it gets tiring sometimes.

not that i am pretending, just that i want to be that way.
for what seems like the longest time, a huge burden laid on my heart, my shoulders, my mind.
yes, there are times when i feel happy, happier, or merely less miserable.
but i seem to become incapable of being truly happy, the feeling of being satisfied with everything in my life.
something in me is incomplete, the feeling of not having a part of me anymore, like i am missing something.
and i am tired of it.
after watching shinee's wonderful day, i yearn to have a vacation like them too.
i want to go to a place which will help me forget all my worries.
i want to do things which makes me feel the simple happiness from my heart.
it will be refreshing, and a brand new start.
i will be able to forget everything bad that happened before and restart.
up till this point, i am still waiting for something to happen, and i don't know what i am waiting for.
there is still hope in me that you will come back, or that it was just all a dream.
do i need some counseling? to wake me up, to help me cope with this.
time will help me fade all these off right?
i will get used to it, and then will be able to ignore it right?
as much as i am appreciative about the people around me, i will never be able to get you back.
i want to coop up at home so much so that i feel unhappy every time i go out...
i need a really long walk, i need to go somewhere, somewhere different.
i just want to keep walking and walking and perhaps get in touch with nature.
i want to forget, i just want to forget and pretend for the time being.




random song which is also one of those that i am into recently.