negative

the calculative side is showing.
not only that, the well-hidden selfishness and meanness are in sight.
my fear is growing.
i have no idea what is happening.
should i try and embrace it?
should i stop plastering it up with soggy paper soaked with glue?
is all the negatives showing cause my tolerance is reaching its limits?



i really dislike people who take me for granted.
and i really dislike people who touch my stuffs without my permission.
and even more so when the 'stuffs' in question are perishable and they finish it without considering if i need it or not. (to emphasize my point, the things belong to me/i obtained them from somewhere)

fyi, i just din want to use the word 'hate' for its strong meaning.

somehow, i am someone who is independent in that sense that i do things or keep/tidy my own belongings without needing any help unless i ask for it.
i'm somewhat stubborn like that.
i have my own principles, my own mindset, my own thinking.
and it's extremely difficult to sway them once i am set.
if you think it's easy to change my mind, then it's probably cause i was originally sitting on the fence.
sigh.