why do i get the feeling that i am slowly losing myself?
it's like i'm afraid to walk a path of my own, that i often choose to walk the path of another.
why are my choices so easily influenced by others? regardless of consciously or subconsciously.

as i grow up, i become more and more afraid, instead of becoming braver.
i need strength, within me. yes, i need my own strength to stand up.
i see myself standing up to people, even strangers, when i used to be so afraid of speaking up.
is that strength in me awakening?

jiale ah jiale.
why are you like that?
i really dislike you being like that.
be braver to walk the path that you wanna walk in.
stop feeling awkward when you make a mistake.
just tell yourself, you are only human and this is alright.
take it with a pinch of salt and smile and move on.
do whatever you want.
i trust that you will make the right decisions and choices.
i trust that you are not going to let people down.
you know what you want.
you just have to go out there and try and achieve it.
you are slowly becoming the way you want to be right?
yes, good girl, be more confident.
smile more and you will look prettier.
you have always believed that looks dun come from the outside but inside right? :)
you are right.
have faith in yourself and believe in what you believe. :)
think of all the adorable people who love you and whom you love.
it's okay feeling awkward sometimes and don't know what to do.
it's just a passing feeling.
you will be a capable person in no time.
you are an adult now.
take responsibility of your actions and thinking.
worse comes to worst, you have me, yourself, to depend on.
i will not betray you even if the whole world lets you down.
i will stand by you even if the whole world opposes you.
you have me to count on, for the rest of your life.
you can do it.
what's more you are not alone.
look at mrtay, your family, your friends.
you are an awesome person.
you are gorgeous.
you are beautiful.
stay happy and optimistic.
i love you no matter how ugly you look or how much fats you gain. <3