love is...

Love is when we both remind each other not to forget the other's presence.
Love is when I laugh when I see the messages we send each other.
Love is when you woke up extra early due to our time difference in order to get a phone call with me despite rushing your projs and schwork.
Love is when you are so far and yet so near to me.

We have been meeting up fairly frequently ever since I came back from china and now this got me trying to adapt to long period of time without you.
Probably to remind myself how much I love you hiahia.
And it's probably harder this time because I'm not the one out there getting distracted by the environment and everything else that I have to get used to.
Like what adeline said, if im the one at europe I would be alot happier and less jealous lolol selfish girl I am.
As the saying goes, 小别胜新婚 or distance makes the heart fonder.
Cant wait for you to come back and do all sorts of silly things with me.
Cant wait to see your face and pinch it so hard muahahaha.
And I cant wait for our future where we will be touring europe all by ourselves hehe.
Less than three weeks to goooo before I see youuuuu!!! ^^ yayers!!

no time wasted.

i have been wasting a lot of time? i guess.
hahaha.
been spending most of my time reading the manga detective conan recently and i really love that comic.
i dun even know how can they come up with so many tricks in the first place for conan to solve.
ohmy so smart and i am quite happy that the manga is ongoing hehehe i think i would cry when the ending comes out. hahaha.
i have been to places. and took pics with my wonderful new note 2 lol.
and i wanna post them here.
but yes, not now ohmy lazy lazy.
i have no idea if i am wasting my time, or wasting my life, reading those mangas.
but then i enjoy them, they make me experience something that i wouldnt experience in my life.
thats special.
by reading these mangas or comics i seemingly am doing something that i couldnt.
isnt that really really cool!?!?
hahaha okay i am kind of in my own world now.
perhaps i can better make use of my time by doing something creative? or learning something?
or i probably should just sign up for a course to learn something.
hahaha i should also bake one day.
and cook too, since i am quite satisfied about the meal i cooked for papa on fathers' day keke.
really really cannot stand rude people and those who cannot clean up for themselves.
yes your parents definitely spoiled you.
and no i am not gonna be nice to you.
what for?
when you can't even complete simple tasks to help around in the house.
i give up on you.
i wouldn't be the one staying with you in the future anyway.
so really, no point to me.
oh whatever.
you can do whatever you like.
so dun blame me for doing whatever i like :)
all these are just gonna add up and come back to you next time.
i will just wait for that time to come.
ohh and i should probably exclude your clothes in the laundry too.
since you arent doing anything helpful anyway :)
what a good idea.

learn to let go.

You, of all people, should already know this, don't you?
There are a lot of things in life which don't actually matter that much.
When you think back in a few years' time you are just gonna laugh at the you now, like how you are laughing at the past you.
When you face death, when you face losing someone, you will suddenly realise that everything else doesn't matter anymore as long as that person is happy and alive.
Remember?
That's what you resolved to yourself.
You wanted to be someone who can let go of less important things easily, so be her, be that someone.
Since it passed, it's gone.
Forget negative things, remember happy ones.
Jiayou.

long time no seeeeeee

my face.
hahahahaha.

started working at cedele.
and i really hope that i can start serving people and actually start talking to people. :(
been working the morning shift which starts at 7.30am and i am really bored because most of the time i am just doing preparation work (since i'm still a noobie) and thus minimal chance of talking to people, be it colleagues or customers.
i can literally feel that my mouth stinks, all cause it is shut most of the time. :(
and this is like the cause of my unhappiness at work hahahaha.
but at least aft the peak hour, i can still chat a little w my colleagues. at the very very least.
and i am learning to make sandwiches muahahaha.
just that they are really hot and my fingers hurt T^T but i have to bear with the pain to make the sandwiches as fast as possible oh sighhhh.
but a good thing is that the shift ends at 3.30pm, which leaves me plenty of time thereafter to do my own things, though i just head home and take a nap hahaha.
proud of myself today since i din waste my time napping away and i even did some aerobics muahahaha though i din finish the routine 'cause it's just too hard on my alr tired body D:
hope tonight i can have a good night's sleep and not have insomniaaaaaaa.
tml is another morning shift, and next week is another week of morning shifts as well.
lalala at least i get to eat fruit tarts and cupcakes and cakes hehehehe.

yayy tay reached amsterdam safely. jealous esp cause minho was there in shinee's one wonderful day if i din rmb wrongly hahaha.
and his hotel is really pretttyyyy.
wish i was there but too bad i am not.
gonna have my dinner at this late timinggg.
bye.

I am grateful.

Last night I had this sharp migraine when I went to sleep.

When I woke up at 5plus in the morning due to the pain, I really thought I was dying.

It hurt so much that tears just came naturally to my eyes.

All I thought as I fall asleep is please let me wake up tml.

It's a little drama but you know there have been lives lost through sleeping right hahaha.

And for now, I am truly grateful that I woke up and am alive.

I am grateful that I was able to spend the night w my friends.

Happy birthday adeline toh haha.

I am grateful to have everyone.

Thank you for keeping me alive.

Thank you for life. 

i miss this boy so much.

yes ignore my face lol.

he actually requested for this pic of him kissing me to be taken.

i guess it's probably because he just wants me to have a picture of his affection before we part.

i have no idea if i miss him because i was too used to having him by my side for almost everyday for two weeks before he flew off or i miss him just because of the fact that he is not here in singapore.

i mean, it's not been a week since he left and so i should be coping well, right?

it's probably after he's gone then i realised how much he's been doting and loving me. loll.

thank you for loving me and treating me like your dream girl even though i know i am not. sobs.

i can never be those gentle and soft girl w fair skin.

what he wants is something like the elegant princess kind.

ya actually i behave like a princess too. the demanding kind. HAHA.

i am trying to type more here so i dun have to see my face above.

yue kan yue qian da.

hahaha.

come back sooon.

safely.

bring my camera and laptop back safely too.

so annoyed at the fact that you are touring those beautiful and romantic places not with me but with your friends and their girlfriends. (please imagine i spat the word 'girlfriends' like how i would spit tomatoes out with a gag. out of the point but yes i vomit at the taste of tomatoes.)

yes, sibei annoyed at the fact that there are other girls.

so it's like i am not the first girl you go those places with.

roll eyes to europe and back.

yes i am a possessive woman who is probably possessed right now.

or my emotions is just uncontrollable due to the fact that i am pms-ing right now.

esp when the girlf is one whom tay praises as someone who treats his friend very well.

sorry horh it's just the start of the relationship.

give it a few more months then we see how again lohhh. lolol wicked me.

just dun think that the girl and the friend very good leh.

yes i judge from the face hahahaha.

somehow i can tell someone's character and personality from the face.

actually it does show.

not that i am judging.

i just don't like their personality.

it's hard to find someone whom i like their personality leh.

even if you are best friends with me i also may not necessarily like your personality.

probably the reasons why i always fight w sebas. HAHAHAHAHA.

he is wishywashy and annoying to the max.

guess he knows that himself.

but seeeee we are still best friends HAHA.

out of so many people i know, there are only a few who have personalities that i really really really like. hahahahahaha.

okay but people bound to have weaknesses so yea.

back to the point of missing tay after digressing for so long, i really hope you be a bit more sweeter in your text to me leh sucker. >:(

i know not your pattern but tskkkkk show me more love since you are so far away kay.

even though you are tired max sobs.

argh i am probably just ranting because i cant go to either europe nor korea.

RAGE.

why my parents tio 4d so long after the korea exchange program application ends!? :(

ytd my mum asked me if it's still possible to apply so i think she would actually allow if it's like now. cheh. it's too late. :'( SOBS.

AHHHHH AM I JUST RANTING CAUSE I AM JUST HERE!?

LEE JIA LE WHY OH WHY LEE JIA LE.

NEVERMIND YOU GONNA EARN SOME MOOLAH TML OKAY.

anyway tml is the day that i start work O.O

so sudden since i only got to know about it today.

whatever.

i just hope it will be funnnn!

hope there are super cute colleagues tml waiting for me hehehe.

and working time is 3pm to 10.30pm and tay usually contacts me at about 8plus 9pm because it's lunchtime in europe and they would find a cafe/restaurant with wifi noooo means i cant reply him tml alr..

i would probably be deadmeat by the time i reach home tml.

sunday is bbq day..

i haven do adeline's card...

i should probably start now......

goodbye.....

I only wanna be me.

I need to constantly remind myself that I need to impress nobody.
Why do I need to take a selca shot which I'm satisfied w to post on insta.
I would really much rather no friends follow on my insta or I probably should just unfollow friends there.
I post my selca when I feel really happy about something and I just wanna capture my own happy face.
But nowadays I feel judged somehow.
I should go on a unfollow spree seriously.
At the very least I'm using twitter as little as possible like what I wanted.
Yea I'm probably just afraid of being judged, but so what.
I dun wanna try and act or become a pretty girl.
Why do people want to be pretty?
Sometimes when myself try doing that, I just feel disgusted and start making ugly and funny faces again.
Yes I like to be funny.
It just feels more me, and the feeling of being me just feels so great.
I am grateful and thankful that I can be so elated w just being myself.
Thank you for letting me be me.
I would be stronger and braver as each day pass by.
I want to bring more happiness to everyone, even strangers.
And I guessed I alr did that twice today by helping two different people. Heh.
That feels good.