Watched wongfu's video 'Komorebi' and it's just so soothing? relaxing? well I don't know the right word for it in English but the word for it in Chinese is 疗愈 hahaha.

was feeling rather down that my birthday is coming lol maybe I am not making any sense but I really don't want to grow old.

it's not so much of me growing old, but the people around me growing old, and the things around me changing.

I guess that's what I am really afraid of - changes.

but there just so many things/feelings that we are unable to describe using words alone.

sometimes, everything can be explained with an eye contact/expression, or rather 眼神 as the English translation is not enough to describe it. lol.

Perhaps we need a word to represent this feeling of smth being indescribable, or maybe 'indescribable' is that word hahahaha.