Losing a Best Friend
(saw this on cab's tweet)


i'm really so freaking glad that me and sebas stayed together despite everything:

his wishy-washiness which irritates me to no end~
my bhb-ness which makes him wanna vomit his guts out~
me being so straightforward that i ____ *ahem* nonstop no matter how much he tries to defend but nv really actually getting pissed cause he knows he is the reason i am pissed~
his retardedness which makes me laugh like crazy~
my being gullible which cheers him up when he plays stupid jokes on me~

no matter how long we have not talked for, no matter how long we have not met for (almost a year now...)
whenever we talk, there is this indescribable connection in btwn us. :')
who ever said that platonic f/s cant exist?
who ever said that a guy and a girl can't truly be just best friends?
it's like there is never this awkward-ness btwn us.
okay maybe just a little at the start if it has been really long since we last talked/met.
but we break the ice almost too quickly and i will just blabber on while he whines like an old lady AS USUAL AHAHAHAHA.

i rmb i was the one who called him my bestf first. since i din had much friends then. and i rmb the happiness i got when he reciprocated my 'bestf feelings' by calling me his bestf for the first time :')
we dun hug or whatever like how they say bestf will always give and our physical contact will probably be just  be me punching him and him punching me but :')
we are always there for each other mentally HAHA. and emotionally of course.

the promise that we will always be there for each other is different. from lovers i mean.
it's like a 'i'll be there to comfort you and bitch about your partner if he/she ever lets you down or even lecture you on how stupid you are in this r/s" kind of there for each other. :')
and i got a shock just the other day when i found out that sebas hit my bastard first boyf for me? O.O
though i still kind of cannot believe it.
SEBASTIAN LOO IS THIS TRUE OR YOU ARE JUST LYING TO ME CAUSE IM THE GULLIBLE IDIOT HUH!?
it's nice how we have a nice nickname for each other (aka idiot -_-) since idk when.
i'm just happy that we never ever drift no matter how minimal we keep in touch. :')

i know you are going through a rough patch and i have been a bitch (towards you-know-what) but rmb that it's all cause of you okay you sucker.
i have alr ran out of words of encouragement and scoldings.
sometimes when you are feeling down, i just wish i am at some kind of beach with you so that we can scream our heads off or go cycling to let the wind blow away our troubles.
nature sometimes do make this kind of miracles you know.
i'm sorry that i am far away in china and you can't have anyone there physically for you so that you wun feel lonely that much.
i can only hope that you are cheering up and be happy.
thank you for being there for me during the scary and dark patch that just passed and for being my love messenger HAHAHA.
you are one of the most impt MEN in my life okay. though you not really a man HAHAHA.
you know i love youuu. :')
best friends forever.
like really.
even aft i die, (i hope i die first so that i can do the following) i will haunt you forever by floating around your room (when your bro is not in) aimlessly :')