right eye!! i have been sleeping early and enough these few days for your sake! >:(

but i suspect it's cause i had cyst and had a mini operation on left eye before which made it this small. :( there seems to be a little scar underneath the eyelid. T.T

and i need to go run every other day after exams!! JIAYOU ME!

and i WANT my honey wheatgrass. T.T mum forgot to buy for me ytd. hope she will rmb it today. hehe.

buying drinks from the liang teh shop just reminds me of the times when i stayed over at jiejie's.
she would always buy her barley or some other drinks and i will buy water chestnut (at the fruit stall though) and that's all we drink the whole day.
and she always finishes one bottle in an hour so we often have to go down to replenish our 'stocks' HAHAHA. retarded us in those sweet old days. :') jiejie i'm still waiting for you okay! :D

okay back to studying alr. :( jiayou everyone!! ^^

Who is the most important person in the world to you?

hmm most important? i'd say my mum? and my dad? i can't choose only one since without either i won't be answering this question here. HAHAHAHA.

hello! what do you want to say?

I'm a studious kid. ^^

sooo i spent most of my time studying today. :D

though in between i kept going to the kitchen to take water to drink, playing minesweeper or cooking dash, going to the toilet, reading mag, watching tv, and eating. HAHA. but i did study most of the time okay.

i finished lecture 1 to 5 of TDM today kekeke. okay i left the last two slides of lecture 5 which i have yet to study. :/ i will do it later okay.

so anywayyy these are a few of the things that helped me through todayyy!

minute maid orange juiceeee!! IT'S REALLY NICE HAHAHA!

and the chicken essence which still tastes not-so-nice as usual that mum gave me heh heh.

btw, i really need my study room and study table back. :( argh. i can't study in the living room with sooooo many distractions around. :/:/

okay 大家!! continue to study hard okayy! :D:D (L)

the unexpected message which made my day keke. yes i am really happy well done okay! :):) the things you do unexpectedly. ^^

quotes

back so soon cause i have some quotes to share. :):) i saw this on tumblr and it is kind of related to the movie i watched earlier so thought that i would just post it here. :)

in the movie, Ashton Kutcher said this to Natalie Portman,
'If you miss me, you can't text, you can't email, you can't post it on my Facebook wall. If you really miss me, you'd come and see me.'
how true is this huh. if you really really miss me, you would come and find me, come and look for me, come and see my face, see me in real life, see my physical form, my physical body and not just any other way.

this is why sometimes i prefer to writing letters more than other things though typing is definitely faster but writing is always more personal. :)
technological advancements have turned us all into slightly colder and unfriendly people as it made us all forgot the importance of physical touch and affection. everyone would now just hide behind their computer/handphone screens and type away~

is that being real? i have no idea. cause words with no tone or emotion expressed are just normal text. they are not even things that you said/do.
like me, who can't really express myself with what i want to say and thus i often got misunderstood cause of my wrong expressions, it is even harder to try and explain while typing when the person is unable to see/feel my emotions firsthand.
perhaps if you are right in front of me, you would be able to feel how happy, how sad, how apologetic, how angry, how frustrated or other emotions i am REALLY feeling at that moment.

Ashton Kutcher had actually talked quite a lot about this technological advancements VS relationships stuff and this is what he said,
'This is me, and I'm interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more importantly, all that I am not.'

for me this is really sweet. and i DO hope that you will accept my flaws even though i know there are many and i'm really glad when you said that you understand that it is not possible to expect the person you like to become who you want her to be cause she would have flaws. hehe imma lucky girl! ^^

btw here is the tumblr post which i was talking about and you can go there to view his full comments about everything! :):)
it does make you ponder heh heh.



okay anywayyy it's 12.45am now! means i can go and sleep now! hehe cause i promised my sis i would do something for her at this time. heh heh. nights my darlings have a SWEEEEET dream~

My First Hike.

this morning woke up real early and went to bukit timah hill for some hiking!! it's my first time there and also my first time hiking! an event organized by the CC which my mum registered for us. hahahaha.

mrtay was originally going with us but he overslept and after calling him 21893712763 times i gave up. HAHAHA. you are a pigggg!!

was so tiring climbing up the steep slope. but i managed to keep a fast pace WAHAHAHAHA and stop occasionally to wait for my sis and mum who were SOOOOO slow. mummy too long nv exercise HAHA.
eventually we reached the peak but due to the short duration given we have to start heading down even before i managed to finish my bread. :(

the three sisters~ our chui looks after climbing the hill. T.T

so after we reached the bottom of the 'mountain' we sat to rest awhile before gathering to get up the bus which brought us to IMM.
UP TILL NOW, i have no idea how does bukit timah hill link to IMM!?!? -_- like why are they placed together in the same list of activities??

but being in IMM just brings back all the fangirling memories with clara and hyrah. HAHAHAHAHA. and i felt so at ease at IMM cause though it's rather big i sort of know my way around. HAHAHA. and mummy is suprised at my familiarity at the place.

brought them to Bagus to eat the laksa which i like keke. and mummy asked me the reason for my being familiar with the place when i fessed up my fangirling moments. HAHAHA.

went to daiso to walk about and bought an interesting thing which i shall take a photo of when i plan to use it and went back to the entrance to gather to get on the bus and HOME WE GO~

throughout all the journeys to bukit timah hill, to IMM, and back home, i was all the while sleeping. :(
waking up at 6.30am when you slept at like 1.30am is a big NONO during 'holidays'. heh heh.

okay reached home, bathed and headed out again to meet mrtay, the sleepy pig who finally woke up, at northpoint.
and i reached first and started playing cooking dash on my phone at some corner and he actually came up to me but din even tap my shoulder but he just stood there beside me watching me play my game UNTIL i sdnly realised he was there and looked up at him. -_-
you are a retarded guy okayyy!

went to buy movie tickets and as the show that we were going to watch is M18, the lady at the ticket counter was like 'this movie is M18 you know? and there is no refund okay?' as she stares at me. HAHAHAHAHA.
I WAS SO HAPPY AFTER THAT CAUSE IT MEANS THAT SHE THINKS IM UNDER 18 WOOHOOOOOO!!

started to walk around northpoint before going to popular to buy monopoly deal and settled down at macs to play. despite there having lots of people who is finding a seat. :(
sorry we couldnt find a better place to while our time away until the movie starts. :(
but of course we bought a meal to share while playing! ^^

OKAY A HAPPY POINT TO NOTE:
I AM A HAPPY OWNER OF A MONOPOLY DEAL DECK NOW. HEHEHEHE. ^^
cause i have been wanting a monopoly deal deck okayy!
can't believe that i'm actually so into this game now and when junhao intro-ed me the last time i still had no clue that it was THIS addictive HAHAHA.

heh heh happy me and my new monopoly deal deck. ^^

after playing many rounds which mostly i lost -_-, we went to the cinema. O.O yishun GV really became much prettier after the renovation!! okayyy and the movie we watched is...

it was okay and not bad. i kind of like the love-hate r/s going on between the two leads and the storyline and how it goes.
but perhaps you dun have to watch it in the theatres. you can download from funshion to watch it if you'd like to save some money. hahahahahaha. i think not much difference if you were to watch it at home anyway. mrtay thinks the movie is so-so though.

after the movie mrtay sent me home and we walked all the way from yishun central to my home. yayy! ^^
it isn't that far okay!! :( but hehe thanks for the wonderful timeeee! ^^ (L)

btw i just helped mrtay to buy the light power in his fb monopoly when just hours ago, he told me he was quitting it. that idiot. -_-
thank me okay. i am your benefactor now. NOW WHO IS THE BEST HUH!? WAHAHAHAHA. forever better than you~ and no this is not a joke. -_-

What's your favorite quality about yourself?

HMMM i think my favourite quality about myself is that i am able to think about erm retarded things which link to the weirdest things cause it entertains people and also makes me feel happier and more carefree~ ^^

hello! what do you want to say?

JUST DONT SHAVE 'COS IM SURE THAT YOU WILL REGRET! & I BELIEVE THAT SHAVING YOUR HAIR WON'T HELP HER IN ANY WAY. THERE ARE SOOOO MUCH MORE YOU CAN DO TO HELP HER. SAVING THE MONEY OF SHAVING UR HAIR CAN ALREADY HELP TO SAVE SOME MONEY TO BUY STH FOR HER e

O.O hmmmmmmm okayyy. i will seriously seriously consider okay! ^^

hello! what do you want to say?

AT LEAST I TRY TO DO IT DISCRETELY, when I rmb/ realises I'm in public ._. usually I forget abt it and smile very widely as if I will really see ppl i know T_T

HAHAHAHAHA. but then when i realised i am doing it, i already finished 'acting' HAHAHAHA diu lian much then i will just stare at the ground and faster walk HAHA

hello! what do you want to say?

when i am alone, i might be thinking of a scenario whereby when i meet my friends and i would plan in my head what i want to tell them. i would actually mouth the words and give the expression as if i am really talking to them HAHHAHAAA YOU ARE NOT ALONE

HAHAHAHA YOU DO THAT TOO!? WOOHOO I AM SO GLAD THAT I AM NOT ALONE HAHAHAHAHAHA

hello! what do you want to say?

那你就看她醒了过后怎么样吧， 可是如果你要在考试+工作完了后才剃， 到时她会不会已经不介意自己的头发那样了呢？而且， 你可以帮他的不只那样， 还有其他方法可以在心灵上陪她 (L)

好的，我明白。谢谢小脚趾！我爱你！我会看情况而定的！:)

hello! what do you want to say?

courage.

I NEED COURAGE.
a lot of courage in life.
i need courage to not be afraid to be myself.
i need courage to be not afraid of others' comments and judgements.
i need courage to be able to do things without anyone's support.
i need courage to be able to do things completely alone.
i need courage to be able to say no for being such a sucker in life.
i need courage to be able to smile and say hi to others first.
i need courage to trust that the things that i do is right.
i am such a loser. -_-
Lee Jia Le, please be a braver person.



btw, i think i am a weird person cause i tend to think of different situations and scenarios in my head and then i act out in real life. :/
for example, when i am alone, walking to the coffeeshop to buy food, i might be thinking of a scenario whereby when i meet my friends and i would plan in my head what i want to tell them. then, i would actually mouth the words and give the expression as if i am really talking to them.
i think people who chanced upon me being like this would probably think that i am a weird kid who is talking animatedly to herself. :(
haiz i am weird like that.





anywayyy, in case you are wondering why is the frequency of me blogging so high nowadays, it is cause i am having holidays a study break now. HAHAHA.
and of course i am supposed to study but argh it's just so irritating heh heh. i prefer blogging to studying anyday~ i just love blogging!

Hospital Visit :)

today is another day when i went to see jiejie again! :):)
this time round, it is happier cause jiejie looks like her already! :D:D
what a happy day woohoo!!

reached and i went into the small glass room this time. with papa. and the both of us stood there and stare at her. i kept thinking to myself before that that i want to touch her and comfort her with my touch, but when i went in, i don't dare to do anything but watch her.
and her hair grew out a bit so she looks kind of like a baby. hehe. plus her cheeks are still a little swollen cause of the crushed bones in her jaws. :/

sdnly her breathing seems to become a little deeper cause originally her breathing was not smooth and i was surprised and immediately looked at the machine thingy which indicates that her heartbeat increased a little.
i turned to look at her and saw her mouth opening and closing, like she wanted to say something. papa then quickly motioned me to go out of the room.
i think jiejie sensed us, but i don't know what to say.

we were talking outside afterwards and i found out that the bitch (sorry for the vulgarities but i cant help it) who knocked jiejie down CLAIMED that she DOESN'T KNOW that she knocked my jiejie down.
HELLO WHAT BULLSHIT!? you think you drive lorry ah? the driver seat SOOO high that you can't see anybody you knocked? you drive a van for god's sake. AND the impact was so huge (LOOK AT WHAT MY JIEJIE BECAME) so how can you CLAIM that you know nothing of it!? -_-
okay if justice doesn't get you, karma will. >:)

i sound like a total bitch in the prev paragraph but you will understand if you have SEEN how my jiejie looked like after the accident. even the driver's brother who was asking how much compensation we are asking for became speechless after he saw the state my jiejie was in.
YOU CAN'T BUY OFF SOMEONE'S PAIN AND SUFFERINGS WITH MONEY.
and the tears and heartaches you caused us, that can never be compensated. >:(

teared a little as usual and THE WHOLE TIME papa was anticipating my tears. he kept looking at me with the 'sad' face. idiot basket! hahahahaha.
but i was controlling well until they started talking about how jiejie was always careful on roads and they happened to ask me about it and all i could recall was how jiejie would hold my hands while crossing roads. T.T and i started to tear.



okay there were a few things that i wanted to address at the start before i started this post when i was bathing. :/ but in the end i forgot. argh. okay nvm i shall talk about it when i rmb. ^^
okay i smell my maggie mee HEHEHE i lub maggie mee. getting fat but i did exercise last night okay! and i'm having muscle aches now HAHA and tomorrow morning is also a healthy morning cause we are going hiking! woohoo!

If you're pondering about it, don't shave cuz if you really want to shave, you wouldn't be pondering about it. If you're thinking abt growing them back as fast as possible, then shave them asap :D good luck

HAHAHAHA. hmmm good advice. but actually i'm waiting out abit for my that certain reason which i don't feel like saying. cause if i do it now, there is no point. actually what i need now is more of people telling me to go for it and that they will support me no matter what. HAHA. okay thanks for your good luck! ^^

hello! what do you want to say?

I think it'll be too late to shave, and there's other ways of helping her also!

hahahahaha i would have to see her 心理状态 too after she wakes up. hahaha. too late to shave as in? she would have alr grown hair? hahahaha.

hello! what do you want to say?

I AM CHIA SHUANG YU. COS I THINK THAT YOU WILL REGRET LOLLLL. cos if is me i won't shave la

HAHAHAHAHA you know why i want to do this??? but then i can wear cap or wadever maaa HAHAHA

hello! what do you want to say?

DONT SHAVE

HAHAHAHAHAHA WHO ARE YOU? must give me a reason not to? cause currently i feel like i have every reason to shave. HAHAHA

hello! what do you want to say?

BALDNESS.

to shave or not to shave? that is a question.
if so, when do i do it? that is another question.

okay if you are wondering what i am talking about, i'm talking about shaving my hair. and when i say so, i do mean all of it. i'm not kidding. :/ and of course, i have my own reasons for doing so.

i guess my reason for posting it here is so that i will get some support somehow. haha. somehow this takes courage, though i kept telling myself people only live once, and we should be daring and try out many different things.


i think i would do it. PLUS mrtay says he will donate $100 if i do so. HAHAHA. cause he feels that i have a higher ego than him (HAHAHA quite true) so he thinks i won't do it. but now here comes the question, when?

hmmm if i do it like now, i wouldn't be able to wear any hats/beanies during exam period (yes i am still a little vain :/)

and if i do it after exams, i still have work from 9th to 12th march. and would they want to hire a bald girl? :/ i have no idea.

so after i work? would that be a little late? as in for my reason. as i think that there is enough time for my hair to grow so that i can do presentations properly next sem and of course before my internship. :/

hmmm so much to ponder. please write in my formspring or talk to me personally for some suggestions? hehe thanks! ^^

What's the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?

i would first think of someone HAHA and my jiejie and think to myself what time it is already by looking at the brightness of my surrounding and that i wanna sleep some more. HAHAHA. okayyy it's not only one thing but these are what comes up first on my mind on random orders. sooo i can't decide on only one heh heh.

hello! what do you want to say?

Exercising exercise!

/Edited with picture
I LOVE MY CURRENT BLOG LAYOUT LIKE CRAZY SERIOUSLY. HAHAHAHA.
i keep coing to my blog to just stare at my blog and feel proud of it. HAHAHAHA im crazy seriously.
but it's soooo prettayeee. hehe.

okay back to the topic, like what i have mentioned last evening, i had a healthy night out with mrtay~ ^^
and that is after a whole day of printing notes and talking to my printer. HAHAHA. cause it wasn't working at first and after i talked to it, it actually didn't give me any paper jams or took two papers to print instead of the normal one. ^^

so anyway, met mrtay at bpcc and shot a few hoops. wahahaha okay i wasn't that good and his bball skills are also a little rusty ah. HAHAHA. tried three pointers and as usual, every single one of my shoots were air ball. -_-

after the silat people came to take over the bball court for their lesson, we went off to other bball court. he wanted to jog to fajar OMG im a lousy runner okay. :(
running after him really almost killed me. his legs are like 2837298743982173 times longer than me. :( and he ran so fast that soon he became smaller than my pinky finger. T.T

okay so went over to fajar court and then to segar court. was standing at the carpark there and looked over to the court and i saw them. saw everyone. all of whom i played bball with before. but i only dared to hide and look. :/
i wanted so much to join them. but i dare not. i really suck huh. watching them play and hearing them laugh as they do so, they were my gang, my people. we laughed so much together. we played so much together.
but i don't feel like i belong there anymore. perhaps i ought to have face this fact since long ago.
it kinda hurts when i wanted to join so much, but it's not my place to join anymore. :/ i still love them so much.

in the end we left. and we walked to jelapang court. i was too tired so he just played around while i sat at the side to watch heh heh.
afterwards he sent me home and stayed over for the night cause it's kinda late. :):)

wanted to take some 'homely' photos HAHAHA please ignore my open curtains i was too lazy to go and comb my hair. :/

woke up early in the morning and we went for mac breakfast WAHAHAHAHA. had my filet-o-fish breakfast imma happy girl~
wanted to buy 水晶虾饺 but i was too full. :( so in the end he sent me home and went home himself. keke.



sorry for minding too much and being too cowardly but thanks for being understanding and not being angry. :) maybe it's not much to you but it means a lot to me. ^^

i ♡ my mum and dad.

:') watch this. it made me teared. like of course. HAHA.

mummy and papa,

even though sometimes i scream and shout at you, and get pissed at you.

i love you very much. :')

and i will try my best to be more caring and not be such a bad-tempered and spoilt kid.

okayyy going over to bp to run and perhaps play a little basketball (?) with mrtay. YIPEEE!! BASKETBALL HOHO!

for now, i need to rush finish my dinner!! ^^

a studious day. :)

okay i am back within a few minutes to update about my day today! :D:D

basically, i have been studying copying notes the whole day.

and in the end, i only managed to copy one HBM lectures notes. -_- good job well done.

this means that i would officially start studying tomorrow! ^^

and i would also have to print my notes. :/

and look for my TDM notes cause i have no idea where i left them and if i can't manage to find them i would have to reprint everything. -_- waste of ink and paper ah.

so today, soon after i finished studying, mrtay came over to our house. ^^

okay technically not finished studying, just finished copying that one lecture note. -_-

anywayyy had dinner and he peeled prawns for me keke.

okay i should give credits to my mum too since she also peeled a few prawns for me hehe. ^^ sumptious dinner tonight.

and after dinner, we just simply nua-ed on my sofa while we watched teeveeeee.

we REALLY nua-ed. like totally nua-ing on the longish part of my L-shaped sofa. and enjoying the tv show hahaha.

mrtay had to leave and i sent him ALL the way to the mrt stn. ^^ AREN'T I SWEET!? HOHOHO!

okay fine the mrt stn isn't that far away. :/ it's only a 5-minutes walk.

AND I RMB ONCE I WAS LATE FOR SOMETHING AND I WALKED REALLY FAST TO THE TRAIN STN AND REACHED WITHIN 2 MINUTES OMG I'M THE BEST HAHAHA.

okayyy to conclude today was a happy day yipee!! and sorry clara whom i neglected on msn cause i really was watching the television. :( but i hope my bullshit cheered you up hehe. ^^

love everyone, signing off now! byeeeee!
/waves with handkerchief.

cny visiting at xueli's!!

hello my darlings i am back!!
after a few hours. HAHA.

okayyyy soooo i am here to update our girls' day at xueli's. which is also cny visiting! :):):)
no pictures cause all pictures were taken by photographer of the day: CHERYL!! :D:D
and i have some unglam photos. :( SUPER UGLY. cause i was trying to turn to see what cheryl is doing but the sofa blocked me. :( hence the ugly photo
/SIGH A MILLION.

okayyyy to go on, i left my house at like 1pm when we were supposed to meet at xueli's at 1pm.
and i was afraid that everyone (EXCEPT for clara cause i know she was still slping since im her daily 'alarm clock') has already reached so i was like hurrying there despite it was raining.

while walking there, i realised that i don't even have to take my phone out to check her address. or even the floor she stays on.
i totally could remember where is her house and how to walk there. :')
and i started to miss the three little girls (xueli, ahyi and me). those good old days. :') i love them so much up till now. HEHE.
and of course the rest of my girls tooo! ^^

reached her house at like 1.45pm and i realised that i was the first to arrive. O.O!!!
all of our punctuality should like improve as a whole. TOO SERIOUS. HAHAHAHA.

okay hungry and greedy me started eating her fried rice and seaweed chicken and chicken wing WOOHOO felt so 幸福. :') and she also gave me kimchi and cooked ddoubuki for meee!! which is also rice cakes in case you dunoe! hehe ^^
greedy me was still eating when cheryl, ahyi and mel arrived. ^^ and they just joined me WOOHOO!!

soon binni, adeline, clara and gwynnie arrived one by one according to the order as mentioned and we had lotsa fun watching 'Burlesque' which was a really great movie, playing monopoly deal and OF COURSE BANLUCK AKA BLACKJACK!!
WOOTS!! HUAT AHHH!!
but in the end gwynnie was the biggest winner. okay she is also the only winner. :( all of us lost. i lost like 2bucks before quitting. HAHA dun wanna lose too much. heh heh.

went over to yew tee macs for dinner and played monopoly deal after our meal.
laughed so much that we were trying to catch our breaths. and mostly at the craftiest couple - CLARA AND AHYI. HAHAHAHAHA.
they kept whispering their 'plots' to each other which made us feel like they are plotting something against us. HAHAHA.
okay still love the both of you okay. ♡

and before we left, xueli had to go buy kopi for her dad so she went into the foodcourt while we waited outside and she came out TWICE to get 10cents each time she came out from clara cause she didn't have enough money. HAHAHA. the retarded girl. ^^

finally, took train home with gwynnie and claraaaa~ ^^

What song best describes your life right now?

hmm mmm mmm mmm mmm i would say the song 'Everyday' by Vanessa Hudgens cause somehow recently whenever i hear this song i would feel like it's what i wanna say.

hello! what do you want to say?

to someone dear.

dun compare yourself with him.
it's just incomparable.
how do you count love?
it's just impossible?
you wun know exactly how much you love someone until something drastic happens.
and i would never want that that kind of incident to happen.
you understand me?
what happened on monday gave me a surprise cause i truly realised how much i felt and how much you meant to me.
and many small incidents made me feel that too.
let us stay happy for now alright? :)
dun think too much.
for now, i'm just happy that you are here with me.

If your 8 year old self met you, would he/she be proud?

im just inspired by adeline's blog post and i'm also a little lazy to start studying cause sdnly im in the blogging mood. :)

okay so going back to the topic title, i think generally she will not be proud of me.
i mean yeah with the academic results and all, the young jiale would not have expected to get a great score for PSLE and Olvls since she always thought that she was a kid with average results so for that she might be really proud.

but for relationship wise, perhaps not as much. as she had always hoped that the first would be the last.
and she would probably hope that she wun have a red nose and be a prettier girl.

the young jiale has always unknowingly become teachers' pet. be it when she was in kindergarten or primary school. somehow she always got chosen for performances and was always placed in the important roles. perhaps it's all these happiness and glory she had which created a must for her to suffer a little as she grows up. life is always fair.

xiao jiale, will you be proud of me? the me who is going to be 19 in no time?
perhaps i should ask myself this; am i proud of me?
since xiao jiale and da jiale and even the future lao jiale are all me.
i never felt like i changed.
maybe in some ways.
but i still feel like im me everytime.
im always me.
xiao jiale should still feel the same way as i feel now.
perhaps some things you experienced taught you not to be so naive, so gullible, so carefree anymore.
and those things might have also taught you to be more caring, more understanding, more thoughtful.
it's just give and take, xiao jiale.
when you lose something, you gain something.
are you proud of me?
please be proud.
if you are not proud of yourself, who will?
you have to trust yourself first.
yes, i have made mistakes in the past.
i will try and correct them and remember not to commit the same errors again in the future.
and i will make sure our tomorrow will be bright okay. :)
for now, i am just happy that xiao jiale was who she was. same goes for da jiale. no regrets.

a quote from i-dunoe-who-or-where, 'Life is too short for regrets.' ^^

those beautiful days :')

I STRONGLY STRONGLY ENCOURAGE EVERYONE TO CLICK THIS LINK !!
ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE BORN IN THE 90s! OMGGGGG!!

when i was reading the page, i swear i kept shouting 'YAR YAR!!', 'OH MY GODDDD!' and laughing at those things that are oh-so-true. awwww i miss my past. feel like giving some comments for each. you can look at the numbers from there and compare with the one here~ hehe.


TV SHOW:
1. I LOVED THE PINK RANGER AND MADE MY SIS 'BE' THE YELLOW ONE CAUSE THERE WERE ONLY TWO GIRL RANGERS HAHAHAHAHA.

3. I LOVED PATAMON and thats the only digimon i can rmb up till now. hehe.

7. 城人杂志 rocks and i always feel older when i watched this show cause somehow they made it feel like it is 'adults magazine' when translated in english HAHAHA

TRANSPORT:
1. ohhh yes i rmb pulling the window wide open to feel the wind and i wasnt strong enough to pull open every window so everytime i do so i would feel oh-so-proud. HAHAHA

2. i rmb some of my friends actually had their NAMES printed on the farecards and i would feel so jealous of them. and my dad always get those with the cool pictures for himself while i got the common ones. :( and it's always so scary if you forgot to take your card on the top of the mrt stn gate before crossing HAHAHA. and sometimes we would just run through the gates without putting the farecards to save money hehe

FOOD:
2. i only ate push pops once but i felt like it was heaven at that point in time. it was just too cool to miss HAHA.

3. i rmb buying this with ortao and weilong and jiamin and we would just dip our fingers into the crystals-like sweets in the packet and put in our mouths to hear it pop and sometimes we would just stick our tongues into the packets HAHAHAHA dirty kids we were~

5. ohhh yes i loved those ice pops omggg would always walk around to the mama shop buy them after school~~

SHOPS:
2. I ONLY WENT THERE ONCE BUT I LOVED IT THERE AND I WAS SO SAD CAUSE WHEN I WANNA GO THERE A SECOND TIME AND IT CLOSED DOWN ALR. T.T

TECHNOLOGY:
1. i rmb my cousin teaching me how to use a normal telephone to type a message to someone's pager which i think is soooo cool.

4. i din have a comp when i was young. and had to bus over to ortao's house and save my work in the floppy disks so that i can use it in school hahahahaha.

5. neopets was the only game i play online when i was young woohooooo i loved it and the pets never died though their hunger was always 'dying' HAHAHAHA

LEISURE:
1. block catching :') always the game to play amongst my cousins during the festive seasons especially christmas. :') and we had 20 over people to play with HAHAHA.

2. oh yes i loved this game. used to call it water and ice? couldnt rmb. then we would try every way to try and 'save' the iced people and the catcher would often use the iced people to bait those that were still running around HAHAHA.

3. TAMAGOTCHI MY FAVE and if you got an ugly 'monster' you can always reset to get a pretty one HAHAHA and i loved cleaning their shits :( i was a kid who was a little crazy. :(

4. LOVED digivice and loved the way which you can like stick it tgthr and make the digimons fight each other. used to think that it was super cool HAHAHA. OHH AND NOT TO FORGET GAMEBOY AS WELL HAHAHAHA.

5. i love sandy playgrounds omggg and i loved those smooooooooth slides. :( why dun they build those nowwww. :( i would still play them despite being this age. :(

6. I RMB WANTING TO JOIN THE CLUB CAUSE IT FEELS SOOOOOO COOL. and i DO have quite a number of their books hehehe. and i used to think that Smarty is linked to the Smarties chocolates HAHAHA.

SCHOOL:
2. i used to want this SOOOO much but my mum just refused to buy one for me. :( and in the end she just bought this small kiddish barbie luggage-like bag for me. heh heh. and i always used it when i went overseas when i was small. ^^

3. i loved the tuckshop where each cup of drink was sold for 30cents and bowls of noodles for like 60cents and fried rice was like 70cents. :(

4. it's cause of this that i would wish that im the class monitor. and everytime they write our names on the board somehow we would manage to persuade them to clean it off before the teacher comes back to the class. T.T

5. I LOVED FINDING THE ANIMALS ESPECIALLY WITH MY SISTERS HAHAHA IT WAS A MUST-DO THING EVERYTIME HAHAHAHA.

7. and every year we were forced to donate 2bucks (which were like 10bucks to us at that time) to the sharity elephant envelope everytime. :(

8. stupid dentists. hate the drillings which give me LOTS of goosebumps. :( but there were always nice books tto read while waiting for your turn. hehe.

9. i rmb once i opened up my music recorder and i could flick thousands of droplets of water, or to be exact, saliva out. HAHAHAHA.

12. once there was this activity where we have to measure the weight of our schoolbags in our science lesson and we found out that the weight of our bags were actually 10kg each. -_-

13. those water bottles were SOOO COOOL and i had to use a normal plastic ones which had to be changed every few days. :(

15. i used to feel proud for being able to recognise angsana cause there were some planted outside our primary school HAHAHA

16. STUPID YOUNG SCIENTIST CARDS!! >:( i rmb i retardedly chose one which only required 16 stars thinking that it will be easier but in the end it was too hard for me to complete. :( and i never did manage to finish ANY young scientist cards cause i was too lazy to do it. :(

20. i think this was the coolest cause i wouldnt have to wear school shoes with my uniform and i would feel like im some rebellious kid HAHAHAHA.

21. lining up in two rows according to height and gender was alright. but holding hands were like OH MY GOD feeling like you have just been sentenced to death HAHAHA. and yeah what the guy said there was so true. they can't wait to kiss. -_-

23. everyone would crowd around the bookshop EVERYDAY after finishing their meals during recess. ohhhh and those country erasers. ohmylife. and i would often buy mothers' day and fathers' day gifts from there and bring home to my parents HAHAHA.

24. having magnetic pencilboxes were like SOOOO cool cause there soooo many compartments and those holey thingys where you can stick your pens in it. HAHAHA. and i rmb those kind of pencil boxes which you can actually 'break' into half and make it stand OMGGGG.

25. TOTALLY LOVE SHAKER PENCIL.

28. we would dutifully give presents to our teachers without fail EVERY year. and cause my mum was an art teacher in some kindergarten. she would just give me the gifts HER students gave her and wrapped them for me to give to MY teachers HAHAHA.

29. i loved talking on the phones and my mum were such a poor thing cause very often she had to travel 15mins to the front gate to pass me whatever books/homeworks/worksheets i have forgotten to bring to school cause the back gate where our house is wun be open. hahahaha.

31. i totally hated the loud sound which velcro wallets give and i would try my best to tear as slowly as i can but it still made as loud a noise. :/

32. oh yes that group colour thing HAHAHAHAHA.

34. autograph books!! :') i still have some up till now. the friendship parts are always the most hurting parts HAHAHA.




okayyy what a way to reminisce our pasts. :') i shall update on today tml. heh heh. it was a happy day out/in with my girls. ^^

OHH and i really really REALLY need to start studying tml. T.T

okay im going to sleep soon.
just a short update.

had lunch at cathay astons with my usual girls as well as yaoxin shelyce daphne and tingting. :):) had a great time still.
walked around after lunch and was feeling really tired so sat at gongcha for awhile before heading home. bused home with ade till bp and took 171 back~


okay that was really short. HAHA.


okay kinda bored but i wanna slp soon. and my boy was being kinda cute. though a little childish but yup i understand why you did the things you did. :) so im not blaming you since im the stubborn and selfish one who is at fault in the first place.


but sometimes i still feel really selfish. :/
as in i want you to myself. and myself only.
okay too selfish. i shall cancel that thought out of my mind and not think so much and remain happy. :)
be as happy as everrrr! ^^

hello i am here again. :):):)

am just done with our ECD presentation which is also our last presentation of the sem WOOHOO!
no more school already until ermmm two weeks later? for our final sem exams. :(:(
AND THEN WE WILL BE YEAR 3 OMGGGGG!!!!
time flies seriously. O.O

i dun wanna be 19 leh. i like the number 18. :(
OMG I JUST REALISED AHYI IS TURNING 19 IN LESS THAN 10DAYS OMG SORRY AHYI. :( after you, it's me alr......
stop hitting me you bad woman >:(
and until now i still cant believe that cheryl is ALREADY 19. T.T why oh why oh why oh whyyyyy~

okay im so hungry now. WHERE SHOULD WE EAT LATER?? :D:D:D
looking foward to food. as usual. hehehe. i wanna eat eat eat eat eat!!
craving for pastas. :( feel like making some myself though. heh heh. wait till mrtay comes over to my house and i shall make some for him.
ANYONE WHO WANTS MY PASTA YOU HAVE TO COME MY HOUSE OKAYYY!

OHHH and thanks to ade, mel, cheryl and huiwen for staying just to see our presentation just nowww! hehehe! (L)(L)!!

we did retarded things behind the teacher's back so that shelyce, yaoxin, daphne and tingting wun get so stressed for their presentation. hehe.
though we are more of classmates than friends but they seem like really nice people. ^^

OHHH and for ytd's valentines, thanks to huiwen and yaoxin for the valentines cookies/chocolate! heh heh.

and yo yo yo! check out my new blog design yo!!
feel like going for a simpler design. simple things are always the ones that makes you the happiest. :)




you are so cute this morning kekeke. ^^
i feel happy hehe.
i do wanna grow with you. ^^
just stay the cute way you are. :)

HAPPY VALENTINES!

hello everybodyyy!
happy valentines to all of youuuu! :):) heh heh.



ytd morning ahyi came over to our house and we baked cookies for our girls, jy4 and mrtay. hahaha.

but we underestimated the time needed for baking and before i know it, jervis quak reached, and then shaun leong and lastly myrna lam~~ so they become the first guinea pigs for our cookies!! especially our 'double chocs' ones HEHEHE.

ahyi left afterwards while we stayed at my home until mrtay came to join our bai nian session and we went to everyone's hse.
to myrna's hse first to mahjong where i won the most money keke, then shaun's hse where he bathed, then jervis's hse where he bathed too, and lastly to my hse cause i wanted to change cause it was super hot. HAHAHA.

in the end we left for marina sq for dinner~ ate at MOF for the first time for me, mrtay and shaun leong~
full full dinner woohoo! ^^

walked around and eventually went over to plazasing and settled down at cafe cartel for some dessert. but before we settle down mrtay left for home first.
went home after the dessert~ started raiding everyone's bags/wallets while on the train. thanks to my three dearies for sending me home! :)



well todayyyy, we had our tlaw presentation. IT'S THE SECOND LAST PRESENTATION WOOHOO! :D:D after the presentation, went over to bp to find mrtay. :):)

waited for him at the bus stop and we went off to causewayyy~
bought movie tix and went to swensens for late lunch!! hahaha retardedness during lunch ^^ i like! finished our super full lunch completed with desserts, we brisk walked to the cinema cause it was alr time for the movie - 'what woman want'. :( and the movie started before we got in but it's okayy i dun think we missed much.

after the movie we went to a void deck to sit and he looked at the card and ate the cookies me and ahyi made. please eat well~
went to ntuc where he bought tibits and sent him to bp before going back home.






i dunoe how long this is going to last. and im afraid of the end. i want to know what you are thinking/feeling. but if you prefer not to let me know, then i suppose i just have to trust you for this. was today a bad day? i'm not sure. but i know i really did feel super happy. did you? we need more time, and for the time being, just hang on alright? let's hang on together. :) i dunoe how to make you feel better and happy but like i said i wanna make you feel the happiest. like you said, 走一步，算一步. perhaps not thinking too much for the time being is the best.
thanks for just staying with me. i love you. :)

Happy v'day! <3

HAPPY VDAY TO DEAR VON TOO! ^^ (L)

hello! what do you want to say?

i grew mature?

mum wondered why i never quarrelled with you when i used to scream and shout. HAHAHA.

she asked if it's cause you are more matured or did i grow wiser.

i wonder too.

and incidents which happened on friday night which surprised the both of us.
incidents which both you and i tot that i would be angry, but in the end i wasnt.
i even surprised myself.
i wonder what happened to me ah. HAHAHA
im now a more matured and sophisticated young woman! WOOHOO! ^^

11022011 (L)

last night was a really happy night. :):)

mr tay and i were supposedly having dinner at astons and i was already queuing there while waiting for him when he changed his mind and asked to meet at plazasing instead.
met and went up to manhatten fish market for our dinner. the manager led us to a reserved table which i din think much of and happily ordered and finished our food.
it's only after the dinner when the biggest surprise of my life came up. thanks so much. :):)
it wasn't a big thing but i nearly teared.
i never thought you would remember. :')
and i really did not expect anything.
you are the best alr. better than me okay!

after that we walked all the way to the esplanade and went to the river angbao or angbao river i cant rmb. HAHAHA.
it's so prettyyyy. and i feel like im back to the dynasty era with the lanterns hung up. they should have like included riddles for us to guess!!!

went down to the floating platform place and looked around. idiot doesnt wanna take photos. :(
but wahh saw this wire rabbit with many bells hanging on it there which everyone threw coins to see if they can hit the bell. and of course i took out a 50-cent coin and made a wish for jiejie and threw it. 50-cents coin surface area bigger ma so higher probability of hitting the bells. HAHAHA totally auntie style. but in the end i missed. -_- wts.
and SOMEONE threw i-forgot-10-cents-or-5-cents and he hit the bell. -_- so li hai ah. basketballer jiu shi basketballer. :(

continued walking until the YOG park and sat there cause mrtay wasnt feeling very well.
ohh and it was really pretty and colourful on the opposite side of the road. i think it's chingay?
sat for awhile and took photos and chatted and after awhile sdnly there were fireworks above the chingay area!! omg prettayyeeee. i like the ones which looks like meteorites cause they leave streaks of gold behind them as they FLYYYY~
and he likes those that looks like ferrero rocher. you know in the ad when the gold powder will sprinkle down and a type of fireworks look just like that after it is shot. and he likes those cause it reminded him of ferrero rocher. PIGGGGG!

walked back to the river angbao again and this time round we went to look at all the games stall. wahh super tempting to play and get all the soft toys but i dun like soft toys leh. :/ take up so much place but abit useless. :/
if they give diamond rings then maybe i will play. HAHAHA.
PLUS EACH TOKEN IS 2BUCKS so expensive. -_- sorry im a poor girl ah.

went to find a place cause mrtay feeling cold cause of his flu and saw that they were playing movies outside of esplanade and went to sit amongst the people where it is warmer for him.
it was an old hongkong cny movie 家田喜事 and watched it for the 83472934 time but still as funny and nice as ever woohoo!

after the movie went to sit around and chit chat and sing song and do retarded things and he sent me home after that. poor him no more transport home so he slept over till early morning when there is transport home and went home. tyvm! ^^

pictures! :):)

hello 你也是我的卑鄙无耻下流. :)