everyone can condemn me and my thoughts and ideas, except for you.
is it wrong to have an exceptionally higher expectations from you?
but it's you.
you are not supposed to find me annoying/irritating/stupid/dumb.
you are just not supposed to.
can't you see that i have my mature side too?
can't you see that i am trying my best too?
i just cannot take it that you are seeing me as who everyone is seeing me as too.
i just can't.
you are not supposed to treat me the same way.
you are not.
i wonder how long i can go on taking this.
i wonder.

i know how you feel i know how you think.
i just want you to show it more.
sorry that i'm such a superficial person.
and the very least i can do is to be honest and upfront about it.





reasons why i have idols:
they never hurt me and yet never fail to make me smile.
but fuck they will never be able to replace you.