lazy me

hi i know i have been really lazy about posting pictures on my blog though i really want to but i'm okay really lazy, to transport all those photos into the macbook and post here.

more probably to post if i have my own laptop back?

i hopeeee.

just that the things that i am gonna update about on would be the events and happenings that happened before ortao's accident, sooo it's kind of touching the wound which haven healed.

it will probably never heal, just need to learn to live with it, and well, i haven't really coped with it yet so... so be it.

i will update probably next month? or the next which is like around march..?

actually i came up here to talk about something random again.

i forgot what i wanna say and okay now i suddenly remembered again so i better get into the topic before i forget AGAIN.

well, how do you define people as treating you well?

for me, it's definitely not material goods though i am someone who loves receiving presents/money hahaha but sometimes i'd rather not receive anything rather than receiving something i dun really like.

what about you?

i actually judge how well someone treats me by their actions.

simple right?

andddd i am kind of anal, cause i judge you by the smallest actions you do.

to me, it's the smallest tiniest action that actually matter, don't you think so?

every kiss you blow me, every wave you give me, every passionate hug, every pat on the back, every 'let me help you with it', every 'you need ___?', every little thing, it matters so much to me.

people might think, "what for? i didn't even notice it", and you might call me sensitive, but that's the way i am.

honestly, it's the little things that matter, isn't it?

it's these little things which show that you really care, and that you mind, and that you truly love me.

it's because you matter, because i love you, and that's why i am paying you some extra special attention.

i think this kind of makes sense.

sooooo, don't find me sensitive to certain small things, because it's these that portray your true heart.

at least that's the way i see it.

if in my judgement, you are not doing enough, then it's probably you not doing enough to cherish me, because you don't make me feel like i am important to you.

it's the same reason why people like handmade gifts more than those bought.

it's just closer to the heart, and it somehow feels like you can feel the heart and sincerity of the person making it.

but of course, not everyone have good craft works hahaha but i am just sayingggg.

ohh and on a side note, my eye basically recovered! yay!

but doc's advise is to never wear contact lens anymore ohmylife hahaha i have been wearing it for like five years now!? that's crazy.

hahaha and he said if i really wanna wear like for cny, best is to wear for a short amt of time.

he said that i was really lucky that my eye ulcer (the infection) is at the edge of my pupil.

if it's in the middle, my sight would be affected ohmyfuckinggod thank god i din turn blind.

i think it must be tao and ahgong watching over me :')

sigh start saving money to do lasik liao lohhhh.

somehow i feel like this is a warning from lao tian ye that i should not wear contact lens anym or i should take more proper care of my eyes.

sigh okay i really only wear on cny and on my bday only kay. lolol this year 21st let me be pretty one last time D:

feel like buying a pair of frameless glasses so it doesn't seem like i'm wearing any lolol.

okay shall see how things go~~~~~

thankgod for all the pretty things that i am able to see. :')

i love my eyes so much they not only can see beautiful things they are beautiful themselves too omgg despite their sizes are a little different hahaha but yay thankgod for my BEAUTIFUL EYES.

eyes oh eyes please never fail me i trust that you will be fabulous for the rest of my life okay :') hehe

attempt to feed my blog a pic.....