don't think!

that's what most people would say. and that's what i would most probably do.
perhaps it's not fair. but i don't know.

past memories haunt me. even though i try to ignore them most of the times. but sometimes they would just creep back into my head.
the last time i cried over my losing my sec sch friends was like a few weeks back? and this matter has been like how long? 3 years? this is kinda crazy. imma crybaby. HAHA.

when they haunt me, they come back in one shot.
and why am i facing this again?
why am i facing you again?
have i been running away? trying to escape from you? from these?
you avoided me in school. i see you trying to cover up your face. i wanted to say hi. but how do i do so when i see you trying so hard to not let me notice you?
it hurts. kinda.
i miss you sometimes. to be honest.
someone who was such a big part of my life. who gave me such great impact. how can i just forget so simply?
all the happy times, all the sad times. i think i am only recalling the happy ones. there is no point in remembering the sad ones anyway.

you said that it's good for me in the long term. i dun see how. it made me more cowardly. maybe i should take a brave step forward but i dunoe how. im afraid of making a mistake again. :( but i dun wanna be unfair to anyone. i dun want to just take chances.

it's okay. we each have our own lives now.
you will always be someone i miss dearly. :) someone who will always be important. :)
may you have someone who is more impt soon.
i am really happy now.
and i believe that at the very end, we will be truly happy. :)





on a happy note, i'm so glad you called. :) never fails to make my day. ^^ see you soon. :)