it's not the first time i am feeling this way, and i brought it up to you more than once or twice.
to you, your answer is always wanting me to accept this for this is who you originally are.
but is that really so?
because to be honest, this is not the you whom you showed me at the start.
yes you have not changed, probably.
but yet you have changed the side of you you decided to show me.
it's one thing to be comfortable, yet another to show that you are putting in effort.
to me, you are not putting in enough effort.
and i dun think i am asking too much, i am definitely not.
you never ever really listen to my requests, but deny/condemn them straight away.
you never ever really asked what i want, but just push away my expectations saying that they are too high to reach without truly listening.
you said all these, but do you really know what i want? what i truly want?
you may say you don't know, but when i talk about it, do you ask?
do you even care enough to ask?
and then sometimes, the things i do for you, i feel unappreciated, so much so unappreciated, but i still try my best to do something special to you.
because to me, if i fail to make you feel special, it should be my fault, even so, i will be more motivated to try harder to think up of newer ideas.
what about you?
i miss the then you.
i miss that side of you.