so i'm a fucking xiao qi gui now. sorry that i have trust issues okay.

you will never understand why i got them cause of my fucking ex who cheated on me over and over and over again. you will never understand the fear i get when i hear that some girl is trying to get near you. you will never understand how i feel.

differences between guys and girls. okay no i should say differences between you and me.

i do trust you on most things, but not when that party doesnt even know my existence? do you know that a decent girl treats a guy without a girlfriend and a guy with a girlfriend differently? do you know how many times a girl fell for my bf and started flirting with him cause she didn't know my existence has happened to me? countless.

sorry that my past made me have trust issues. many who promised me forever or the rest of his life had backed out and left. but this is who i am now. if you want the me without any trust issues, come back in the future after 30 years, if i am not yet taken. or you can also take a time machine back into the past 4years ago and kidnap the then me. or if you dun mind, accept the now me and be willing to change with me.

sorry for being intolerant and xiao qi and not understanding. for your info, i tried to be as understanding as possible. if not there wouldnt even be any posts like the one below. i know you are not angry. i am not angry either. i just feel sad. perhaps no one can understand how i feel. sorry my bad.

my wrong choices in the past made me the me i am now. i cant change my past. and i cant change how i am now. i tried to let you know that i am having trust issues but you took it as i dun trust you and i dun even know how to explain to you at that point in time. why am i always doing and saying the wrong things!? leave me alone for now.