idk who wrote it, but since you said i dun have to know, then so be it.
but thank you so much.
i'm so touched that i'm literally crying nonstop right now.
i know people think i'm retarded, weird and basically fun to make fun of.
but honestly, i dun want to be thought that way. it's not exactly positive right?
i hate it when i give a wild idea (which i truly truly believe that it works) and people just refute me with "you are being impractical" or "is that even possible!?!?" or "you are just being stupid/retarded/idiotic..."
now, i feel like i can understand how the first man who claims that earth is round feels.
INSTEAD OF STATING THAT IT'S ABSURD, WHY DUN YOU ASK YOURSELF "WHY NOT?"
seriously why not why not why not.
it's not even impossible?
and even if you think that it's stupid, why cant you think of way to like tweak it a little to your way?
why do you have to put it down so harshly?
it's my idea, my dream, my imagination.
now i know why people nowadays lack creativity.
there are so many things in life which you dun have to complicate.
it can be simplified in so many ways.
does complicating stuffs make you happy? if no then why are you doing that? because everyone else is doing it? do you even know if doing it makes them happy?
that's why it's so hard to find someone who understands me.
who would think my 'wild idea' is a 'great idea', someone who has chemistry with me.
it's just so difficult.
and i can't even fucking express myself well that people often misunderstands me and i just let them misunderstand because i am unable to find words to explain myself.
sometimes i just want to find a hole and hide inside there with my pillows and cry until i die.
what's the point of living when it's so restrictive and people AROUND you who are supposed to be the closest to you including friends, families, kins and even your boyf/girlf are objecting to ALLLL your ideas and thinking?
if you really think that i'm that stupid, then why stay with me at all?
i dun want to live this way because EVERYONE else is doing it.
then whats the point of being born different?
why dun we just born to look exactly the same with identical characters?
why do we have to lead lives like how everybody else is living?
culture and traditions?
it's supposed to make you feel :') when you think back about it. not feel :'( or even >:'( as you go through the process.
i'm not trying to be different to attract attention, i just wanna show people that i'm living happier by being more of myself. and that everyone can be too.
since we are all different and unique and special, then why do we have to lead lives that millions of others led?
i need to believe i will become a great lady.
i need to.
sdnly i just feel so alone in this world.
only me swimming in my thoughts which got condemned by everyone whom i thought was the closest to me.
idk who truly understands me, probably no one.
i know i am a weird person, i get that ALLL the time.
i just dun want to be anybody else.
i want to make an impact somehow, a proof that i was once alive.
living the same as everyone else, then what's the point of you living at all?
you are just some useless nobody who breathed in nature's air without giving back, who ate nature's food without doing anything in return, who wasted earth's resources in helping you to survive.
i am not gonna be just anyone else, i am not afraid to be different and weird, i am not afraid to go against the currents.
you dare me to? i dare to.
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