can't stop.

I can't stop thinking of you.
I can't stand myself idling.
I must always be doing something, or even 2 things at once.
Recently multi-tasking became my middle name.
People expect you to get over it, even though you never really do or perhaps you never will.
So you try your best to suppress whatever kind of emotions you have.
And for me, the best way is to keep myself busy.
I multi-task so much that i ask myself why.
I need to be doing at least two things and above at any one time.
It's not that only then would i not think of you. I still do, it's just that i would be busy enough to pretend not to notice you in my thoughts.
I still wish everything didn't happen.
I still wish that it's a dream.
I still wish that one day when i wake up i would find out that everything was just a terrible nightmare.