i dunoe where to go to express my joy that i will be seeing that suckertay's face in like in one week and two days' timeeeeeee.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!
you dunoe how happy i am though one week and two days doesnt seem that short actually. HAHAHAHA.

and of course WEEPEE to seeing my family in less one week's time HIAHIAHIA.
i am such a fortunate girl to have so much love from so many peopleeeeeeee~~

though i am often greedy as i want moreeeeee. HEHEHEHE.

looking forward to me and clara's marche date on the day marche opens a new branch in northpoint/sunplaza/ssc HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

he reminds me so much of you.
the way he smiles, the way he talks, certain expressions he gives, certain angles from where i'm looking at him and even his laughter, it all just seems so much like yours.

it doesnt actually hurts like how it did in the past, where i felt like there is this gaping black hole within me sucking my soul and chewing my heart and making it hard for me to breathe.
it just feels like there is this dent which can never be repaired.
you are that dent.

he made me started thinking the past. how it was like and everything.
i don't actually regret. but maybe i do, a little, to a certain degree.
you were everything, but now you are just kind of a stranger.
it just feels weird.
because you were the one who understood me so much, wayyyy before everything started and ended.
i just missed that kind of relationship we shared where you can understand what i was trying to express and couldnt.
i cannot deny that i do miss you. so badly.
miss your innocent laughters and clear eyes cause i know you are always the truest to the people around you.
i need more real people like you around me.
people who dun try and hide how they truly feel because they are afraid that you would dislike them etc etc.
i wonder if you miss me sometime.
afterall, i was once impt to you, right?

it's funny how once people can be so impt to you and yet like strangers as time passed.
you are one, but yet there is her as well.
as to you, i'm still not comfortable to initiating convers, as i always do, since in the past, you are forever the one initiating convers with me hahahaha.
as to her, i tried. i tried calling, i tried texting, but to no avail.

my little girl, my little star, do you still rmb me?
rmb this little girl you piggybacked all the time?
rmb the time when we celebrated our birthdays tgthr?
rmb the girl whom tried to block you from shooting but fail miserably all the time?
rmb how i used to pat you on your back nonstop just to comfort you while you were crying?
rmb how you would scold me and call yourself my didi?
rmb how you would always laugh at me and yet treat me so well?
do you rmb how we talked about leaving our homes and stay tgthr in the future?
i still kept that drawing you drew for me and placed it on my study table where i could see it often.
i miss you my little star.
the brightest star in the whole universe.
i wish you could see this. so much so.

my internship...

for now, i'm only hoping not to fail. :(
was complaining to my colleague and i held back my tears.
called tay and tears swell in my eyes while i still tried to control it cause i was still outside.
and once i stepped into my doorstep, tears flowed like running tap. :(
why oh why do you have to do this to me?
am i really that bad in your eyes?
or do you just wanna escape the explanation parts?
it's so unfair cause you are judging while wearing those coloured specs.
i dun wanna fail. i want my diploma. :(

a little side story from the warrior girl fairytale,

As brave as warrior girl always seem, she still has her fears - storks.

You may think it's weird, but it's definitely without reasons. One huge contributor is that throughout her tough journey, there is this particular stork which follows warrior girl wherever she goes. It's creepy even. It would loom behind her in the darkness but she could feel it, and hairs would stand on her spine. It often peeks at what she is doing over her head using its long neck, and not say a word - for storks are mute. Though it does make a noise once or twice, but that's enough to freak warrior girl out and cause her to run as fast as she could to the nearest hiding place where her beloved friends in nature - trees and flowers - would shield her from it. Everytime she happens to look in the direction of the stork, she would see it shunning behind a leaf, as if it helps. Warrior girl can only pray that the stork would never try and get too close to her throughout her journey.

有没有人可以来救我？

Let me tell you a fairytale,

and like all fairytales, it goes like this:

Once upon a time, long long ago, there lived a little girl who stayed in a small little town with her happy family. But, there is just this one dream that this little girl has - to become the greatest warrior in the whole world. In order to do so, she would have to leave her beloved village and family to sought the wisdom and skills hidden in the Ancient Warrior Mysteries, said to be a myth.

She then climbed tall mountains, swam icy rivers, walked rocky paths. Throughout her journey, she met kind villagers who allowed her to stay in their homes for a night, sometimes with some bread as her meals. But she met even more bandits who took all her belongings while she slept by the fire she made herself.

It was tough as her once beautiful and smooth limbs were scarred, the blisters on her feet and hands grew blisters, and her once soft face toughen. She braved through all the storm and gales that the heavens gave her and finally, she reached her destination, the Beasts Mountain.

The Beasts Mountain received its name as it is decorated with big and small caves all around it, making it seem like a mountain with many eyes at night as the moonlight casts upon it, creating shadows. Additionally, the biggest cave of the lot hid a two-headed monster, one male one female, whose eyes can shoot deadly poisoned arrows.

HOHO yes the story have yet to end, but to find out whether warrior girl won in the end, please wait till i have received my grades for my internship next year and then i will be able to tell you. :) okay bye.

loves (L)

There are simply so many things that I like.
It's so difficult to find something that I love.


some of the favourite things i truly love; Milo, Penguin, Baby's Breath, Clover, Starry Nightsky

and thennn. i have no idea what else I truly love and are on the top of the favourites list.
as i said, there are simply too many things that i like.

it's so hard for me to decide what i truly love and state what is my favourite (insert word) and it can actually take me years to find out.
until now, i have no favourite food no favourite colour and so on and so forth.
sometimes i feel like there are so many things which i like but nothing which i truly love.
so when I do find something i love so much, i will hold onto it for as long as i can.

you have no idea how much i envy people who can name their favourite colour or their favourite food or their favourite cartoon character, etc.
i feel like i can't even decide on the simplest things like that.
:/ sigh fickle-minded me who changes her mind faster than anything else.

all in all, i guess i just wanted to express how easy it is for me to like something/someone, but it is so difficult for me to feel that i truly love something/someone and it actually depends on the memories that is associated with it.



typing this whole chunk which might not make any sense to you, i just wanna say:
hi my love,
happy 300th day <3
i guess you would understand what i am trying to say/express here.
i hope you do. :)

im happy to be in a simpler place, if only there arent creepy ppl. T^T