HAPPY ME

yes, i am really significantly happier, more carefree and everything the past few days! :D
happy girl is me!
despite me having pms at the same time hahahaha.
went to gardens by the bay for the first time on sat and i will post the pictures up here soon i guess. hehe. just wait okay. i know it's been super long since i last posted pictures hehe.

and i'm just here and wanna talk about my amazement at how people can understand each other so well that they know what the other party is thinking just by looking at their little actions.
it's like how i merely tip-toed a few times discretely and tay knows that i need to pee HAHA.
and when eating i just need to give him a look and he will know that i am full or i dun like the food or i'm having some probs w it - like when it's too spicy or hot.
okay i'm having really random thoughts tonight.

yet again, sometimes i think people should not be defined by what their actions, esp those in the past, because this actually kind of restricts everyone in being who they really wanna be.
it's like people really DO try to live up to others' expectations, even the bad ones.
for example, my parents see me as a bad-tempered kid, which i admit i am hahaha, but it's like when i want to change and try to improve my temper, the way they treat me is like i am bad-tempered so i somehow or rather acted that way too, if you get what i am trying to say haha.
i think there is no absolute as to who you are.
nobody can be defined as everything and everyone is changing all the time.
i once wrote here that i am a being of contradictions.
i am cheerful yet grim, optimistic yet pessimistic, childish yet mature, easily contented yet easily discontented, easy-going yet picky, and the list goes on....
you see, everyone is a mixture of everything, and whoever you are depends on the situations, how you react may even differ in the same situations if it occurs at different times.
so don't define me, because i am going to change, and of course i wanna change to become a better person!
don't be restricted as to who you want to be, because there are endless impossibilities as to who you can be. be anyone you want! from a mermaid to a multi-billionaire!
but the one most important underlying condition is, have faith in yourself :)


having faith seems to be something that is increasingly difficult to achieve.
many people don't really have faith, more so in humanity.
i feel kind of sad, to see that though :/
people always laugh at me for being gullible, or some scolded me for like donating for fear of getting cheated by them.
but what if they really needed our help?
on the other hand, i feel ironic about those people who have no faith in humanity and yet are complaining about it.
well, if you complain, then i guess you are the one who should make some effort and do something about it.
we are all part of what that makes up humanity right? since we are part of that, then we should be able to make a change.
it's a cycle.
you have no faith in humanity, you dun believe in it, you act in a negative way, humanity dwindles in a downward spiral and then you have even less faith in it.
what an evil cycle.
i say, let us all play our part to make this cycle a good and pure one! ^^
hehehe.


okay another big jump from this topic, the sandy hook incident :(
i got really upset about this incident because of the lovely children and school personnel who got involved and victimised.
idk what to say, but can only pray w good wishes for their families.
may their souls rest well.