i tot being a good kid was enough..

imagine whining for an iphone 4 for ages. and sdnly you have one at home, and it is not yours. :/ i feel so freaking sad. :( i will work hard and get one myself. i tot it is supposed to be better or smthing being the eldest. but it doesnt make a difference. :/ i nv did really ask for anything before.. never. i never got a mp3 or an ipod. everything i got like hp or psp was through my results. but sis always get wad they want despite not achieving the same results i had. maybe i shouldnt compare. but still, it's hard not to. it's dumb crying for materialistic things but i tot you would know and realise that i am different from the other kids. i dun nag my parents for buying me stuffs. i dun nag you for buying me those high tech stuffs. i only asked for them when my results was good and you told me you wanted to give me a reward. but that doesnt mean i dun want them. i never asked for money for the clothes i bot and everything i spent on other stuffs or even to top up my card to take train which my bus concession doesnt cover, unless you offer to pay for me yourself. i tot that if i dun do all these grumblings and be a good kid, one day you would notice that and give me a reward or smthing. maybe i tot too much. maybe i should be more contented.