Retarded insecurities.

I am fully aware that this is extremely retarded but sometimes i just feel insecure. Towards friends. Yes friends.

As my life slowly becomes stagnant and nothing much seems to be happening to me and as im as close to all my closest friends as i am right now, all of a sudden i just feel that i dun have anything interesting to say.
I have become someone rather quiet? O.O
Idk what to say.
And sometimes im afraid of being forgotten by them.
Even if i become uninteresting as less dramas happen to my life, you all will still stand by me right? D: 

There are so many friends that i miss but im just afraid to ask them out and when they do, im not free. As im gonna embark on a life of working and studying at the same time, i need to start sorting out my time and life and spend them with those precious ones. :(

I miss ahyi clara and ade particularly.
The ones closest to me in poly ohmy am i gonna cry? Hahahaha.
 It always feel like we dun spend enough time tgthr. D:
I spent too much time with you guys in poly that i dun feel comfortable without seeing you guys for so long i guess. D:

 Okay abrupt ending but i reached khatib. Bye.