A small part of my emotional breakdown is probably due to my pms,
But i know it is probably mostly due to you.
I din wanna admit it, because i have been pretending that i alr got over you.
Admitting it seems to be worse than just severe emotional breakdown,
It seems to be acknowledging the fact that my world is crumbling down to nothing.
And partly, is that i dun wanna blame this on you.
Scrolled through tumblr and then i saw this confession made by someone.
He or she said that his/her father passed on 10 years ago, and up till now, he/she haven got over it.
What if i am like that too?
I always thought the hardest part of my life was over.
But who knows there are even tougher times.
Tao, ahma has got dementia.
How? Din you say you wanna take care of her?
Now all the aunties and uncles have to take turns to accompany her.
The doctor says her mentality is that of a 2yo.
She will always need someone to be by her side.
Tao, why am i not strong?
I want to be strong, but my will is not helping.
I give up too easily.
I tried to spur myself on, and failed.
Now it seems like i wanna cry all day long.
Thank you sebas. For making me laugh geuninely.
I love screaming at someone just for fun, not because i am mad.
And we always screamed at each other calling each other names and asking each other to fuck off but we never got offended.
Thank you for you.
Thank you for listening me rant like mad though i kept repeating the same stuffs until i got all my points across and thank you for understanding me.
YOU ARE MY BFF AKA BEST FAT FRIEND MUAHAHAHAHA!!
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