everytime i see you rushing for me so that my waiting time cuts short,
everytime i see you agreeing to buy me all the ridiculously expensive things i want even tho i din to not spend your money,
everytime i see you worrying over the amount of cash in my wallet,
everytime i see you nodding your head with your eyes closed, listening to all my rants and cries even tho you are so damn sleepy, and you actually can repeat whatever i said when i tot you are just nodding for the sake of nodding,
everytime i see you laugh at all my silly questions and presumptions,
it's like they are reminders of why i love you so much.

i really can't answer your qns if i will be as sad or sadder if you were in tao's position, because it's too devastating to even imagine it.
so i can't answer you, since i don't really know the answer myself.
please take good care of yourself, and dun let me go through another similar pain alright.




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sigh i haven't finish studying econs but whatever, it's time for me to get on my bed and nua a little while and sleeeeeeeep.