i'm so grumpy.

i'm so grumpy.

i'm so grumpy.

i'm a complain queen.

i can't stop complaining.

i'm killing myself with my grumpiness.

i can't lift my mood up.

i can barely smile nowadays.

can you feel how grumpy i am over here?

i am grumps.

i don't feel like me.

i can cry like any moment whilst i am here.

i don't even have the energy to work.

strolling in the park is a nice way of describing how i walk during work.

walking like the zombies in L4D is then the not-so-nice description.

i want me back so badly.

i need to go out. go far far away. i just need to go out to playyy.

but it's so far from everywhere here.

and i feel like dying everytime i step out of my room into the bathroom.

how do i even step out into the freezing cold outside? :/

the happy me on monday disappeared with a poof like she nv existed.

this sucks.

i know how people have been encouraging me.

but it's kind of useless?

cause i can't think of anyone of you who would understand.

i am probably someone who needs to be working/literally doing something all the time.

i feel like i can't just waste my time here.

it's like degrading me? if you get what i mean.

i need to get a move on with life. :/

okay probably certain guys who are undergoing ns now might understand how i feel right now.

it's like you are stuck, and you feel like you are neither here nor there, just stuck and unable to move forward not cause you din try or you refuse too, but cause the circumstances bound you tight.

sigh. okay i should stop complaining.

though it doesnt stop my thoughts from running to wherever it wants to.

bye.