LDR

watched a LDR video and it's like fuck i can feel them.
even though mine was only like for 6months and he came to visit in between but somehow i felt that so tough. because i couldn't talk to him when i want to. eg whatsapp or whatever.

i couldn't whatsapp him. i could only text him. and he couldnt even reply cause of his prepaid card. so it's like a one-way thing and i wouldn't even know if he actually received them anot.

i could only call when i can. but i wouldn't know if he is free/sleeping. and every call is so fucking expensive i would spend like SGD20 per call. hahahahaha. he doesnt know but calling him is the reason why my china prepaid card is always stopped.

and he isn't always online? we dun even skype. he doesnt even have a skype acct and he doesnt know how to create. and his laptop/desktop dun even have a webcam. so whats the point.
we only skyped like once or twice? when he borrowed his bro's laptop.

we just use msn. or emails. there was a period of time when we only emailed each other once a week. merely an email per week.
i was dying to know whats going on in his life but he was busy and i was busy. and the replies became really slow.

idk but this probably strengthened us?
forever afraid that things will get awkward when i get back. hopefully not.

i love you my dearest. see you in one and a half weeks' time. <3