If your 8 year old self met you, would he/she be proud?

im just inspired by adeline's blog post and i'm also a little lazy to start studying cause sdnly im in the blogging mood. :)

okay so going back to the topic title, i think generally she will not be proud of me.
i mean yeah with the academic results and all, the young jiale would not have expected to get a great score for PSLE and Olvls since she always thought that she was a kid with average results so for that she might be really proud.

but for relationship wise, perhaps not as much. as she had always hoped that the first would be the last.
and she would probably hope that she wun have a red nose and be a prettier girl.

the young jiale has always unknowingly become teachers' pet. be it when she was in kindergarten or primary school. somehow she always got chosen for performances and was always placed in the important roles. perhaps it's all these happiness and glory she had which created a must for her to suffer a little as she grows up. life is always fair.

xiao jiale, will you be proud of me? the me who is going to be 19 in no time?
perhaps i should ask myself this; am i proud of me?
since xiao jiale and da jiale and even the future lao jiale are all me.
i never felt like i changed.
maybe in some ways.
but i still feel like im me everytime.
im always me.
xiao jiale should still feel the same way as i feel now.
perhaps some things you experienced taught you not to be so naive, so gullible, so carefree anymore.
and those things might have also taught you to be more caring, more understanding, more thoughtful.
it's just give and take, xiao jiale.
when you lose something, you gain something.
are you proud of me?
please be proud.
if you are not proud of yourself, who will?
you have to trust yourself first.
yes, i have made mistakes in the past.
i will try and correct them and remember not to commit the same errors again in the future.
and i will make sure our tomorrow will be bright okay. :)
for now, i am just happy that xiao jiale was who she was. same goes for da jiale. no regrets.

a quote from i-dunoe-who-or-where, 'Life is too short for regrets.' ^^