feeling so alone.

but perhaps tay is right.

i'm sorry clara and ade but going lunch with them made me feel more isolated. HAHA.
i can no longer comprehend what is happening in their lives.
it's like the paths of our lives are separating, for real.
confided in tay and that asshole >:( made me felt worse. but in the end i guess i can understand what you are trying to say eventually. and thanks bb for trying to comfort me aft i complained though you dun have a clue how to.

it's a fact. a certain fact that one day our lives might no longer cross. no matter how tightly intertwined they are, there comes a day when all contact is lost.
there will come a day, when my life would be revolving around my husband, my kids, my family and my career if i have any.
i would probably end up friendless like my mum? :/ though i really dun want that to happen. :(
i guess for now, i can only let nature takes its course and see what kind of choices life offer me in the future and how i can overcome them and what paths and obstacles in life would i face.
hugging captain really makes me feel calmer. :)
it's like someone there for me though it's yea just a soft toy.
but probably better than now when all my sisters are in school and my mum's out and my dad's sleeping and i'm kind of all alone in this house. :/ captain is my only solace and at least i have him with me.

we ARE going to drift. i know that. i can only cross my fingers and hope for the best.
sigh.
okay going back to watch my shows since i have nothing else better to do.
bye.