kind of aimless now

it's getting late and i should really sleep but i keep thinking. :/

everyone's starting their internship now and here i am, just waiting for time to pass and wasting my life while waiting for the docs to arrive just so i can apply for visa and fly to china.

to be honest, i kind of regret going for overseas internship fml.

all this shits that we have to go through oh fuck why din anyone tell us about that?

as usual, they only focused on the good parts yeayea.

if not i would be starting work like next monday lahhhhhhh!! instead of wasting time like now WALAOOOOOO i really want to start internship ASAP oh fuck i feel like i'm wasting time, wasting my life doing absolutely nothing oh fuck my life why is my life like this now.

i really DO feel aimless ohmygodddddd. :(

i should get a job? BUT WHO WANNA HIRE A GIRL WHO IS LIKE STARTING HER INTERNSHIP IN LIKE THREE MORE WEEKS!?

but that means i have three weeks to waste WALAO super sian damn sian what to i do in these three weeks!?

the more i type here the more sian i feel.

everyone has smthing to do smthing to look forward to.

and i'm just nua-ing here. and nua-ing, and nua-ing. and more nonstop nua-ing. SIAN JI PUA I NEED TO FILL UP MY LIFE WITH MORE ACTIVITIES D: MORE AND MORE AND MORE ACTIVITIES!

but the more i go out = the more i spend money and fuck my money flowing out of my wallet faster than the rain falling from the sky okay. :(



okay one good thing that happened out of these is that WOOHOO ME AND CLARA GOT THE TIX TO SHINEE WORLD CONCERT OMFG IM GONNA SEE MY DEAR JONG AND KEY AND ONEW AND MINHO AND TAEMIN *-* OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

okay once i think of seeing them in real life i get REALLY excited.

but on another hand i really regret going overseas internship at this point in time. D: i just hope that i really get good exposure and experience there like seriously. :(

should i have stayed in singapore and go to SES instead where i will be doing events which i will like better? D: okay i really have no idea. okay there is nothing i can do now except to waste my life and time. :(



okay thanks and bye.

to reiterate my point, I REALLY WANNA START MY INTERNSHIP NEXT MON LAH WALAO WHY AM I NOT FLYING TO SHANGHAI TML!?!?!?!?!?!