I should let myself cry again; instead of trying so hard to hold them back.
What for? seriously.
How much so I'd like to point at you and say, 'You don't understand. You really don't.', because you don't.
How much so I'd hope that you could give me the reassurances and the reliability that I need.
I feel like I have leaped in the past few years, and you are still there, in that same spot.
Come closer to me, I really really want you to be so much closer to me.... even if I am trying so hard to push you back at the same time.
It's a dilemma, a double-edged sword.
I am killing myself.