i was shocked at my own emotional response, and therefore reacted far too exaggeratedly that i eventually din know how to end it.
i'm sorry.
should have never acted that way. should have never threw my tantrum.
i have no idea what this means.
perhaps i slowly became like you? in the sense that these doesn't matter to me anymore. cause to you these are always trivial and somehow i changed my perspectives as well without me knowing it?
i could never understand why you can always seem so nonchalant. but now, i feel like i am the one being nonchalant.
it's like a 'so what?' and 'whatever....' situation. it's just nothing. just that i used to make everything out of nothing that i am shocked that i sdnly felt like it's nothing?
maybe that's how it's supposed to be and perhaps i have overcame that 'fear' which accompanied me for the past five years. O.O
cause i rmb i used to be like this, like right now, five years ago - nonchalant. HAHA.
i know what i said to you last night and i don't know how much hurt it caused you.
sigh. :/
i'm sorry i love you.