i am still sensitive to the word 'death' or even seeing it happening, be it on the internet, news or even in  dramas.
i missed you terribly these two days.
nah, i miss you everyday, just that i chose to not see it so i can better cope with my life.
i am already 21! we are of the same age now! hehehe.
next year i will be 22 and you will still be 21.
sucker, you will forever be young hahaha.
we were so much like a couple when we were younger hahaha.
still rmb the time when we fought till i was hugging you so tight to bound your arms and you were trying to turn your head to lick my face lol but i stuck my cheek right against yours so you couldn't move.
even siblings might not be as close as us right!?
i still rmb the time when i was so pissed at you for stealing my egg off my plate 'cause there was none on the dining table.
and i even wrote in my diary saying i am never going to forgive you lolol those childish times.
it pains me to think that there will be no more childish fights and squabbles.
i miss just grabbing your arm and make you take photos with me.
i also miss laughing at your sleeve-like tattoos.
i miss biting you and making you surrender.
hahaha the only thing i can promise you is that i will never forget you, at least in this lifetime, unless i knock my head in some kind of accident and forget everyone else okay.
i will not let myself get dementia, i will work my brain every single day even when i am old.
tao, you must look over ahma okay.
her health is deteriorating.
i am really very scared of another death happening.
please don't, at least not in the near future.
give us more time with her.
thank you tao, thank you so much.
even though you always tease me, i know i can trust you this time round right?
i love you, always have, always will.