okay after typing about that long post on life, it's time for me to plan my bangkok trip with tay which is starting tml!! hahahaha and i haven't even packed my bags and he already did so days before.
feeling so lazy to start but our flight is tml!!! OMGGG.
and yes i have been whining about how poor i am and it's true hahahaha and tay is probably gonna pay for our expenses during the trip T^T
gonna start work next monday at dear adeline's company and lovelove to her for introducing me in there and i can't wait to start looking at those lovely and friendly people who tried to make me and apple, the other new girl, feel at ease!! <3
and after i start work and earn my pay it's time to payback!!
gonna work very hard to earn lots of money and i wanna give my mum some money, give tay some money cause he have been paying for my stuffs and also treat my family and friends to all kinds of lovely things!! hehehehehe.

currently, i love life! <3

just a little something about life.

quarreled with tay a few days back and well, it wasn't exactly pleasant hahahaha.
he is always saying that i'm picking a fight but to me, well, i was just being honest and straightforward and possibly tactlessly blunt. :/
i'm always ready to blurt out all kinds of unhappiness and irritation in me, with no intentions to hold them in at all.
he is always comparing about our levels of tolerance and i have to admit, i am not a patient person as compared to him. and.... he will only rage if i'm raging in the first place. although most of the times he just bottles those feelings within himself.

i always felt that i was right, i mean right in the sense that i just shout and scream when i feel angry. i think it's important to vent out whatever i am feeling to make myself feel better.
but then again, is this really right?

i have never considered the fact that the people around me would feel hurt or upset by the sharp words i spoke when i'm angry.
some people say that truthful words are only spoken when one is angry, but i beg to differ.
okay it's not that i'm saying that i'm lying when i spoke those words i did because i truly meant them, but only at that point in time when my brain and thoughts were covered by the red veil of anger.
other people say 'don't make decisions when you are angry', and well, i agree with this to a certain extent.
an explanation to this line is that you shouldn't make decisions when you are angry because they will be made based on the conclusions you tend to set which are probably wrong.
there is a next line to this saying but yea it has nothing to do with the topic of anger management i'm touching on today soooooooo... hahahahahaha.

anger really does blind you, it denies you the fact that there are hundreds or thousands or millions of other possibilities instead of the one conclusion that you jumped into and couldn't escape before the red fiery sea consumed you.

and many of the times, i thought exposing him (as in knowing which unpleasant feelings he has without him telling me such as embarrassment, anger, unhappiness and exposing them) was a way to show or even prove how much i understand him to perhaps selfishly reassure myself.
okay maybe sometimes it's alright to say them out, when i just want to tease him.
but sometimes, it's not understanding to voice them out blatantly like that. perhaps it's more understanding to just know that i know and realising that he doesn't have to know that i know and just do things to make him feel better or even more comfortable.

sometimes he really knows how to deal with me.
and i only hate it when i said that i would do something out of anger but somehow he knows that i wouldn't and just spill that fact right at my face and i could just feel this shame wash over me and would be adamant to prove him wrong by doing just that but then again like what he already knew, i couldn't do it.

i will work harder and try and train myself to be a better person.
thank you for always being able to point out my weaknesses and yet accept them the way they are and staying with me despite being at the losing end of all the arguments, no matter big or small, all the time.
thank you for loving and hating me all at one go. hahahahahaha.
i love/hate you tooooo.




okay, i love you a lot more. <3

Diablo 3

/Tay plays diablo 3...

Me: why the monsters only got spiders one so sian..
Tay: got alot what. Later you see.
/Tay goes to the next level.
Tay: you seeeee
/spiders sprouting from everywhere
Me: -_- also spidersssss
Tay: ermmm.. Got alot of different kinds of spiders what. Poisonous spiders, fire spiders


And so i conclude that diablo is a fighting spider game hahahaha

HI

this is an entry in an attempt to cheer myself up hahahahaha.


and you know how i have been obsessing myself with yoochun?
okay in case you dk i have been going gaga over yoochun for quite some time (tay fully experienced the impact hahahaha) and here is our yoochun:

AND THEN!!
it seems like jjong can feel that one of his sg fans a.k.a. me is falling head over heels over someone else
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and he did all these in the recent concert to attract my attention:

yes he cried!!


yes my dear jjong dun cry you've still got most of my heart <3

AND HE FREAKING STRIPPED:






OKAY YES BB YOU GOT MY ATTENTION BACK OMGGGG.
was showing tay his body and kept saying 'YOU SEE NICE HORH NICE HORH' tay merely replied 'okay loh normal loh' i suspect he is jealous hahahahahaha.

OMGGGG that boobs of his omg it's like a cushion i wanna lie on them HAHAHAHAHAHA. okay too over but let me fantasize and fangirl abit lah. also wun come true anywayyyyyy.
hahahaha and all these photos and vids are what clara showed me. aiya for now i no time to go find or go tumblrrrrr.

HAHAHA why he train his body until so perfectttt.
AND THE BEST PART IS SHINEE WORLD II IS COMING TO SG WOOHOOOOOO I AM SO HAPPY HAHAHAHAHAHA and though i am broke now i will make sure i earn enough money to go okay HAHAAHAHAHA I CANNOT MISS SEEING NAKED JJONGGGGG!!!!!






okay anyway a retarded conversation between me and tay:
ME: why guys always watch porn? got so nice meh? dun see cannot!?
TAY: same as to why you like to see your gor hyung (how he calls jonghyun.... -_-) or whoever naked ma.

Retarded insecurities.

I am fully aware that this is extremely retarded but sometimes i just feel insecure. Towards friends. Yes friends.

As my life slowly becomes stagnant and nothing much seems to be happening to me and as im as close to all my closest friends as i am right now, all of a sudden i just feel that i dun have anything interesting to say.
I have become someone rather quiet? O.O
Idk what to say.
And sometimes im afraid of being forgotten by them.
Even if i become uninteresting as less dramas happen to my life, you all will still stand by me right? D: 

There are so many friends that i miss but im just afraid to ask them out and when they do, im not free. As im gonna embark on a life of working and studying at the same time, i need to start sorting out my time and life and spend them with those precious ones. :(

I miss ahyi clara and ade particularly.
The ones closest to me in poly ohmy am i gonna cry? Hahahaha.
 It always feel like we dun spend enough time tgthr. D:
I spent too much time with you guys in poly that i dun feel comfortable without seeing you guys for so long i guess. D:

 Okay abrupt ending but i reached khatib. Bye.

life at GE

anywayyy, i have worked at Great Eastern during the period of mid march to mid june and here are some random pics i took during work~~

there will be tons of selcas cause im forever feeling bored during work hahahahaha.

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wahahaha my desk and the corner of tibits and powder for drinks but you dun see much there cause at the time of taking this pic i have yet to stock up hahaha.

TADAAA my milo packet which i put at my tibits corner thereafter.

kekeke my desk.

and the only entrance beside my then desk. enables me to take note when the supervisor is coming over hahahaha.

:D

yummy jiji wanton meeee!! i'm always having them hahahaha.

and this lormee is pretty nice tooo!! it's just a stall or two beside my jiji wanton mee hehehe. and the bandung soya milk from keke is nice toooo! the stalls are all along the same stretch. hahaha.

MOI AGAIN~

and look at the stack and number of staplers i removed. and this is not all okay. i alr threw away a bigger pile and i was just taking a rest and took this pic.

the day i couldnt be bothered to put on my contacts hahaha.

TADAAAAAAAA!!!

the stuffs i bring to work to eat/drink hahaha.

ikea style hahahahaha.

THIS HOT CHOCOLATE IS SUPERB!!!! introduced by caspar hahahah.

i moved and this was my view at the new position before i pulled up the blinds hahaha. at least i got a windows seat though the view outside might as well be a picture since there are almost no movements at all.

sometimes when i'm REALLLLYYYY bored i try staring into the windows of the buildings opp and watch the people walk around in their offices. -_- yes i'm that bored.

this is the day the sole of my wedge came off. :( and auntie constance gave me a rubber band to tie it tgthr. D:

the little dolls which accompanied as i worked hahaha. not mine~ left by the person who was originally sitting at this seat.

OMFG at the stacks of papers i had to complete and it was increasing as i am i trying to decrease it. hahahaha. a race against my typing skills and auntie constance's scanning skills.

you think scan one paper faster or type finish the info of one paper faster? :(

paper cut D: ouch.

TADA told you i got lots of selcas alr hehehe. and tay got this pic of mine in his phone and i edited it until it looked like a monster with huge innocent eyes and thick succulent sexy lips HAHAHA.

wanted to change the pic on the left to something else but it kept saying that i have reached my photo upload quota cause my picasa web album is full so cannot upload any photos but why i can upload to my blog entries lehhh???? :/ sian.
and then, i started looking through all those photos.
and i started reading all those posts i did more than two years back.
omg. why i so twit.
omg. why i so act cute.
hahahahahahha.
maybe two years later when i see this post i would find the past (as in now) me disgusting again.
and i was reallllllyyyy mushy then. HAHAHA.
buay tahan the younger me.
though it was great and happy times i have to admit.

i enjoyed then quite alot as i can tell by the photos myself.
we loved and parted.
often, there is this feeling which bothers me.
sometimes i wonder about the what ifs. but mostly i would think of the friendship/relationship we shared.
this is cheesy and cliche but to me it was magical? the way you knew me and the way i knew you.
sometimes when i think back i felt that it was a pity we din get to keep what we shared till now.
you knew and understood me so well to the point that when we were talking about one topic, you knew how my brain would link to which irrelevant topic and bring it up to me.
it's almost as if you could literally read my mind hahahaha.
you were one of my very best friends. but yea the point is 'were'.
there are certain places which reminds me of only you. but i smile when i think of them instead of feeling sad.
i very often wonder how you are now, and i want to personally tell you that i'm doing real fine. and i love someone who loves me as much as i love him.
and even though he disturbs me i disturb him even more. and despite him hating me doing so, he still loves me all the same.
he is really the one for me i guess :)
i really want to tell you that i am happy now.
and somehow, i want us to be like before. though i'm not sure if this will come true.
everything was short, but beautiful.
the wonderful memories left behind was great for reminiscing. :) thank you.

ONE CONQUERED.

I AM DONE WITH ECONS!! WEEPEE!!

okay in case you dk, i am currently taking part-time bridging courses in maths and econs in SIM-UOL so i can exempted for one year.

IM SURE YOU KNOW ONE hahahahaha.

anywayyy, ytd aftnn was my econs paper and thanks to my super awesome econs teacher i think i am able to score pass pretty well since this is a pass or fail module anywayy hehehe dun nd to get flying rainbows wahahahaha.

maths is gonna be on tml aftnn!!!!

and sigh my 'exam habit' since poly did not fade, and that is to start slacking straight aft the first paper ended. :( (though i actually started slacking before the first paper even started HAHAHA)

i even finished rooftop prince hahahaha.

rooftop prince is such a great show omggggg i teared so much at the ending cause it was so touching and i made myself go to bed cause it was alr 1plus and i planned to wake up early to study for abit and while i was lying in bed thinking of the ending i felt so touched and happy again i teared HAHA okay retarded much.

IT IS SUCH A NICE SHOW AND I HAVE NOT FALLEN IN LOVE SO DEEP EVER SINCE GUMIHO. :')

please go watch both they are high up on my favourite dramas list. <3

GUMIHOOOOOO!! oh how i miss themmmm. shall rewatch soon!!

and now im currently in love withhhhhh.....

OHMY YOOCHUN

i absolutely ADOREEEE him in specs omfgggg. <3 <3

HAHAHA my current obsession. keeping jonghyun in mind though. 

seriously omgggg and choi woo sik IS SO CUTE TOOOO.

yes he is the one in the yellow training suit HAHAHA.

sighhhhh oh my i'm supposed to study maths now okay bye hahahaha i will come back sooooon!!!

Forever (?)

ME: you think we will be tgthr for the rest of our lives?
TAY: /nods
ME: wahh you can tahan me being like this ah? :D
TAY: /nods
ME: you like me being like this right!? :D:D
TAY: /shakeshead
ME: :(

My Man.

"@ Nikki_Eyezax: I have a man that loves me as I am, but somehow still inspires me to be a better person"

I certainly do :)

My Birthday Celebrations

OKAYY so i backtracked my own blog and i found out where i left off keke.

just gonna blog according to my pictures kay. heh.

soooo it just so happens that this entry is going to be about all the birthday celebrations that my beloved ppl had for me! weepee! ^^

first up!

rewinding to two days before my bday itself,

i went to tay's hse to nua(?) and he passed me the bday present he bought for me 2 months back hehehe.

and most of you probably have alr seen it in real life HAHAHA but stilllllllll...

please let me show off abit HIAHIA.

he bought me a bag!! during the sale that NiMe held in feb! OMG luxury goods okay. branded bags HAHAHA. though i was so scared that i would dirty/spoil it but he said, 'spoil alr buy another one loh' OMG IS THIS THE THRIFTY TAY YIN JI I KNEW!?!? HAHAHA

 hi this is me parading with the bag while looking very chui. i have to state that he insisted on taking these photos D:

OMG WHO IS THIS PRETTY GIRL WITH THE PRETTY PINK BAG.

HAHAHA hope he dun kill me.

AHAHAHA he kept saying pink suits me and that the red will remind me of him (his fave colour is red) why is he so retarded!?!?

ANYWAYYY, i went to NiMe's fb page and i saw that they are having another sale soooon!!

OMGG OKAYY. and LOOK!! it's like the autumn/winter 2012 collection okay. IN TREND ONE HORH!!

okay have no idea why i am advertising for them but they remind me of a happy surprise that tay did for me so i'm feeling all happy hehehe.

tay bought this agnes b bag for me for S$500 (IKR I CANT BELIEVE HE SPENT SO MUCH) andddd im sure it costs much more soooo THOSE WHO IS FEELING RICH CAN GO DOWN TO HAVE A LOOK.

ohh and that time when tay went to their sale he said there was a looooong queue soo be there early!! dun have to buy bags can also buy wallets okayy!!

i have half a mind to go down HAHAHA but i cant really make myself use branded stuffs. too stressed lololol.

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OKAYYY so the next day, i was supposed to meet my girls at town to celebrate my birthday.

and then as i was preparing while watching the tv, i heard lots of clings and clangs in my kitchen. and even the kitchen door is shut.

seeing that everyone is in the living room watching tv, i asked my mum who was in the kitchen and she was like '就是那个。。。(is that...)' and she stopped halfway and continued watching the tv. LOUSY ACTING.

i kind of suspected something else was going on but i shook off that thought thinking that it's probably the plumber or whoever cause my mum is always asking ppl to check the toilet stuffs or fix this and that.

and thank god i did not enter the kitchen or walk near my house's doorstep and see alllll the shoes left there.

and also to qiqi who kept commenting on my makeup and making redo them over and over again. 

and so i did not spoil my own surprise. HAHAHA.

and when ahyi appeared at my study room's doorway with an irritated tone saying 'so you want to faster come eat lunch anot!?!?' i was so shocked that i stared right at her and screamed while she faced me with a bewildered look 'WHY THE HELL YOU SCREAM!?'

HAHAHAHA and so my retarded girls were cooking in my kitchen and they made me a birthday spread~~ and then we blew the candles on the cake they bought~~

look at the happy people looking all happy cause their surprise succeeded despite being so noisy HAHA.

and i look so 淑女 or rather lady-like wearing like this HAHA but at the same time i look so long-ish. okay abit weird HAHA.

hehehe so touched they cooked all these esp my favourite pastaaaaaa!!

i love pastas HAHA and esp when i was craving for cabonara at that time and that's what they made!!

<3 <3 for all HEHEHEHE.

cut the red cake which you can see in the middle of the table in the first few pics and ate it with everybody kekeke.

so sian everyone wear until so nua except for me cause i tot we were heading to town HAHAHA. overdresseddddd.

and my mum insisted on taking photos of me/us before we left my hse soooo here you go!

aiyo the first pic i look so shy my cheeks so pink hehehe. ^^

and ohh i have to add this: i was wearing shorts but it's just that this top was too long okay.

anywayyy, went to sbw shopping centre after leaving and we originally planned to sing some k at teoheng but it was too full so we went to giant instead. TO DO WHAT? TO BUY INGREDIENTS FOR SOME STEAMBOATING AT CLARA'S!! HAHAHAHA.

okay so we had a super full dinner (and lunch cause they cooked far too much) HAHA and i enjoyed my day very much hehehe.

ahh i miss my girls. <3 feels so long since i last seen them. <3

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DENG DENG DENG DENGGGG!!!

and we have arrived on the birthday of yours truly. hehehe.

supposed to meet tay early in the morning at queensway shopping centre but the birthday girl overslept and he had to come over and fetch me hehehe.

on our way~~

went over to our original meeting place to have some katong laksa and curry chicken rice/bread which i have been craving for KEKEKE.

HAPPY TAY IS HAPPY! okay these pics just made me hungry :(

GO TO THE ONE WHICH IS FURTHER FROM THE ENTRANCE. THAT'S MY FAVE ONE!! though i have never tried the other one but gw and gang have always brought me to this one hehe.
okay and i'm not sure how many entrances are there but it's the one facing the cross junction to ikea!!

then we went over to hort park (which i din know that we could have walked since it's only one bus stop away and we missed the right bus stop and had to walk one bus stop back okay retarded) to walk walkkk.
and i heard that we could walk to henderson wave from there soooo just went to walk in order not to be suaku HEHH.

PICS OVERLOAD ALERT!!!!

it's like you can see through the 'floor' of this longgg bridge.

there are lots of like paths which you can take but it will lead you down to the ground level lah.

which is like nature paths for you to walk.

and tay was holding my hand so freaking tightly while walking through this i think he almost died HAHAHA but honestly when you focus on the ground instead of the 'flooring' it's kind of scary.

clara confirm die here too. HAHAHAHA.

tsktsk all the people who vandalised the bamboos.

and it tempted us to do the same too HAHAHA. no lah kidding. also no space alrrr. though tay tall enough to reach lah hahahaha.

BANANAAAAAAA

do you see the red crested black birdie!?!? so prettayeeeeee.

see this retarded boy acting cute hahahaha.

sighhh he wore so nice cause it was my birthday but he sweated so much from the hiking and he even carried my bag for me. heh. <3

embracing the pretty nature :):)

MAPPPPP. click for a bigger image and see how far we have walked. D:

it's my birthday and idk why i had to take all these retarded photos hahahaha.

and soooo....

REVENGE TIME HAHAHA.

HENDERSON WAVE WO LAI LEEEEE!!

HAHAHA the statue of Sir Stamford Raffles and the Statue of Liberty HAHAHA.

okay anyhow bomb one.

city skylineeee~ (kind of)

another map to show you where we are were!!!

pretty placeeee. uncle behind spoil me photo :(

we were alr dead beat after reaching the top hahahaa.

CABLE CARRR. almost took this back to vivo hahaha retarded.

din continue the walk till the end and instead cabbed to vivo cause it seemed like it was going to rain with the gale and dark skies :(

YUP WE WENT HAAGEN DAZS omggg boy who is feeling rich cause of me <3

pardon my chui face hahahaha and we bought the icecream macaroons and icecream with brownie i have no idea why i have no photos of those soo tooooo bad. 

you can just imagine and be jealous AHAHAHAHA.

walked around and the two of us shopped loads hahahaha of course i pampered myself with new clothes hehehehe.

went home at night and tried on my new clothes (now considered old liao lah HAHA) and kind of celebrated my bday with my family with the cakeeeeee!!

i forgot what we were laughing about and what was so funny hahaha but i'm happy seeing that we are happy :D

ME LOVE!!

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and so the day after my birthdayyyy,

i had dinner with limguoweiiii!! hahahaha

so ps he spent so much for this dinner hehehe but he kept saying nvm and kept urging me to buy more siao one he think i can eat so much!?!?

PEEKTURESSS!!

HERE IS WHERE WE HAD OUR DINNER

WHY YOU THINK SO LONG!?!?
and come to think of it, nowadays almost everytime i see him he's wearing that red jacket....
WHY!!?!?!? O.O

HIS

MINE OH I LOVE PASTA AND PRAWNS <3

HIS FACE SO CHUBBY HAHAHAHAHA

OUR CAKESSS which he insisted on getting and i almost couldnt finish them cause i was soooo full D:

went to find anson after that and well, okay not that happy but it was alright. :)

AND SOOOO,

THIS IS PRETTY MUCH ABOUT MY BIRTHDAY CELEBRATIONS THIS YEAR HAHAHA.

why am i so blissful and lucky to have so many lovely people around me!?!? hehehehehe.

OHH and not to forget, i went for a birthday dinner with ahbe, guowei (again HAHA), yingjie, james, josh and kenneth choo at crystal jade la mian xiao long bao at taka!!! hehehe.

their food werent as nice as before i guessssss.... :( the menu changed since i last ate them which was realllllyyyy long ago sigh but i am still happy with so much love from so many people HEHEHE. <3

okay i started this post last night (7july) and i only finished it now D: okay tata till the next postttt!! <3