Technology.

I was coming up here, planning to talk about how Social Media has detached us, but I held that thought, because no, it's not just Social Media, it's Technology.
I am not excluding myself, because in this tech-savvy world, where information has to be obtained in a click, I am, too, caught up in this whirlwind of what we call, technology.
There is this so-called transparency which lured us in.
We think that we know the true selves of people as we look at their profiles on Social Medias.
We think that we know everything, reading and believing every single online article post by human beings who are just like ourselves.
I mean, I understand that there are times when we just resonate with what others feel and say, but not everything, is right.
What I am really trying to say is, hold your own stand, instead of being so quick in believing in others' philosophies.
Is this world making us more individualistic, or more homogenous?
We are basically living almost the exact same lives.
I mean we share our lives, across Social Medias, and we look at things that we can't reach through others' eyes.
and THAT is their perspective, not yours.
I never doubted in the human touch, which I, to be honest, have been lacking recently.
I have been really out of touch.
I was just basically absorbed in myself, and I just look at how my friends are doing through Social Medias.
But is that right?
is that really right?
I tried changing these few days. I tried helping out with the grocery shopping today.
I discussed with my mum about the dinner that she is gonna make today.
I then realised that it has been long since I last talked?
I mean properly talked?
I don't know, maybe I have been so absorbed in myself that there is nothing happening in my life right now, that I don't know what to say anymore, since there is no event which I can talk about.
Nothing happening except more technologies, which includes social media, online games, blogs, vlogs, and many more.
Why the hell am I being so concerned about strangers' lives when there are so many more people AROUND me that I should be caring for.
I talked to my mum a little about her mum, who passed on recently.
It felt kind of good.
I talked to my dad ytd too, showing him a new way of eating bananas which I saw on the Internet (yes, again) and then he talked about his old kampong life which I asked a little about it.
I love my parents, despite how annoyed they make me sometimes, but I guess I should be the one who should be a little more patient.
I will change.
The quarrels in my house, definitely not the best thing to happen.
I hate the arguments so much so that I often join in as an attempt to stop it.
Yes I know, worst decision ever made.
Tonight, I stood out of it.
I was getting pissed at the attitude and tones of voice, but I held my tongue.
I told myself to just stay calm, face the fact that I am angry, and just let go.
Yup a trick I kind of mastered in 'Tuesdays with Morrie' but never exactly used it much.
I look at my sisters.
The youngest one, forever on her phone.
I guess I was wrong in encouraging my parents to get her a phone w data plan.
It just made her hooked on.
I mean, she sacrifices her sleep just to talk to her friends, and then procrastinate on bathing until the wee hours, like until 4-5am until she decides she will not bathe and just go to sleep straight.
Yea I am NOT kidding.
The other sister, perhaps she is a little bit better in this way?
But she, too, places much importance in her friends.
I mean, I used to be like this too, back when I was 17?
The time when I just entered poly and was really deprived of friends because of what happened to me in my secondary school life.
But I soon got all better.
But somehow, it's different now.
I thought with two funerals held in the past one year, having two losses in our family, they'd wake up, just a little, about how family can be the most important sometimes.
Even my dad is addicted to technologies.
I guess only my mum is the only one who is not hooked, since she don't understand much about technologies anyway.
I don't deny that I am kind of hooked too.
After I started playing this new game which I am almost on regularly throughout the day for the past few days, I realised what I was doing and I stopped.
No way am I going to play this game because there is some time thingy and I am logging just to receive more benefits on the game, since those benefits are virtual..
Unless I get real cash if I logged on, or else NO WAY am I gonna let a game dictate how I spend my time.
So, I am gonna stop with it now.
I realised how much time I am spending on social media too.
I think my phone has got to leave me for a while.
I gotta learn to be a little bit more independent.
I shall spend more time on other things, like baking, cooking, studying.
I would love to go out soon too, to go shopping, and eating, but it costs a whole lot more money in comparison hahaha.
and I am not earning anything now so I guess it would be wise for me to try and control for a bit.
My mum talked about how it would be great when I start working and help out in the finances.
I would love that too, and that's why I have always wanted to go out there to work.
Somehow, I have defined working = living.
and that's probably why I have been finding my life mundane and boring.
But I guess that's my problem too.
I am the one letting my own life settle to this really slow pace.
I need to pick myself up a little bit more instead of just sitting around, like how I am doing now.
Heh. I shall go to bed now, and wake up tml trying to change myself a little bit more :)
Goodnight world.