对你说一句，只是说一句，好久不見

studying while playing some playlist on youtube when I came across this which make me tear up so badly.
I guess there are always people you can neither get over nor move on.

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你会不会忽然的出现，在街角的咖啡店?
我会带着笑脸，挥手寒暄，和你坐着聊聊天。
我多么想和你见一面，看看你最近改变。
不再去说从前，只是寒暄，对你说一句，只是说一句，好久不见。。。

Watched wongfu's video 'Komorebi' and it's just so soothing? relaxing? well I don't know the right word for it in English but the word for it in Chinese is 疗愈 hahaha.

was feeling rather down that my birthday is coming lol maybe I am not making any sense but I really don't want to grow old.

it's not so much of me growing old, but the people around me growing old, and the things around me changing.

I guess that's what I am really afraid of - changes.

but there just so many things/feelings that we are unable to describe using words alone.

sometimes, everything can be explained with an eye contact/expression, or rather 眼神 as the English translation is not enough to describe it. lol.

Perhaps we need a word to represent this feeling of smth being indescribable, or maybe 'indescribable' is that word hahahaha. 

原来啊，很多感觉是每个不同的心情一点一点转换或累计的。
所谓的 ‘我没感觉了’ 是经过了无数次地不经意反感造成的。
我的心情为何如此，而这心情又会对我有什么样地改变呢？
好多事我很想问，却又不知该从何下手，也不知我是否该问。
总感觉怪怪的，可是我有点害怕，问了之后，我可能会更清楚明白自己到底在想什么，所以我更害怕了。