who i am.

another post on who i am. hahahahaha. will use a little vulgarities in here heh heh.

actually i think i am quite an asshole quite a fucker. i have LOTS of mean thoughts that i keep to myself and don't say. i comment meanly in my brain on even strangers who just walk past me. :/ why so mean!? i have no idea. those thoughts just came to me. i suppose i was quite a spoilt brat in the past. and thus i was or am still a mean child? hahahaha. i suppose so. and i think meanly of people. argh i should be kinder and more caring. :/ i dun like mean thoughts and always chide myself when i think them. by the way it seems like i mentioned this in the prev 'who i am' post? ok i dun care cause i felt all the mean thoughts attacking me really strongly today. :/

and i always feel like there is this me whom noone knows, whom i hide from everyone, whom i try my best to keep it a secret. :/ i cant be as open as others as much as i want to. is it weird? or am i just born this way? though outgoing, there is still this introvert side of me in me. what a weird components making up a weird me. :/

ok anyway. i shall stop blogging now. heh heh. goodbye~