stuck, forever.

have you ever touched your face after tearing/crying?
do you feel that same stickiness i did on your face where tears has rolled down?
these tears seem to be the underlying feelings or emotions you have for a certain person.
even if the cause is a drama, it meant that you are able to relate due to a specific someone.
and the sticky aftereffect seems to be telling you how you will be stuck to that person, forever.
the feelings you have felt will never go away, since it already happened.
and the memories you share w that someone will always be there.
memories are the most most most precious belonging anyone could have.
and this is probably why i fear dying, because i fear that i would forget all these memories that i have now, if i were to reincarnate aft i die.
i would never want to forget anything.
and i am trying my best to note them down as i go along in my life.
it is really important to me.
and to you, i will always remember you.
there are so much memories we share that it seems to be overflowing.
i promise that i will forever treasure these memories, as proof that you were alive, with us.
it still hurts that you are no longer here to create more memories, and be prepared to receive scoldings from me when i see you next time.
i miss your voice and your smell and your touch.
i still remember how i dare not touch you when i first saw you in that state.
i guess i was afraid of that cold touch where i would have to admit that fact.
up till now, honestly, i still want to run from that reality.
but i will learn to live with it.
i will be able to do so, but that doesn't mean you will be forgotten.
i love you, forever and always.