sometimes i have this intuition i'm going to die in the near future

then i will start thinking, will anyone forget me? or will they miss me?

though it never happened, somehow i always felt the need to jot down my will and some last words to my loved ones somewhere.
never forget that all the money i have will be given to my parents. and never forget to say i love you to all my loved ones. you know who you are. :) and individual words would be too private to be written here. hahahaha.

and sometimes i feel like if i am out of their lives, would they live happier? and better? like i was originally a burden and they dunoe how to tell me to get out of their lives and since i'm dead i would be naturally not in their lives anymore and thus they would feel much much much happier after my death?

no matter what, i wouldn't know. since i would be dead. but by any chance you would feel sad, don't. cause rmb jiale stands for happiness. and stay happy cause you once knew me. :) and you know i would want you to be happy.

i used to think that if i die, i would want to become the guardian angel of all my loved ones and protect them like a little angel floating around. and i still do think that way now. :)