What I really miss was the once happy me.
Can things go back to the way it was?
Idk anymore.
If I called you 'baby' one more time I know I will just crumble down to bits.
I am just trying so hard not to think about it.
I doubt I can take hearing your voice or seeing your face.
Idk if I miss you or the idea of you or the idea of us.
Lol am I making this complicated?
Just knock my head and give me a concussion and let me forget about everyth and restart all over again.
If not for all this hurt I wouldn't react the way I did.
I'd be this really happy girl who'd trust everyone completely again.
This kind of became a reflex, to withdraw and shut it down.
I am unable to vision nor believe in a future, then what do I do?
Tell me what to do.
I need to know, I want to know.