smells

Was waiting for tay in the middle of the night aft his supper at the door.
Opened the door wide and closed my eyes while sitting down cause i only woke up a few mins ago and was feeling really exhausted.
The wind blew in and i enjoyed the cool breeze as i felt more drowsy.
Then i caught it, i caught the smell that i haven taken in for a long time.
It's the smell of the silent night.
Or rather it's the smell when the sky is dark and most are still sleeping.
This is the smell i smell when i leave hse before the sun rises, with little people on the streets.
I like this calming relaxing scent.
My nose started remembering, remembering all the smells i have smelt.
The smell of my house, clara's hse, ortao's hse.
The smell of all the people.
Most of my friends shld know i have a sensitive sense of smell haha.
Sdnly i rmb the smell of ortao.
I miss his smell.
How i used to always smell him when we sit tgthr, when we hug, when we fight.
I can still rmb his smell, which is really comforting to me.
I recognise it as a smell which has a protective stance.
It's also a smell which hints fun and playful.
It's his smell.
When tay came and when we slept, i smelled him haha.
His is the soothing and calming kind of smell.
It gives me a sense of security.
Hate it when he is down with flu.
The smell of his cold makes me feel like i'm gonna catch a flu bug soon.
Sigh. I miss tao.