i have always thought, as transparent as i try my hardest to be, it is still very difficult to get people to fully understand me.
but that is to be expected, as they are, after all, not me.
at times like this, perhaps i should stop trying so hard to get others to see things the way i do,
but just let go and recognize this fact - that we are all alone.
it's okay to be alone, i'm not saying it's not.
being alone does not equate to being lonely.
humans need to learn how to be alone, how to come to terms with yourself, how to hang out with yourself.
if you can't even do that with yourself, then how do you expect others to do the same?
there is far too much clutter around my space that i'm gonna clear out soon.
i'll probably throw them away, and throw away the things that remind me of certain memories that i might otherwise forget.
but so be it, if i dun rmb them, then they are meant to be forgotten anyway.
i will be okay, with myself, then i ever will be.
that's okay.
i'm okay.
for now, i'm going down so i can go up.