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:)) i guess what i have been looking for is always by my side. just that i didn't open my eyes wide enough to look, didn't open my heart enough to feel. :)) i just want to see you smile everyday and be happy. okies maybe not literally SEE you smile. as long as i know you are smiling and happy then that's enough for me. :)) actually i'm not as understanding as you think i am. :// but at least you felt better with what i'm doing. :)) then i know i'm doing the right thing. :))

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today went to SC meeting as per normal. VERY VERY VERY TIRED AH. T.T did all our work. was pms-ing the whole day and not having a good mood ah. then everyone say don't annoy me. HAHAHAX! :PP just feeling a little unusually cranky.

left and went to fajar. emo-ed emo-ed. talked on the phone with bi and then guowei. thanks guowei ahhh! :)) thank you SO SO SO the much. :)) told me alot of things and advised alot. :)) and gave me courage to do what i should to do. :)) XIE XIE NI AH! :))

and btw i think i can't escape the TRM camp now. :(( but i would only go for two days. do i still have the pay the full sum? hahahax! i can't use BAOC as an excuse!! WHY!?!? WHY!?!?!? :(( haiz. poor me and janet. HAHAX!

left fajar and went to plaza. coincidentally i met james on the way. hahahax. but paiseh ah nv really chat with you. cause was on the phone with janet about trm camp. reached plaza and went to find bi and wilson at xin wang taiwan. ate there. :)) thanks bi. thanks for accompanying me to wait for the bus. thanks for the things you said. :))

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i am so dead beat. :(( i sdnly hope that i can have a short break and get away from BAOC. ://

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i like walking in the rain when i'm feeling sad, not cause the rain camouflages my tears, not cause the rain would wash my sadness away, not cause i would fall sick due to the rain and you would care, but cause the rain seems to understand fully how i feel.

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i love the boy who keeps touching my lips because he finds it soft. <33