weird traits.

i know i have been posting a lot, which just probably means i have nothing else better to do (other than studying) at home.
you know some weird traits that human being have?
that applies to me too.
like, we all mind how others look at us.
though i am trying hard not to care/bother.
or we all just can't let go of certain things i suppose.
it's like those things plant seeds in your heart, and it grows into something unimaginable.
something probably destructive.
i am not one who wishes happy birthday on fb, but, only a certain few do receive.
these are times when i just kinda wanna wish you, for old times' sake but it's a little difficult for me to let go abt the past that much to pick up my phone to text it.
at least, to me, texting shows more sincerity, over twitter/fb.
a little unforgiving i suppose.
a little arrogant? maybe?
a little mean.
whatever.
just all the little things little negative traits that i have, which i suppose everyone else has too.
lalala as i grow older, i grow to become someone who does not forgive that easily anymore.
in the past, after i slept and woke up, i would have pretty much forgot about everything.
but not now, i have no idea why.
why do i care so much anyway?
it would better if i can just forget and let go wouldnt it.
i would be so much more happier.
but it's just not in human nature to forget.
even if you do forget, the other party might not, and they might even get suspicious of your intention/motive of being friendly.
oh sigh.
same goes to strangers.
when i just wanna smile and say hello and ask which floor they are going in the lift for instance.
and just the other day i met this really cute ahma.
i only smiled and asked about the floor she stays on and it was only the 2nd floor which is a real short distance but she smiled so warmly while accepting mine and even bothered to strike up a conver with me asking if i am studying.
i even had to hold the door awhile to reply and answer her question.
but then again, it felt really warm.
nice warm feeling that i should take note of.
go go go go go go i will be a warm person too!