I dk why I am feeling this kind of resentment towards you.
you told me that I don't have to pretend in front of you, but yet I feel so sick of this.
are you really being concerned?
or am I just somewhat disappointed at smth that I shld have less expectations about?
there is nothing more and I should not overthink.
I sincerely hope I'd look back at this moment in the future and laugh at how I am behaving right now.

dun talk to me dun tell me what to do dun give me any advice.
for now, im just clearing out thoughts.
i still have no idea what i want.
and i'm gonna take my own sweet time figuring it out.
you have your choices and you can do whatever you want.
i have options too, just that i have yet to make up my mind.
i just wanna laugh and not talk about negative things.
yep i just wanna avoid them and hopefully they will avoid me too.
it's like when i was a kid.
if it's troublesome and sad, i try to pretend that it doesn't exist and continue to play with other toys.
no need to make myself miserable by forcing myself to decide now.
i have lots of time.
and even if i don't, at least i don't think i am wasting my time now.
i will do fine.
with or without you.
because everyone is born alone and dies alone.
i am okay, i am fine.