saw something like this on tumblr:
"I don't feel like a child back then. I don't feel like an adult now."
it's simply because, you will forever feel like you yourself.


sang a lot of songs today which i have yet touched for a long time, even for years.
many past memories went past my mind, resulting in my extreme mood swings.
sorry baby and thank you for your great patience and tolerance.
very often, i try my best to block out those hurtful memories, which i only now then realise that it is very unhealthy.
instead of leaving my wounds to heal, i covered it up with a cloth which is not disinfected and hoping that no one will see it. and soon, i forgot about those covered wounds.
but little did i know, they were affecting me as i din not let them heal properly and scar and fade off.
my life was greatly impacted by them as they hurt occasionally, causing me to feel afraid and insecure and distrustful.
i know now, that it is time to face them properly, which is the only medicine which can cure these infected wounds.
i will mature and be stronger. i will no longer leave the past me to wallow in the past. i need to grab the past me and with the current me, we will look at my blissful present and bright future together.
GOGOGO!