my shanghai peeper

sooo i just watched the ep of running man in china and then i tot of the times i was there (though they were in beijing and i was in shanghai) and i realised i do miss the people there. :(

how i wish i can bring them all over for a visit.
i miss lisa and rita who actually emailed me and they must be busy with their work cause they reply rather slowly hahahaha. and lisa said smthing which made me feel so damn touched. she told me that she was sure that my future will be bright and she felt that i'm a girl who has a lot of thinking as compared to those of my age. :') it made me soooo touched. and rita telling me that she has been missing me just broke my heart.
sdnly i wonder how wangxiaojing my dear nancy is doing. she wanted to come over to sg to study i know that and how i wish i could ask her to come over and then she could learn english and thus become the translator she has dreamed of.
and our huahua is she working with rita now? but rita only told me about vanessa sigh.
and then i wonder about our xiaolu if he has alr forgotten huahua. and if he is still okay without me, the only person he really confided in. :(
sigh sdnly i could hear all their voices ringing in my head chatting happily with me. omg am i gonna tear right now? :(
this missing just came so sudden idk how to deal with it.
and listening to the chinaman in my office talk and he sounds so much like simon. simon who is sooooo nice to us and would always think in our shoes and who always ask sheepishly if we could help him with the english. then i would think of daniel and tina. daniel who always talks rubbish with me but yet is someone who i can share my ideals with. and tina who would confide in me cause she is always stuck in between the top management and staff. :(
and then i think of jason and anson who would take on the most jobs and even aft they scolded us they would show how much they truly care for us.
and then leetingting leeahyi how she would excitedly call out to me whenever she sees me and fancy who teng us and would bring us do retarded stuffs hahaha and emma who would always hold my hand and bring me everywhere and ahfu who is always so retarded and luobotou who is so annoying and forever teasing me hahahahaha. and also yaodapeng, niurui and peilidong!!! the three banquet musketeers and everytime i cry for help they appear like heroes and settle everything :')
sdnly i miss them all. so much.
i wonder if leeahyi or emma is getting married. and i wonder if tina alr found a job aft quitting hers in shcp. wonder if daniel is still staying there. wonder if simon is coping well being Windows' manager.

though it's not the place i miss, but it's this lovely ppl who brought me all these memories. perhaps it's not me wondering about how they are doing, but me worrying as none of them seems to be in a good shape before i left. :( i hope all of you are doing well.
我好想你们哦！

So what happens when disappointments become a habit?

hi there are tons of stuffs which i wanna blog about HAHAHA and all the pics in my cam/phone omg damn outdated alr HAHAHA.
so be prepared for my flooding of posts when i end my work aft 13june okay! HEHEHE.

nowadays the weather is such a killerrrr. everyone take care and drink galleons of water okay! <3
i love everyone TEEHEE.
and happy belated mothers' day to all!! kekeke.

BE BACK SOON! <3

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i miss having time for myself.
i miss it so much.
i miss just staying at home alone and then do all the stuffs i wanna do.
i miss just lying around on my bed/sofa/anywhere.
i need some time for myself. soon.
5 more weeks till end of contract end of work. thank goodness. :')

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i just don't know anymore..

Smtimes i feel like you find me not worth the effort anymore. Not worth spending the time on anymore. Perhaps it's true that they say aft the first year it's the hardest. I just dun wanna admit it. Im not gonna bow down at it. But smtimes i wonder, if i stop and fail, would you continue trying? Deep down inside i know you will stop, you will just excuse yourself and pretend that nothing happen like always. And then i will be left crying alone like the broken pieces only belong to me. So now i tear for all the fear inside of me. Just gonna be a weakling for one more night. Im gonna shut the doors now, any last words to stop me from doing so? If not, be prepared to scale the high walls of thorns.

cause i just got tired of everything.