Up till now, i know i have no regrets, but it's just something that i wouldnt be able to let go, probably for the rest of my life.
I never forgot about it, not even for one day.
I feel sorry, not regretful, but so so so sorry.
I have let you down i know, and no matter how much i do, i will never be able to make it up to you.
I hope that you will ___ like what i said to tay that night. Please do. I really hope so.
Gonna tear again. Not the first time, and i think it wun be the last either.
This is the path that i chosen to take. I am sorry that i wasnt strong enough to go the other way. The only thing i can do for you, is to tear and never forget you.
Though i feel like im back to me again in singapore, there is still confusing part of me which i dun understand.
I have changed i guess. In a certain way.
I will change for the better, in the future.
Talk less and listen more. Know when to speak and speak the right stuffs.
Starting to think before i talk/act and restrict myself from being too straightforward.
Need to get out of the fandom soon if i wanna grow up.
Loving jonghyun would nv stop though. He is just different. He is not just an idol to me.
Ever since i watched hello baby when i first saw him, i feel that he is so much similar to me. It's like i can totally understand his retarded actions etc.
The feeling got stronger when i found out we were of the same birthdate.
I know it's silly but you know that sort of thing when ppl from the same birthdate has similar characters that sort of thing?
Same goes for ppl with similar horoscope. And you will be even much more similar being born on the same date.
So to me, jonghyun is like this extraordinary version of me doing things that i want to do but am unable to do so. :')
Im always changing, like how my mood will change within seconds. Im changing so fast that even i dun understand. But just keep up with me kay. :)
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