he reminds me so much of you.
the way he smiles, the way he talks, certain expressions he gives, certain angles from where i'm looking at him and even his laughter, it all just seems so much like yours.

it doesnt actually hurts like how it did in the past, where i felt like there is this gaping black hole within me sucking my soul and chewing my heart and making it hard for me to breathe.
it just feels like there is this dent which can never be repaired.
you are that dent.

he made me started thinking the past. how it was like and everything.
i don't actually regret. but maybe i do, a little, to a certain degree.
you were everything, but now you are just kind of a stranger.
it just feels weird.
because you were the one who understood me so much, wayyyy before everything started and ended.
i just missed that kind of relationship we shared where you can understand what i was trying to express and couldnt.
i cannot deny that i do miss you. so badly.
miss your innocent laughters and clear eyes cause i know you are always the truest to the people around you.
i need more real people like you around me.
people who dun try and hide how they truly feel because they are afraid that you would dislike them etc etc.
i wonder if you miss me sometime.
afterall, i was once impt to you, right?

it's funny how once people can be so impt to you and yet like strangers as time passed.
you are one, but yet there is her as well.
as to you, i'm still not comfortable to initiating convers, as i always do, since in the past, you are forever the one initiating convers with me hahahaha.
as to her, i tried. i tried calling, i tried texting, but to no avail.

my little girl, my little star, do you still rmb me?
rmb this little girl you piggybacked all the time?
rmb the time when we celebrated our birthdays tgthr?
rmb the girl whom tried to block you from shooting but fail miserably all the time?
rmb how i used to pat you on your back nonstop just to comfort you while you were crying?
rmb how you would scold me and call yourself my didi?
rmb how you would always laugh at me and yet treat me so well?
do you rmb how we talked about leaving our homes and stay tgthr in the future?
i still kept that drawing you drew for me and placed it on my study table where i could see it often.
i miss you my little star.
the brightest star in the whole universe.
i wish you could see this. so much so.